I was fooling around with my Shenanigans, he didn't like it but instead of confronting me like civilly and just asking me to stop, he had to make an entire scene (Standing up and telling me to "shut the fuck up" ). I didn't wanna make it look like I was letting him punk me around so I stood my ground. Things escalated and swings were thrown.
It was at some kind of a study hall where there were only students, an instructor would pass by occasionally. But there were enough people for the word to spread.
The fight itself wasn't bad, the worst thing that happened was I wrecked my wrist when I punched him in the head. But now everyone thinks I'm some punk.
Jayden Harris
so what should I do? just give up? no, not yet oh man.... just want to sleep and stop existing
Hudson Richardson
I have been doing ok. My college midterms are here and I think I did ok on them. Thankfully this is my last semester, and I can finally(hopefully) get a job that pays more than 10k a year. I am STEM with good grades, so I have some hope. My main worry is what I will do about friends. Been living with a roommate off-campus for a few years now, and it will be hard to deal with the loneliness after we part ways. Thinking about looking for a girlfriend, but I am also worried I won't find someone who enjoys the same things I do. Unlike most robots here I am actually doing fine...I am just uncertain about the future.
Austin Bennett
I wish my last friend just cut me off because I can't myself. Can't deal with this overwhelming sense of inadequacy.
>just give up? yeah. man we both know you are beyond saving
Blake Martinez
I forgot to link the music I am listening to...its a band called "Master Boot Record" who does electronic metal instrumentals. Pretty dope music. youtu.be/t6KFfYdNPh8
Benjamin Harris
I kind of avoid doing that to an extend, but sometimes people ask you stuff and you just feel like replying. I guess doing so, sometimes make me realize somethings, depending on what the other person asks.
Yeah. Know that myself very well. I am going to schedule one appointment on Monday, hopefully I can get new meds to numb me the fuck down and some anxiety killing meds. This shit sucks. What is the anti-psychotic you're taking now? I have been on like 20 over the years.
I guess some people are like that. I myself dislike confrontations because I don't know how to handle myself or when to shut up, I kind of sometimes have no filter. I lose my temper easily, but try to stay quiet, I'm very good at that I guess. >The fight itself wasn't bad, the worst thing that happened was I wrecked my wrist when I punched him in the head. That kind of sucks, since it seems like he was the one who started the unnecessary scene. Is your wrist better now?
At least you're doing good. That's something. How much you expect to make on your very first "real" job that you want when you graduate? >My main worry is what I will do about friends. Enjoy them as much as you can until it last. Have to remember yourself that eventually, everything ends. Nothing lasts, that's life. Misery and struggle in some ways, but not all of that misery and struggle is bad, in my opinion. You can find some content on it. >Thinking about looking for a girlfriend Maybe this is kind of stupid, but the best relationships I have had (regarding friends) were people I didn't look for, and just happened naturally. So, maybe try not to really "look" for it but let it happen naturally. Don't know.
What about if they don't want that? Maybe they are just waiting for some things that might be affecting your current self past to go and savor the "good times" again. But in the end, it is up to you to do that. Just let time decide, I guess.
It feels like my friend is slowly losing interest in me, and it probably has something to do with me not bringing any skills or personality to the table. Not gonna lie, he's my only real source of happiness, but he also drives me insane by ignoring me, and the fact that i'm the only person who's not allowed to touch him. I like hugs or sitting close to people but he can't stand me being within a foot of him. I take showers really often, apply and re-apply deodorant often, so i know i dont smell. it also drives me fucking nuts that everyone likes him better than me, and its always been that way. We're coworkers on the beach and girls flirt with him but don't even look in my direction, and back in highschool (and now very rarely) he got invited to parties whereas i didnt. I just wish he'd either drop me or pay more attention to me, i just lay in bed all day if i'm not hanging out with him and hate myself...
Kevin Harris
I don't know how to handle confrontations. One part of me just wants to brush the whole thing aside and continue with work, but on the other side, having people tell me what to do, assert their power over me etc. is a deep insecurity of mine so I have to make a scene everytime, which got me into a lot of conflicts and fights when I was a kid / teen.
The wrist still hurts, but I did practice boxing when I was younger, so I know this feeling.
Luke Robinson
Only about 36-40k. I am a Information Systems major, and my first job will most likely be help desk. I am getting certifications though, already have my CompTIA A+ and Sec+. Trying for my CCNA this summer. Hoping to be a network engineer in about 6 to 7 years.
