I envy people with interesting, colorful personalities and inner beauty because i don't have that...

I can relate to this to an extent

get your head out of your own ass and just work hard to better your lot in life. Wallowing in negative headspace won't do you any good, ever.

Kek same here, my life fucking sucks at the moment i have to live with spics who do nothing but make so mich fucking noise

If I were Buddha I'd say you were full of bullshit ideas about what you are and were just too hard headed and lazy to put in the effort. Faggots like you don't want to change because you're terrified of actually trying to better yourself, because deep down you know that would mean admitting you had the power all along but chose not to. It's easier to blame the world than to take responsibility for yourself.

you should read philosophy. no nihilistic shit either. the Dhammapada or anything by Marcus Aurelius will help. if you really want to change your mindset, anyhow.

Lol! Faggot

>my inner monologue
Thanks god it is not just me

Try smoking weed. I used to be a square and thought I was an incel permavirgin. Smoking weed just unlocked something in my brain and now I can get pussy whenever I want without too much effort, just some clever responses and decent conversational skills.

>decent conversational skills
Something I very seriously lack

That's the trick. Not caring. Your still going to strike out sometimes, every man does. But nothing dry's up a pussy faster than desperation. They can sense it.