be depressed for 4months, finally posted about it on Facebook

Best thing you can do is offer to testify, and tell her that you were manipulated into it.

The pills im on work for me, was a seriously long road to break from the self loathing, anger, hate, and the feeling of a constant fog of grey clouding everything i do and following me everywhere i go.

Seriously, get help, any that you can, even if its just someone to talk to. The feeling of being nothing more than a sack of hammered shit is just your brain being a dick, you can have the life you dont believe you deserve, and you do not deserve the bad shit that seems to gravitate towards you.

>Hey a contrarian!
Oh my bad, I didn't realise this was a sympathy thread. Good luck getting random strangers to validate you friend. If you felt no shame about it, you wouldn't have even made this thread; learn to cope with the shame.

the uncle died in jail. didn't you read?

I was 6-8 when he abused me, I'm 99,99% sure kids that age can't even feel sexual arousal.
So no I was not aroused, I spent most of it crying.
I'm female

Its Yas Forums, I fully expected it

I suspect the you are lying yourself.

We both already did that several years ago, my uncle died in jail.


I'm going to take your advice under serious consideration.

If you read you see I do feel shame. But even I in my current state see that your advice would just make things worse down the line

OP said You're a contrarian because you are in the minority with your belief that age doesn't matter, I know you still think the world is out to bully you for what you think are your edgy worldviews but you genuinely aren't important enough for everyone to give that much of a shit about you.

>The worst part is I didn't feel shame about it until she reminded me
You should never feel bad for not letting this paralyze your life. It was the past and you can not "if" the past. Tell her to be move on and stop making herself a perpetual victim and you definitely do not harm yourself. If God forbid you did, that would be the real tragedy.

Imagine simping an user

>If you read you see I do feel shame. But even I in my current state see that your advice would just make things worse down the line
Yeah accepting your trauma for what it is, what damaging and unhealthy advice. Go pay a shrink to hear the same thing and think it's some sort of revelation.

Run it back. Have her raped a second time.

Hear me out OP
If you think you have the strength to go through with it, LSD can be a major game changer for depression.
Source: I'm currently depressed, and the help I've sought out generally tells me depression doesn't usually go away but how we cope with it can change how much affect it has on our lives. That's something I never would have went to go hear in a million years before LSD.

It honestly gave me a temporary reset on everything that was bothering me, everything. My whole life I hated who I saw in the mirror, but during my trip I was the most beautiful person I'd ever seen. I had to come to terms with most of the evil in my life and accepted that without it, I wouldn't be in the position I am today to do good. A majority of these feelings continue to linger today months after my trip, just with a watered down sensation (because I'm not high, obviously)

I only say if you think you can handle it because with psychoactive drugs there is ALWAYS the chance of a bad trip, but at lower dosages (about 100 micrograms) it's not too hard to pull yourself out of a bad trip that starts to creep up on you.

I'm serious about this OP. LSD honestly changed my world and helped me change the direction of my life. Afterwards I started seeking professional help and talking to people about problems I've kept inside for years. Whatever you decide to do OP, best of luck.

Cheers.