Honestly I just don't want anyone irl to interfere. Call me paranoid, whatever. I'll post tits since it's in the rules. I just wanted to know some methods other than the obvious ones. Thank you all for caring enough to help try to stop me and also those who helped with what I was looking for. Sorry for being annoying.
What's the most and least painful suicide methods...
Carson Wood
Aaron Kelly
Thanks. Seriously though, shop around for medications, find one that works for you.
Get CBT therapy to help with the short-term then move into psychotherapy to deal with your underlying issues.
If you just need a break get a shit ton of Xanax or diazepam and mong out on them for a week or so, it gives you a break from your thoughts.
Also what the other user said is right, gi teach English in Bangkok or Ho Chi Minh City or something, it’s really easy to do. Complete lifestyle change.
Don’t kill yourself, you sound young. It gets better. Don’t become a boring statistic.