At what age did you accept the fact that you're going to be alone forever and no one will ever love you?

Around the age of 18. I was really optimistic back then, even though I had never even had a friend. What was I thinking.

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You have schizoid and schizophrenic confused anyway. They're not the same

I've been a popular guy surrounded by people laughing at my jokes, getting invited to parties, having popular girls ask me to prom. And I've been a loser who nobody calls.

How easy it is to step across the line between the two is surprisingly thin.

I realised at 11 that I would never be able to find anything near what love is.
I've had 1 girlfriend in my life and we didn't even like each other, we just said we were going out because we both thought it would be interesting to see how people's perceptions of us would change knowing we were in a relationship
we don't talk anymore but we were treated with a whole lot more respect by our peers at the time

Couple months ago
Realized I will probably never find a girl who shares similar tastes as me and isn't some hedonistic leftist roastie
Cut off all social media and don't talk to any of my friends anymore
Haven't talked to family since November
Basically hate my roommates
Been NEET for months
Eventually I'm going to muster the courage to take the shotgun in my closet and walk into the woods or something

You are free now.
Acceptance is liberation.
Wasn't really worth it anyway

Yep I feel this. What makes it kill is that I did it to myself. At some point I chose to grow distant from my friends, to grow weak and embittered. Now that I'm ready to reach out again there's no-one left, and it's been so long I don't have the skills to meet new people anymore.

i will NEVER be alone because i have myself for company. you just cant be arsed to cultivate self love. PATHETIC

I don't want you to be alone user. I want you to find true love. I believe we are all gonna get there someday but this world is so cruel I don't blame you for giving up on it.

If you are willing to believe me though, I have pretty good knowledge that things are going to change dramatically for everyone soon and for the better. If you hold out through these dark days you will be able to watch it happen and you will find love. Even if you can't hold on you will too I just wanted to tell you.

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what knowledge are you talking about? where did it come from? how exactly are things gonna change?