My friend basically told me I was a loser and didn't want me to hang around him and that everyone in our group felt the...

At the end of it all you really only have yourself and it sounds like you just need to get lost in your hobbies and tell everyone else to fuck off. The friends I’ve had in my life were usually just stumbled upon when I was doing something I enjoyed. Find a skill based activity that makes you happy and makes you a better person. I recently got into picking locks just kinda for fun, but tbh that’s a real life skill that potentially increases my likelihood to find future employment if I were to become skilled at it. there is definitely something out there for you and If you are happy doing something in life and developing skills, people will usually respect that and not talk crazy shit. And once again, if they don’t, fuck em!

It disgusts me honestly because I never feel that way towards others. So apparently I'm a freak for that. I need to be some asshole

Women are not salvation

There is a woman for everyone, what you say is true. Your happiness should not rely on a women but there is a woman out there that will care about you snd love you. You need to love yourself first.

Fuck man. Sounds terrible, but at the the same time you gotta put yourself out there. Dont live a life in isolation because people are shit. There are good ones out there.

>you will find a woman who loves you

Literally the hardest thing to do. Even rich and successful guys struggle at this. Very few men ever find a woman who actually is a good person who cares about them. Most just want financial support and/or kids, and the man can fuck off after that's done.

There really isn't. Throughout all of human history only about 40% of men procreated, whereas 80-90% of women did. It's moving back towards that with the advent of dating apps/social media.

livescience.com/47976-more-mothers-in-human-history.html

I don't know what to say, I think people are inherently evil (if you consider morality based on what they're willing to do to one another), and that when it boils down to it, we're not much better than chimps. It's extremely dangerous to enter a cage with chimps, because they'll beat, murder, rape, and eat you; that's how I see people now.

I even studied school shooters as part of my degree. Part of it was to understand why people exacted violence, and why I didn't; I think what stops me from doing it, is the notion that perhaps the predilection of the evil acts carried out against me, might only be against me. Maybe they're good people elsewhere in their lives, that will do good for someone or something. But what I also learned is that when people are constantly socially torn down and engineered against, when people find out they have no social power to levy, then violence becomes an equaliser. It becomes a way to enact repercussions on someone, when all other ideas fail.

My life is in tatters, it's been a constant spiral since then. I keep trying to make things better, but I always find some demented prick with a chip on their shoulder that wants nothing more than to take something away from me. I got nothing left to give. Frankly I think given circumstances, resisting the urge to take is a big enough gift.

You are looking toomuch into this, women over poplulate men. Also it should bever be her having control it should be you. If you had the self confidence you could convince a woman you are worth her time.

You're probably 15-19 years old , right?

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