Is it normal to feel physically sick from lonliness? how long until im totally numb to it all?

>You wont be lonely forever
yes he will. some people just weren't mean to be around others.
it's better to get used to it and go over this than to lie to yourself.

whyd you go for your friends girl? You the badguy

You dont know that though, life can change overnight
Its weak to accept defeat, even for you user its never too late to start trying to be happy again and productive. Nothing will come overnight but try every day to be slightly better maybe tidy up eat more food work out

Life changes, but people don't. If someone has antisocial personality, that's just what they are. If you consider that's a loss, then you can never win. But it's not, because it's not a competition, that's just what people are.