It's your friendly neighbourhood letter thread

Yes. Come back. This feeling is torture, everyday feels like my last.

K

That sounds like the triggers. Had myself super wound up a minute ago. I don't know how public my freak outs are but I guess at least I am doing better. lol

Talk to a therapist K. I talked to mine during my recovery phase. I regained enough to paint a picture of what happened. Plus I had someone to rid me of guilt and shame.

Just don't feel like your only choice is to suffer.

-L

Kai is a known schizo manwhore. Beware.

I was born dead. Dead inside. Come back. I can't take it.

K

You're not dead. You are just deeply wounded. Heal up K. You'll be okay in the end.

I'm a pit. Months without feeling than it hits. Alone.

Alone.

No one.

You never seemed to have trouble making friends have you tried reaching out?

C,
I want you to come back to me. It's been so long and i worry about you.
J

Can you fucking stupid nigger not make chat out of this thread again? Crawl back into your discord servers or make new threads to blogpost there, you fucking faggots

Ima go to bed

good luck with everything. If you are K for sure see a therapist.

Hi rene i wish you would talk to me before one of dies hopefully soon. I still cry everyday about what happened. I love you
Jawn

I cant move on. Thinking about finding another girl to share life with feels treasonous. You shouldnt have came back why did you fucking come back why did you leave again. It hurts me, you are all I can think about damn near every single thing is a reminder of you. A reminder of the girl I know deep down I will never have.

What is the significance of December?

I'll be old enough, and if I wait maybe I won't care by then and won't do it at all. I feel murderous whenever I see Newport cigarette packs lying on the sidewalk because it just reminds me of a lot of things. So I imagine if I do it myself it will be demystified and desanctified. I am not the type to ask someone else to buy them for me, or to get them from another person.

Well I'm not your S then. Be careful not to pick up the habit user, I hope things turn out well for you. Why do Newports have such an affect on you?

cigs suck dont start them. I wanna die young so I chain smoke but it really isnt worth it.

I don't expect to make it a habit. I hate buying stuff. It's good that I have to wait, though, because I'd be glad if I got over all of this by then and didn't bother. Risking becoming addicted is a bit much over a failed relationship.
I don't really plan on living to retirement age, but I know I should plan for that contingency.

No puedo sacarte de mi cabeza, es amor, no hay duda.

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>I can't channel and am mad

Dear E
I wonder if you ever jerk off thinking of me, i know i did.
D

Here's one:
This was the last day anything could have been done. I would wait ten years if there were an option. A hundred if I could be alive that long. It's not the sadness that makes this so hard, it's seeing how I'm giving up the sadness. I'm giving up the capacity to feel the way I've been feeling, and I'll live a much larger part of my life this way than the way I was before. I understand why this had to happen. I know I wasn't there for you either. Just please hold that one day in the park as ours, a secret in your memory... the day you taught me to throw the frisbee. You were so patient with me and it was so cute because you're usually not, other than the one day where I was really being a screwball and deserving some impatience. I really understood you so much better after that, how kind you really are.

C,

I should've said yes to you. I don't know why I didn't said anything. I thought I didn't want it at the time, but I'm pretty sure that was bullshit, I was just terrified. It's been years but I still think about you every single day. I don't know what's wrong with me or why I'm so scared of connecting with people. I wish we talked. I feel like I missed something big only because I was too afraid to speak up. I didn't learn from it one bit. I'm still the same shy fuck and nothing has changed. I've hoped for a second chance for years but I don't think I'm going to get one. I don't have much to say. I hope everything is well and you found someone. I'm trying to find someone myself.

