Was the dopamine rush from browsing image boards worth missing out on love and friendship and wasting your entire youth...

you have a problem man

Never had a chance really, my mind avoids things that aren't drugs or money by default, even when I'm calm on Xanax I would rather be alone

Its the other way round.
We end up here because we have failed at all that stuff.

I don't think you get it, I ended up coming to Yas Forums in the mid 2000s because I was completely ostracized and never given a shot at friendship or love.

Yep.
I have great taste in film, books and art. I know how to create with almost every piece of major software. I've got friends who I've met from across the world and had good times with. I don't rely on likes or subs or karma to feel good about myself. I am well paid, self employed and have more money than almost any of my peers from school.

It's not about where you spend your time, it's about what you do in that time.

>love and friendship
>shitposting
I did both though

The story's not finished faggot.

What did you do instead? Did you play any sports?

It sounds that you thing you have a choice in life.
It's made for you, you come as an empty piece of paper and the world and genes form you.

>peaking in school
Lmao

Idk was the dopamine rush from posting yourself on various social media platforms worth missing out on love and friendship and wasting your entire youth in front of a screen?

>he peaked in high school
>said by guy who will never peak
cope post

>implying that not sitting in front of the screen would've made me a 6'2 man with a chiseled jawline.

Yea ok buddy

yes, because the only reason I turned to image boards was to avoid judgment from social situations. I would have found another escape mechanism.

>implying people who have IRL opportunities get a "dopamine rush" from imageboards
if you had alternative sources of dopamine, you would have used them

What? I came here after that deal was settled.

>tfw was a footblall chad
>tfw top 20 best players in the country in my recruiting class
>tfw over 30 full scholarships
>tfw khhv

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This. Most of us were born into this life.

>I was born in it, molded by it. I didn't see the light until I was already a man, by then it was nothing to me but blinding!

I managed to escape, but it only lasted a few years. It was overwhelming and I'm glad those years are ogre. Way too much emotional effort to keep up the act.

Now I'm a 33 year old wagecuck. It's fine now. My life is pretty OK. I've come to terms with everything at this point. Now, I just feel numb and empty all the time. People at work think I'm a people-person. People at work "like" me well enough to not actively undermine me. I have some hobbies I enjoy. I guess that's all enough for me.

If I lose my job... ask me again in a couple months.

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Was the single most popular dude in high school. Now 3 years in college and I live in an apartment and no one knew or gives a shit who I was in high school. Rarely party. It's like a reset button I guess. Feeling bittersweet now

thank you for posting this, failed normalfag, your misery makes my day

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don't worry user, you're very successful and should be happy about that. relationships aren't the only thing that matter in life

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welcome to Yas Forums, we all do

oregringano

I took a two year break from this site in my teens and the only thing that changed is I stopped repressing myself being trans, there's no going back now.

>Was the dopamine rush from browsing image boards worth missing out on love and friendship

Yes

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Not really ... Well ... To begin with, I'm still in my youth ... aand ... somehow I manage to do both ... Be it to a limited degree

Yes and No
I wasted a fuck ton of time on this site but I also learned a lot about the world that I don't think you can anywhere else

Apparently, since that's what I did.

You only ever act within the knowledge you have at the time. It would've taken someone seizing control of my life and forcibly removing me from those nerdy interests to shunt me into a different path. Left to my own devices, this is where I'd go, reliably. Like how you can expect a drop of water to always roll down the path of least resistance. And it's where my experiences pushed me.

I wish things could've been different. I wish I could've gotten swept up into something, plugged in. But that was never me. I don't know why, but the waves always leave me behind.

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>they'll all go to oblivion someday too, and their precious memories of friends and fun will be lost in time forever
Like tears, in the rain

>Was the dopamine rush from browsing image boards worth missing out on love and friendship and wasting your entire youth in front of a screen?
Yes.

because i hated sports and was bad at them

Yeah, I'd say so. Rather be living this than socializing with a bunch of extrovert. Fuck that.

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Yes because I am extremely nervous and shy. I hate being around lots of people and having to interact with others. It makes me feel incredibly uncomfortable, and other people are also uncomfortable around me as well. I don't get them; they don't get me. But here I am understood, and I understand the people here as well. It's best for me to be here until I die.

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Dunno, but we are the first generation capable of this level of escapism, being connected with people from the whole world without leaving your room.
It would be a shame to not indulge in it and live like a normie from the 1500s instead.

>digital simulations of human interaction is better than real interaction
absolute cope.

Yeah. I'd do it all again if given another chance. I don't view the 15 years I spent on Yas Forums as a waste. I was having fun. I knew a normal life wasn't for me since I was in high school.

sounds larpy to me

t. insecure normalnigger

True but I feel empty and alone, im 26 khhv and player 2 years of professional football and was a beggining amateur boxer before this virus shit happened. I struggled with depression and eating last year I have no idea who i am and where im going

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do you really think i had choice??
after long time i realized
it was worth it

I don't know if its better or worse, but its pretty unique compared to all previous generations that relied on their local community so much.

The whitepill is that there isn't anything wrong with you.
The social butterfly persona is a Hollywood meme. In real life its reserved for women and gigachads who are top of the food chain.
Everyone else is an average working man, and we are progressively being pushed out of the workplace even. We are only wanted in behind the scenes jobs where we thanklessly carry the weight of society, making life liveable for women, children, and an invading army of shitskins.

Being open and sociable as a male in these circumstances, is not natural from a survival standpoint. Its more natural to withdraw to a closed off position that you control and can hold. For many of us, this is our room, or a whole house if we're lucky.

Did you just reject going to parties people invited you to? Whats the problem?

Nobody would have loved me even if I tried. All my high school friends abandoned me after I moved away for school for a year. Imageboards have been shit since 2012. There's no winning either way.

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love was never an option

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I was abhorrently ugly, so my youth was plagued with ridicule and disgust.

All of my friends did drugs and browsed Yas Forums and so did I, thats how I coped.

In a lot of ways this place made me feel far less lonely.

My life is much better now

Yes especially since I got to experience love once for 13 months, granted it was with a high dysfunctional female with an average level of empathy for a woman.

In HS i never got invited and had no friends, in uni i went a couple times got bored and left and was never invited again. I find them boring desu and would rather do my own thing

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how did you end up doing in college football

I browsed imageboards religiously because I didn't have those things. During the weekends I'd wake up 7am in the morning until 1am.

alright i signed to a CFL team for 1 year and an additional one after. In college i was a starter who was an allstar, not the best but the one thing i had was i had consistency and was very coachable. I played lineman

I screenshotted your comment user, so I can remind myself whenever I feel bad

I was born with autism and reportedly didn't speak a single word until I was like 4 or 5. Some of my earliest memories are attending speech therapy and I had special ed classes through my schooling (though it was mostly a free period to do homework and shit so that was nice.)

I was born wrong. And even if I was "social" the best I could hope for would be a bipolar tranny who barely passes after several stiff drinks.

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Party and women are fucking waste of time and money. I was a full robot until i got somewhat atractive between my 17 and 20 and started atracting bitches.
I never was good with them and passed the initial infatuation i grew bored of them, even the ones i liked. Women are boring. Big parties and clubbing it's just retarded. After having two kids with two different women i went full volcel last year. Love my kids tho.