My OCD is ruining my life. It is holding me from doing anything at all. I'm imprisoned. I want it to GO AWAY

No I meant just like if you were feeling bad and needed to talk to someone.

Jesus christ you sound like a massive fucking loser. Is this your endgoal ? Shitposting on a malaysian knitting forum ? You have litterally declined EVERY piece of advice in this thread. Go fucking neck yourself you pessimistic faggot. I hope you botch the job so the cops can legally force you into therapy, you actually sound like you need help.

This is going to sound weird but have you looked into the Law of Attraction? It's a lot to go over but you should look into it, it changed my life. It didn't necessarily help with OCD but it has brought me things in my life I really wanted. If you believe, you will be able to acquire some way to get out of your situation. Maybe it will be in the form of money, maybe someone will be willing to help you out, etc.

I'll ingest particulate matter from the contaminated air which could affect me mentally/cognitively(t.gondii is only one example as cats live here as well), possibly make me more like the people here whom i hate and want nothing to do with.
I always feel bad. There is nothing to feel good about.
Of course I need help. It completely controls my life to the point that I have zero life. I can't seek help because I have the OCD. It controls everything.
I do not recall. The OCD is my primary issue. If I were not here then I could excel in whatever I wanted.

you need to be more considerate, my friend. he has an illness.

Google the Law of Attraction and read into it. If you really believe, you can change your life.

lol OP this is literally
>The Secret
nonsense. Don't listen to this retard.

Many people including myself have experienced it. It has changed my life. I haven't seen The Secret so I can't comment. It's up to OP if he wants to try it but that's the advice I can give.

>There is nothing to feel good about.
Yes there is fren. This will pass and things will get back to normal pretty soon. What is it that you want to do and where do you want to move to?

It's too depressing to talk about. What does it matter? It's not going to happen. It's been this way for years now.