>be me >20 y/o robot >have single mom >Spent whole life listening to Fergie and Taylor swift >Always thought I was transgender, always wanted to be girl >also want to go to military >get contracted into the army and go to military collage school rn. >question why im trans and try to convince myself >used to act all alpha to compensate for true self >start becoming more beta and the guys around me notice and call me a gay boy >get my ears pierced. >realize I am trans >Now want to die >do a bunch of drugs and drink a bunch
I want to kill myself. I am scare to talk to a therapist. I've repressed this for so long that its terrifying to think about my regular life changing. I am fucked with wanting to go into the military but they might drop me anyway for being a fruit. Why the fuck and I so fucked up. Why do I want to be a girl so fucking bad that it haunts my fucking dreams. Im on leave rn and I am smoking non stop and tripping all the time. I am getting more and more suicidal. Im a psychology major too so this even more fucked.
can someone please fucking help me, I gave up on religion for help and im scared about my life. This is literally my whole life that im going to change but im getting closer to the edge.
Gavin Cooper
Kill yourself retarded fetishist. You're never going to be a girl. Never.
Jayden Robinson
Im not even a fetishist dude. The only reason why I can relate to trap stuff is because I can relate to having a pp but wanting to get fucked and the will to be feminine. I also like regular porn but I self insert as the female. Don't be so rude please. I think hormones can help me.
John Lewis
You need professional help with stuff like this.
Also surely /lgbt/ would be better for this question
Jaxon Campbell
Well, why do you think you are trans? Like what exactly is that ideation built on?
Ian Long
You really need to see a doc to find out if you've got the dysphoria, you say it scares you to find out but it has to be better than this swirling uncertainty.
Caleb Smith
I've lived my whole life feeling this way. Ive never felt right or liked being a boy. Ive had a bad past in school and I've had reoccurring dreams for year of me as a girls and I always wake up into a depression. when I was a kid I would do anything to femininize myself, including get chubby to have breasts. I wore makeup and cross-dressed too. but then I could get kicked out of the militayr and then I wouldn't know what to do for a job.
Angel Brooks
I am actually begging you to stay off this retarded site until you can figure this out, the majority of people are not helpful and are not what you need right now
Jeremiah Martin
I don't know who the fuck else to go to. I have always used this place
