Had a girlfriend who i really liked
>inb4 normi
She was shy, long black hair, and she was cute.
Problem is we had an argument, she believes I'm toxic, she browses reddit, and she was pretty shocked when she found out i use this place as it feels like a proper home, i won't quit this place, i love it ive been grown with it, been here for so long cant even imagine how i would be without it. I wont obey to her. Decided to not even bother. The more i ignored the more angry she got.
>How does it make you feel to know that? Do you wish it was different?
Well, my life is already awful since I'm disabled, so it doesn't exactly help my outlook.
I guess knowing that I'd be recycled and became something else would be some solace, but this life is all I know; and the universe is far older than I remember.
My BF left me last week
I want to die
Also I'm pretty drunk
Man if i saw pic related like that irl id be jizzing my pants for hours. This is beyond divine
Also here for you gibs
>nothing is fun to me at the moment so really I'm just wasting time until I can go to bed
I'm hearing that you're feeling pretty numb, maybe you feel like you might have anhedonia?
>I dont have anything I look forward to and I just wish I didnt have to do day after day like this plus I feel I'm just getting worse and worse started cutting again etc.
So would you feel better if you knew you were going somewhere? Do you think knowing that it's all for something would help you accept discomfort or suffering on the way? How do you feel when you cut, if you don't mind me asking?
>I'm just so drained of energy all the time
>I can never being myself to do anything useful with myself
It sounds like you have a lot you want to do user. I'm sorry to hear that aligning your energy with your intentions is so difficult, I feel the same way. What would you get done first if you had a lot of energy? What would feel great to get done?
>why do you keep trying
i have a tranny robot bf who moved to live with me, i dont want to make my parents newfound efforts in vain, and what if there's a higher power. i prayed and some things started to work out but it couldve been coincidence
I don't know, it feels like there are a lot of things I'd want to do, doing some actual exercise so I can stop being miserably out of shape would be one of them, and I'd like to learn to draw, I've got ideas for a video game I'd like to make but I can never just sit and focus and get ideas down on paper because I hate everything I try to do
Hey user, thank you. How are you?
I'm feeling down because I realized I'm prob going to die alone. I don't think I'm too ugly that's not my issue, problem is women don't really atract me, or at least not enough for me to consider a long term relationship. I'm more attracted to men but I can't see myself geniunely loving one (doesn't help that most gay men are extremely flamboyant and I despise that). So yeah, I can't seem to love anyone, and I doubt anyone can love me back. Worst thing is that I realized I'm not actually getting any better. I've been hitting the gym for a year now and recently made some new friends, for a while I felt "happy". I felt happy when I went to the gym, or hanged out with my friends, but as soon as I'm alone again the thought of being forever alone kills me and I feel extremely lonely. I'm tired of feeling "happy", I'm tired of this fake cope and happiness. Don't know what I'll do
I just want a friend I can play vidya with but they never want to play
Other people always come first even when we have plans. I'm not meant to have friends I think
>I'm hearing that you're feeling pretty numb, maybe you feel like you might have anhedonia?
Yeah idk I dont wanna diognose myself Ive been to a doctor but all he did was give me some paper that says this dude probably has depression and now I need to look for a therapist but that shit is impossible and there are only a few spaces available so I'm not even really bothering pursuing this whole getting help meme
>So would you feel better if you knew you were going somewhere? Do you think knowing that it's all for something would help you accept discomfort or suffering on the way? How do you feel when you cut, if you don't mind me asking?
I mean I am not neet so in some way I am on my way going somewhere but I feel like I dont even care about that or what will happen to me in the future I'm just more or less apathetic with my own life.
I dont really feel better when I cut its just something I do when to blow off some steam I guess when I get really overwhelmed and angry at myself I slice a few cuts and yeah thats it but it doesnt even help really