>I am sick of being a disappointment
what makes you think you're a disappointment? I think i can understand the rest
>feel guilty about it
why do you feel guilty about being NEET?
NEET/Hikikomori
William Garcia
Robert Young
It is hard for a shut in to be a good partner user. I was with a girl for years and I was a shut in the whole time. I was absolutely terrible as a partner barely ever did anything fun with her was too much of a loser to go out could barely afford to do anything special for her. Had to leech off her in order to eat. I really think you would probably end up leaving your shut in gf and it would just break her even more. I think it really is best for shut ins just to be alone. At least then we can not hurt others or have others hurt us. That and expectations are the worst and I know I never met them.
Lincoln Bennett
I have disappointed everyone who ever cared about me and let down countless people. I have no goals and no life. I hurt the person I loved the most by refusing to change my ways. The only thing in my life that is not disappointed in me is my dog. I once actually had the delusion that I was going to snap out of this and be successful one day that was just a cope a fucked up sad cope that was never realistic. There is only one way out of this tomb that I have created for myself.
Brody Myers
I find immense pleasure in taking care of my gf. I daydream about bringing her food and taking out her empty soda cans and 2 day old bowls. I think so much about carrying her to the bath tub and bathing her. I want like a nega-real doll. Like a real person but I have to take care of them like a doll. Also I have yellow fever on top of that so.
Charles Jenkins
5 years straight but I was a NEET for long stretches before this. No hope of ever being a functional human being at this point.
Ryder Sullivan
you may be a disappointment to other people but maybe you don't have to feel like one if you stopped caring about other people so much.
Wyatt Nguyen
All I am saying is there is usually a reason we shut ourselves in. We do not make good partners. That is nice you would do all of that but I guarantee you would get sick of it and then when you break her heart you would end up fucking her up far more then she already would be. But I guess you want to live your fantasy but remember we are people not some thing to take care of.
Yeah that is not really possible for me desu. I do not know how to just ignore the fact that everyone who knows you knows that you are a worthless piece of shit. I do not know how to ignore that I have wasted my life I do not know how to ignore that I will never leave any mark on the world. I would probably also not be a shut if if I could turn off caring about what others think of me.
Daniel Gonzalez
>when you break her heart you would end up fucking her up far more then she already would be
shit man now I feel terrible, i know that feel
Jaxson Adams
Thats what happened to me at least. Because I have been a shut in for so long when I was with my girlfriend I made her my entire world. I loved her more then anything. I depended on her for everything. I needed her for conversation I needed her for food I needed her for love. I needed her emotional support. I needed her to believe in me. I needed everything about her. I absolutely relied on her more then it is healthy to do so. My whole world was her and when I lost that it made the depression worse it made the void worse. It made me understand how bad I fucked everything up and it felt like a part of me died. She was my rock and when I lost that all I did was regress far worse as a shut in then I ever was before. It has been over a year and I still can barely even leave my bed. It sounds really pathetic but when you lose the part of you that made you strong it kills everything else inside of you.
Logan Roberts
Christ man, I couldn't imagine doing that to a girl, even if she wasn't trying to get out of her shell. If she relied on me I would do my best to try to distance myself while still helping out. I am sure it would drag me down too but I feel as though I could take it. I hope you find someone else to make you forget her.