I have decided that existence is futile. No matter what anyone can say or do...

I live my life in the same way. The best I can tell you is to start with pills or other drugs to dumb down intelligence so you can actually enjoy and feel life. Intelligence is a complete and utter curse, so Benadryl, Cough Syrup, or xanax(or really anything like these) will help slow down your mind so you can get a break from the world being so loud. For me my brain works on over drive all the time analyzing and shit, so slow it down and be a normal or below person for a bit.

But I'm also contemplating suicide as we speak anyways, it's just not as close to you. Try that before offing yourself.

no you dont

Judging by your post, you're not particularly talented at writing either. If you were a student at an inner-city middle school, it might be enough to impress your English teacher, but beyond that it's barely mediocre.

That being said, don't fucking kill yourself, dickhead. Your death will likely cause great pain to the people still in your life; even in an absolute best-case scenario, it'll greatly inconvenience those to whom it falls to clean up and dispose of your corpse afterwards.

Thank you, I will try this if the vote goes against oblivion.

All I have to do is take the pills while sitting on the incinerator chute. No mess.

You're welcome. Anything to help someone that seems to be going through the same type of life I am.

Btw Benadryl is very easy to get and hard to actually OD off of but it relaxes you, mind, muscles, and all.

UK available?

>I paid for dozen of IQ tests

That right there proves you're dumber than most.

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NHS.

Just say fuck it and do some crazy shit. Go out clubbing and get absolutely fucked up as often as you can and take every crazy ass opportunity you come across and dont take shit from anyone. Who gives a fuck about the things you cant do, just fuck around with random stuff and you might be good at it. Theres technically no consequence because theres no heaven or hell after death

You should try developing your skills in a different area, music, painting, shitposing, or anything that makes life a bit less shitty

>Wasting money on IQ testing a retard a dozen times

Socialized medicine is garbage.

Yes it's over the counter too. Not expensive. It's an allergy medication that has active ingredients to make you drowsy. However most people don't know that it can be used to relax you with the ingredient.

Plus you get hella good sleep.

do it

Now why the fuck would you post this on Yas Forums bruh do you want people to tell you to kill urself? Haha who cares

nice, 199 here. ur a fag no onecares about ur gay shit stfu

You think too little of yourself and the universe you live in. Think outside of yourself. Think outside of your universe. Reality is yours my guy. Do what you will with it, but I ask you to reconsider.

Your IQ doesn't mean shit, you're shit at life, stop thinking you're cursed with genius because you're just not. Grow up and sort your life out. Furthermore killing yourself wont solve anything more than validating that you're not as intelligent as you think you are; we're all retards.

god, if you actually think that's good advise you are a fucking moron.

It's better than fucking suicide

Are you sure?

dumbass lol

Do not kill yourself.

Well I'd say trying to every option before ending it is better. Even if it isn't the best option it provides SOME comfort.

I say live life bro. No one said this life is going to be easy. It's up to you to persevere through it and thrive. From what I hear, it sounds like you've basically given up. You gotta remember that after this life you've got all of eternity to sleep. Don't start it early by taking pills. Find an outlet my guy. Go to the gym. Join a community. Find a profession you love. All of this is easier said than done. I know. But that doesn't mean it's not out there waiting for you. Find that strength and stay strong brother.

I already said that I'm not a genius.

>No matter what anyone can say or do, the universe ultimately either implodes or entropy does it's work over millennia.
>My IQ is about 135, which means that I have all the drawbacks of higher intelligence (decreased self-satisfaction and happiness, social incompetence, increased vulnerability to mental illness, etc) but none of the advantages.
>Despite my naturally high IQ I am less able in almost every respect hand my peers. Mathematics beyond simple algebra is impossible to grasp, chemistry and physics will not stay in my brain, and all other areas of academical achievement such are sub-par. The only thing I have a talent for is writing, a useless skill in my ogreish hands. Watching me attempt engineering or anything creative is akin to watching a shaved ape try his hand at a crossword. I cannot sing due to an awful voicebox, cannot play an instrument due to my inability to keep time, and cannot act due to my aforementioned social ineptitude.
>I have asked out a grand total of two women in my life, both of whom we're good friends. The first said she was a lesbian, and I never saw or heard from her again. The second laughed in my face, and we drifted apart over the following few months.
>I live as a shut-in, bordering on the reclusive. The few minor, temporary distractions from constant feelings of entropy and worthlessness (i.e browsing Yas Forums, playing vidya, watching the occasional anime) available to me grow less and less fulfilling by the day.
>I get on very poorly with my surviving family, and have been to seek professional help multiple times. Despite medication, therapy, and religious intervention, I unfailingly relapse each time within weeks.
>So forth approaches the ultimatum: should I continue to live out this pointless life, or swallow a hundred max-strength sleeping pills to get it over with much quicker? The choice is yours by majority vote.

it's ok buddy im here for you what's up?

You're ignoring my point of being shit at life...