Free (you)s for lost dudes

im worried about the future and what ill be. scared i wont be interested in anything that pays well
i feel like i cant create art. i suck at music, drawing etc.
all these feelings are bottled up together with constant deadlines from school to deliver projects and shit.
i dont feel like i can talk to my friends at all about this stuff, we never have serious conversations, always joking around.

thanks for doing this thread so i could vent a little.