I cant escape the loneliness anymore, anons. I want to love and be loved by a woman...

This.
Go talk to people without the pretense of getting laid or finding your *cringe* soulmate. People should think your a likeable, relatively normal guy. Pleasant to be around.
Don't be awkward

No. I just wanted to die at some point during highschool so I stopped giving a shit, and eventually had to do a military school thing for my GED. Yes, after military school, I got fat and I hate myself too much to even try at this point.

>would be a millionaire
Are you currently? If i was in this guys body i'd be back to doing those things that tore my ligaments and shattered my catrlidges in my wrists and knees. Women love the sense of danger as long as you have your basics covered.

And don't be broke. No one likes a broke fag

If I could stop being awkward, I would. I dont really know how to feel confidence, never really have never really will.

Posting shit like this isn't helping faggot. Go the fuck outside. Talk to girls. Don't be a creep. It's not that goddamn hard.

Omfg, this is so pathetic.
You're an emotional wreck.
Don't you ever get mad?
Don't you ever get so pissed off that it motivates you and gets your adrenaline pumping?
Dude, you gotta get the fuck outside and start working your body out.
Do not start drinking or smoking.
Go to bed at 10 PM and wake up at 6 or 7 am and work out your body.
You'll stay feeling more energetic and the key is to not stop.
Next, focus on a goal and get it done. I'd you don't go back to school, at least get a fuckin job and make some money.

I just don't understand people with depression or mental issues. Is very baffling to me

Ive talked to girls since I was 6 years old. When you're in my shoes, you either become *that* friendzoned guy that actually tries to be friends but just wants to die doing it or a pawn to be taken advantage of. Theres really no in between.

I have been there. You can't come across as lovable if you don't love yourself.

Please take this seriously, I want this for you. Workout! Even from home. Eat better.
Give a shit about your appearance, get a haircut, shave, wear a nice outfit.

And lastly when you're out, and around girls, don't be intimidated and think about what you need to be for them to date you. They don't think like that, attraction comes subconsciously. Just be a good human being and you will find someone.

I'm fucking rooting for you but you need to make a change user.

Well here do this:
1. Become Yas Forums. Go to gym. You don't have to exaggerate, just go for atleast 3 months without break and you will already look better. Combine that with high protein diet and calories deficit.

2. Practice flirting, just read a bit over the topic and then try out. You got nothing to loose.

3. Boost your self esteem / worth. Stop nerd shit. Get some new skills. People like to learn dancing to know women since its overcrowded with women.

4. More social skills. Be open to world.

5. Expect nothing, value everything.

That's like the plan. Just think what women could find attractive. Good shape, nice character, good social connections, nice skills. Flirting is like a market. You need to represent yourself and show the women that you're a good party (for getting kids)