My OCD is ruining my life. It is holding me from doing anything at all. I'm imprisoned. I want it to GO AWAY

What do you want to happen? You can make it happen fren. Don't give up. How old are you? It's never too late.

I don't know if this is OCD but I get this urge to do the same task over and over again until it's 10, or if I do something an odd number I have to make it even. For example if I blink one time it's odd, so I have to blink twice to make it even. Or I just decide to make it 10 times. If I tap my thigh with my finger same thing, got to do it 10 times. I also have some weird ass rhythmic thing where I can't have a clock in the same room with me where if my heart beats aren't aligned with the "tick tock" sounds I get anxiety and think my heart is going to stop.