What was the worst thing you have ever done to another person?

He hit my best friend out of no where for no reason and a switch just went off in my brain. I unironically wanted to beat him to death but thankfully people stopped me.
I'm over protective but that day showed me how far I'm willing to go for people I care about, It's scares the shit out of me to be honest with you.

I had bought her a engagement ring before she moved to be with her family but I really doubt Ill marry now Im very aware of how fucked men are when they get divorced I probably will just stop responding if I learn she talked to another guy when she left for so long shes probably like 8 months pregnant right now

You're fucked married or not if she doesn't adopt. Being a father on child support isn't life ending though. You're gonna have to learn to work things out with her though if you want to see your child.

Fuck I just realized I dont even know if its a boy or girl

Doesn't matter. You'll love them the same, even if you're a stone-cold psychopath. It's a rough spot to be in, but you'll get through it I'm sure, user.