How can I kill myself. I'm not asking for methods because God knows I know just about every way to do it...

Also I spent some time in a psych ward with this girl who survived shooting herself in the head. Was not pretty.

my point isnt that you should kill yourself like that, my point is that you need to do it without thinking.

you want to die, right?

do it. the only thing stopping you is yourself.

I've made the effort. Went to jobcorps and got an education, job training (and advanced job training), and a little bit of free money, still wound up penniless sleeping in my grandmother's living room for years. Turns out training doesn't count for shit when your a deformed cripple. Last year was my 25th and I promised myself if I couldn't get an income by 25 I'd end it (been trying to get even just ssi for a few years now). 2 weeks before my birthday I left the house figuring I'd either die homeless or find some way to improve my life. Wound up in a psych ward a few times over a couple months and in and out of a homeless shelter. In the end I wound up right back where I started. Grandma's couch. And here I am now.

I know. Like I said the advice is solid. My mind constantly running 100mph is one of the things I hate the most. I can't not think about it. Lately my thoughts have turned to poison (my family keeps a supply of rat poison in the hallway) so there'd be a point of no return, test I could still just think afterwards. Plus they're scented and possibly flavored so that would make it easier.

Shit OP..

You are already such a failure that you want to kill yourself, and then you even manage to fail at that

can you solve this or not - stop pissing about!!

youtube.com/watch?v=Y1UlD0rhtlQ

Ikr I should probably just an hero

So should you. Not giving your vid the clicks your fishing for

I'm in a similar situation to you, without the cripple bit, I have no career and spent most of my earlier life hoping I'd die before it got to the point I needed one, I'm trying to find a menial job, to eventually do what I want, which has to do with art, it's what makes me happy. Now I ask you, what do you want, as impossible as it may seem in your head, what would make you happy?

if you have nothing to live for, why add selfishness to your list of problems

"The Obstacle is the Way" by Ryan Holiday

coursera.org/learn/the-science-of-well-being/home/welcome