I see. I'm 28 but I've never had a proper friend ever before and my relationship with my family has always been extremely distant, thus today the very concept of relationship is simply alien to me. Like, why the hell would I want to be with someone again? how does that even work? It just feels like there's an unbridgeable gap, a thick glass between others and me.
So do your anxieties stem from failed relationships or rather from lack thereof? How was your relationship with your family? Do you ever worry you could lose your mind down the road if you follow this path? And by path I mean having literally nobody besides perhaps parents being aware of your existence, not having even online "friends". Wanting to play it safe in case something bad happens, rather than a real desire for relationships.
