No we don't both have the ability to video chat. Rural area and I don't have a smartphone either. I'm poor. And I procrastinate everything as well, that's partly why things are going the way they are. I take a lot of medication and numb out from everything, even before the pandemic.
Can you sketch an image of yourself? I can't remember quite what you look like.
Shitty rendition, but ok lol.
I live in a rural area myself, I’ve been using a mobile WiFi thingy, and that’s been good for all but streaming at about $25 a month.
>I take a lot of medication and numb out from everything
I really felt that. Sounds a lot like me. Complex PTSD on my end, plus meds to drown out the constant depression and anxiety. It never gets better.
Wait what is this? What type of qurstions are you answering?
Any questions really. And I’m Anna, pic related was my Papa, Julius is our son.
Mmmmkayyyyy. Like psychic questions?
Great sketch, Anna. I'm saving it.
Yeah, I'm trying really hard not to be a downer. It's been a roller-coaster though. Tonight we had 3 tornadoes back to back in about 2 hours time. The thing is, you can't go into the cellars because they're all too small to abide by the governor's order to social distance, so we just sort of told each other on the phone that if anything happened how much we love each other and to think of the good times. Then it was all over. Draining.
I have C-PTSD as well. I think it's misdiagnosed a lot. In other words, I think many more people suffer these types of things but never report or get diagnosed because of stigma. Especially men.
I'm rambling, heh.
Well, I have to be honest, I don’t possess any psychic abilities, ha. If I did I’d be talking to Papa every night instead of shitposting on Yas Forums. Oh wait, are psychics the same as mediums? Never mind...
Sounds like you’re in a much worse situation than I presently! There wasn’t any major damage was there? We don’t usually get really bad tornados, though last year hurricane Michael ripped us a new one. I still don’t know how my house managed, lucky I guess.
Nah, ramble as much as you like. It took me 30 years to get a proper diagnosis honestly, I knew I was never quite ‘right’, things finally came to a head in ‘11 and I was suicidal and started to self harm really badly. Still I didn’t see a therapist until year before last at the behest of Reddit of all things. My therapist gave me a basic roadmap of 1.) realize I am safe and no one can hurt me anymore 2.) accept the pain of loss and mourn what could have been/what was in a healthy way 3.) learn to trust and love in an acceptable manner. Still having issues with #2, I don’t think I’ll really move past that point. My understanding of relationships is all fucked, as this user bluntly put it, heh.
You may not be psychic but you're an empath. Or it feels that way. I was drawn to you a long time back, I can't even remember when. I mostly just lurked on those threads, but I remember some details. You seem intuitive enough.
Well that’s sweet user, I really just like to try to help people because I know how bad it is to hurt. Even with Papa, he understood me, I didn’t have to say anything, he had that aura about him.
Would you like a sketch then?