I envy people with interesting, colorful personalities and inner beauty because i don't have that...

i envy people with interesting, colorful personalities and inner beauty because i don't have that. my whole world is dull and grey and shitty. my persona is nothing but bitter hatred and anger. even my inner monologue is negative and fucked up.

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You know, you could try cultivating such inner beauty. Google Metta meditation. Thank me later.

i have no inner beauty to cultivate

no, it's something you're born with. he's fucked.

Your spelling is good. Sentence structure gets the point across. Punctuation seems alright, but you need to capitalize at the beginning of sentences.
So, it seems you know English fairly well, can't you just be happy with that?

I actually agree with this. When your basic makeup is skewed like this, you can try and force it but ultimately any attempt you make at being charismatic or interesting will come off as creepy, fake nice serial killer behavior. You can try hard as you want, there's always going to be slightly uncanny Valley.

Maybe because you keep filling your mind with gore and porn. The human mind isn’t meant to see such degeneracy on a daily basis. Not saying to fill it with puppies and sunshine but quit with the gore. Seek therapy for how you feel. Your therapist might give you some insight as to why you further feel this way.

you need a good day and 3 tabs of acid

Do u ever smoke weed user?

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Therapists will proceed to Rape your mind with their opinions. Take a couple weeks of time to yourself and figure out what you feel is a positive necessity for you. For example, I was a drug addict and had a situation arise that made me stop them, altogether. Haven't done anything, including marijuana, in over a year. My thoughts were similar to OP, and with self rehabilitation, it got me to a more comfortable way of thinking and away from crowds/activities that were causing me to think in a depressed/useless way.
>rehab yourself
>stay away from bad influence
>recognize happiness in life.
>this bro is right, dont resort to a therapist, though.

I can relate to this to an extent

get your head out of your own ass and just work hard to better your lot in life. Wallowing in negative headspace won't do you any good, ever.

Kek same here, my life fucking sucks at the moment i have to live with spics who do nothing but make so mich fucking noise

If I were Buddha I'd say you were full of bullshit ideas about what you are and were just too hard headed and lazy to put in the effort. Faggots like you don't want to change because you're terrified of actually trying to better yourself, because deep down you know that would mean admitting you had the power all along but chose not to. It's easier to blame the world than to take responsibility for yourself.

you should read philosophy. no nihilistic shit either. the Dhammapada or anything by Marcus Aurelius will help. if you really want to change your mindset, anyhow.

Lol! Faggot

>my inner monologue
Thanks god it is not just me

Try smoking weed. I used to be a square and thought I was an incel permavirgin. Smoking weed just unlocked something in my brain and now I can get pussy whenever I want without too much effort, just some clever responses and decent conversational skills.

>decent conversational skills
Something I very seriously lack

That's the trick. Not caring. Your still going to strike out sometimes, every man does. But nothing dry's up a pussy faster than desperation. They can sense it.

Someone call the cops on this future school-shooter

This is going to be weird to see on a indonesian baking forum, but perhaps, you can try renewing yourself by accepting Jesus.
Talk to a priest on this, because I'm not good on spiritual advice. It sounds like you need some

yeah me too i can't hold a conversation at all

This. Legitimately changes brain structure. Happened to me and takes some persistence but it absolutely is achievable.

What’s up with her right knee? That’s got to be hard to walk with

op use your inner anger to motivate yourself. anger is amazing power tool, just dont overdo it.
peace

Someone get the glue

Don't have to be Buddha to see that. OP try and help yourself, or just give up. You decide what helps, you can create avenues of change, persevere. You can make all the excuses you want, but ultimately, you're the one who decides how to live your life.

Holy fuck this. Focus on yourself user and your future.

Damn dude you just posted cringe. Yunno everyone on this place is just as much of a looser as you, so don't feel special.

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have you tried changing your environment?
>even my inner monologue is negative and fucked up.
may be a bad time right now but in general are you aware that you can go outside and not browse on this site all day?

this. theres you, your family, close friends and your goals. nothing else