When's the last time you felt happy, Yas Forums?

Crippling fear of my own mortality. My fear of dying is overwhelming my depression.

When I was still with my first girlfriend but was dumped last year.

What keeps me going is going to the gym and hit up AMP's for fun.

...what about that was edgy?

I actually forgot when was the last time I felt happy, but what keeps me going is the fact that life can be unfair and I'm not a pussy to kill myself.

This whole shut in lately has been making me... very depressed, low self esteem and ashamed of myself. Lately I've been thinking a lot about death, mine and my families, as well as just how fucking unsuccessful and pathetic and constantly disgruntled over every little thing I have been

I can't really remember, but I do know it was when I didn't care about goals for happiness. I just enjoyed. Life sucks now.

>When's the last time you felt happy, Yas Forums?
5-6 years ago.

>What keeps you going?
The fact that I am someone elses reason to keep going.

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Kek I have no idea what was edgy about my post but if you want to be autistic have at it I guess.

I do nofap, wim hof method, and I do callisthenics at home in my room, I also eat right drink lots of water

>The fact that I am someone elses reason to keep going.
I know that feel. It sucks, though. It makes me feel tied down to this earth wishing some natural disaster would just end me so at least I have an excuse.

When did it get so bad, bros

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no one gets out alive, you will wither and die, maybe painfully

when you want to leave the party early due to the fire in the living room, but your friend wants you to stay.

when i die.
food.

I haven't been happy for a year and a half since my gf and I split. I somehow manage to drag myself through each passing day hoping that I can find that kind of love again

stop jerking off to get confidence back

drugs keep me happy tbh. Glad I'm not the only one with these feels, love drugs

mmmm drugs

Today. Doing nofap and exercise makes me euphoric. Having goals gives satisfaction, i am working towards doing the splits.

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Probably been about 10 years now since everything felt right. I've lost a lot of family members, lost touch with friends, got divorced and live alone with almost no social life. I keep pushing to make things better, but I know it will take time. I've got a good job now, bought a new car a few months ago, I'm working on getting in shape and lost 30 lbs since February. It's hard to find the motivation to stay on the grind, but from the positives I have made happen, what keeps me going is the hope that it will all pay off and I'll feel complete again. Best of luck bros.

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I don't really know. Sometimes I wish I could improve my life, other times I'm laughing like an idiot with my friends.

>When's the last time you felt happy, Yas Forums?

Approximately 5 years ago, before medical disqualification and everything that went with it

>What keeps you going?
debt and familial obligation

once the house is paid off, I can be done.

Most likely, but it's still terrifying as fuck to me

Knowing that if im not here to tell my stories, my works, and people i created, who will?

good work, keep going

Last night for the first time in a really, really long time. Slept with the girl I've been in love with for 5 years. Cuddled all night, woke up and made her breakfast. She told me she loves me. I told her I love her. I'm deploying to Afghanistan in 3 months and she doesnt know. Not sure hows that's going to go, so I'm unhappy again.

Knowing that order L7 wiener is on the horizon
CCTV , dicks
Mayors office , dicks
Cop cars , dicks
City council members garage door , dicks

Gonna graffiti and draw dicks everywhere !!

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Also drugs, but also abusing my psychiatric meds because I live in a third world country in which is cheaper to get them without than with a prescription. I'm amazed how they can turn a shitty situation into a great one without actually changing anything.
Don't over do it anons, believe that the good one is the real world

know, that you get a HUGE DMT HIT as you're dying and you don't feel it, says modern medical literature

You will fall again user and it will be even worse. The hole will be twice as deep. The pain will always be following you waitig for the chance.

Motivation is for the weak. You do what you know you have to do regardless of how you feel. Congratz on your progress user

>Last time you felt happy
A dream I had about 3 years ago.
In real life 12 years ago.
>What keeps you going
My mom. I'm just waiting til shes gone because I know it would kill her.

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what is medical disqualification and why did you got that

one day at a time, user

>When's the last time you felt happy, Yas Forums?
When I was sober and having a good time at the university, before alcoholism and drugs.
>What keeps you going?
Zoloft.

i was in a career that had a lot of very specific requirements, physically, and then i got diagnosed with something that, while it isn't really too disabing, and thanks to modern medicine is actually fairly controllable, that nonetheless got me booted.

the best part - no one can tell me *why* - is it genetics? environmental? some combination? no one fucking knows. I cant even point back to something like 'oops, lookie there when you were 18 you stepped in a bucket of AIDS". its one of those weird autoimmune things that noboday knows why it fucking happens - but they know when it happens, and in what i was doing, it meant i dont get to do it no more

Glad you are fairly ok, look for another career then. Your body might be affected but you'll always have the neuromuscular plate advantage.