I have nobody close to me to the degree that I would feel comfortable asking.
What I want is physical intimacy, sex, and affection in general, so I think going for a traditional romantic relationship is probably the best way to get that.
And I'm not really looking for a "mommy gf", in the sense that I do want to be in a highly affectionate and loving relationship, but one where things are mutual, and we treat each other equal amounts.
Equality in a relationship is not possible unfortunately, at least not long term. Someone will always want the other person more. A power dynamic will form, and expectations will shift.
What makes you origiginally say that, user?
Just ask her out, shirogane.
Because humans are animals and so are part of nature and therefore unequal. They can make heartfelt attempts to "force" equality within their little systems, but people tire, bore, and adapt. Novelty wears off and discipline erodes, and then it decays/collapses to the natural equilibrium.
i can't be that for you, not in person, but if you need someone to vent all your problems and cry to, i could be that
let me know
>How am I a simp? I don't orbit anyone. I don't want worship people just for existing. But I would absolutely do a lot for a relationship partner, with the understanding that they would also do a lot for me. I wouldn't want to shower someone in love and barely get any back.
>I'll cook your favorite foods, I'll surprise you with handmade gifts, I'll be there for you always
You just contradicted yourself. You honestly believe that somehow you having something or giving something to someone creates affection. You're the exact same as the stupid fucks that pay twitch thots and onlyfans thots. You're an actual retard and you deserve all the loneliness that you created for yourself. I could actually break down every problem you have and give you a complete guide as to how to better yourself in a step by step format, but your group is too fucking stupid to actually do anything to get yourself out the situation you've made. Or maybe you just enjoy making these threads because you have nothing to do. Regardless, you not having someone is the direct result of your own shortcomings and failings. You have no one to blame but yourself and you're too stupid to see any way out even when it's explained to you. You're the architect of your own misery and the world has no sympathy for the problems you've created for yourself. It wasn't the world that was wrong, it's just you.
I really do not know what to say to you. It's a pervasive issue that has haunted me for so long. There are only so many rejections and lonely years you can handle. Loneliness unironically strips your personality away. It's like having a neurodegenerative disorder that eats away at your brain in tiny bits, at random places. Certain parts of your personality fade, while others become exaggerated. You slowly wane and turn into a caricature of whoever you were before you were subjected to all the isolation. I have personal anecdotes to go on, a study in mice, and unclear but substantiated correlations between certain neurological disorders and loneliness. No clear evidence, but I am convinced that loneliness is very damaging. I'm not sure if the damage is reversible. I know it sounds tin-foil tier at first, but you can do your own research and form your own opinion. Humans absolutely aren't made to live alone, which is why it has deleterious effects on one's health, and why your body is trying to desperately get you to be with someone.
What I want to say with that diatribe is that you should try your absolute hardest to escape this. Part of that is hiding how desperate you are for human contact. Wanting love is normal and you are wired to feel that way, but expressing it is demonized in society for whatever reason. Don't be too cold with people, but certainly avoid being too forthcoming or needy. Things won't fix themselves and the right person isn't going to just come along like normalfags will constantly tell you. You need to maximize your chances of meeting them and getting together.
I never said it would create affection.. I just listed those things because they're things I'd like to do for someone I love. I don't have some delusion of those things making them love me, it's just the way I'd like to be treated by someone I love, so it's how I would treat them. If someone had the propensity to be affectionate to me, and we entered a relationship, I would put lots of effort into making them happy. Are you telling me I should get into a relationship and then do nothing at all for that person because it would make me a retard? Why are you being so hateful?
Avoiding looking needy is one of my number one considerations when I interact with people publically. I was trying really hard to meet people before covid as well.
>>I'll cook your favorite foods, I'll surprise you with handmade gifts, I'll be there for you always
>You just contradicted yourself.
Doing those things for someone you love is entirely normal. You would know that if you weren't a virgin that only has his parents' dysfunctional relationship to go on.