C

P
I straight up asked him if he wanted out and he neglected to explain things to me because he didn't want to be glib or terse, prosaic or flowery. I guess he was messing with but whatever. Whenever I have so little sense to make of things, I can't see myself being content with holding captives here. I just wanted him to talk to me.
I was sorry we will probably continue our lives and never talk each other again, and obviously it made me feel like I had you in my thoughts a lot. I still pray for you after all, even since I declined to affect things the way you asked.
All I can only do pray for is you now I guess. I feel it so immensely, and I'm just overreacting and I'm just overreacting and I'm just... afraid. But I would be so pleasantly surprised if you could just be the one to tell me it's ok. I don't know what you still see, but my mind wanders to you.
Then I find you, but it's not.
C

Free fall again
Well, not free
I just hope there's something painful and sharp in the bottom of this
If there is one

That day should've been my last one

>Anna,
We could've had something special.
Why did you have to go ruin it? Why can't you just be normal..

I'm sorry.

No
I'm only talking about myself

I wish I could read your mind and I wish it didn't have to end this way. I don't know if it was love or just a crush, but I genuinely looked foward to your messages everyday. I looked foward to talking to you so much that I lost sleep doing it everyday. What did it all mean to you? You said you liked me and then you find another girl to replace me with... One who treats me and your other friends like we don't even exist. I wish I never met you because then I wouldn't have to live knowing that someone I thought was so wonderful exists.

-C

In retrospect I am glad that you gave me a general disillusionment in the idea of companionship. Thank you.

In what sense were you disillusioned? Please give initials ok?

J
You seem a little mopey, but then it's like a summer breeze to channel you, no homo. What's up with that?
t

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I wish you loved me too. 9 and a half more years I will wait for you I wont give up hope not one day.

Why 9 and a half more years specifically?

A/sheep
I don't know why I still miss you a fair amount after all this time. Been almosf a year since I stopped talking to you and told you why us being internet friends wouldn't work, Been almost 3 since I first met you and we were genuinely close friends. I think the day I met you IRL is just something I won't ever forget or let go of. It was really cool. I remember all the tiny stupid details. I'm sure you probably don't think about it and I'm probably just a tiny blip on your life at this point. It'd be cool to talk again or share music or something although I know I'd just get burnt and upset myself since I really fucking liked you and we could have never been together in any serious capacity. I'll always really miss talking to you and my twitter friends from then too. They're pretty much all gone now sans a couple. I don't even really like that website anymore. It's just depressing to even think about. Anyways, I keep rambling and talking as if you'd see this which you obviously wouldn't. You don't seem like the type to be on here let alone browsing stupid threads like this. Take care out there sheep. I hope you're doing alright.
-C/RE

Ouch. We never even met

Are you a guy or a girl? Sounds like you're a dude but you've just described something I had with a girl I went out with.

J
You're ruining my life. All I ever do is wait for you to text or call me. I can't focus on work or school or anything. You broke up with me, and yeah it hurt, but I started going to therapy and I start going to church and I was starting to work on find a girl that doesn't FUCK WITH ME the way you do. I know I did some fucked up shit to you, but I'm almost upset you wanted to get back together. My happiness is completely tied up with if you contact me or not. I hate the way you string me along a tease me. Like you start sexting me but wait a half hour between each message?! I also hate the way you laugh at me when I fuck up. If you think I'm such a fuck up DON'T FUCKING DATE ME. I really really love you; but I really really wish I didn't. You are the only good thing in my life, and I fucking hate you for it.
M

T
I would have preferred an actual yes or no response to my question. I am trying to get you out of my head but you are the only person I want to have a meaningful relationship with and I hope you reach out to me and if you do I hope we can start over

>All I ever do is wait for you to text or call me
yup
>I can't focus on work or school
mhm, mhm
>I really really love you; but I really really wish I didn't.
Resonates a to an extent...
At this point in time, I want to say that I found evidence Im a schizo and that I wrote this, but
1. I'm a fag, its a he
2. we never dated like we probably should have
and with that, I hope things get better, fellow M

J, i cried last night thinking about you

I'm not going to initial this, but would you want to know if I was dying?

Are you having a procedure done in the near future ?

It's a possibility, I just found out that I'm very, very sick.

Is it a surprise or were you ill beforehand

Yeah, me too. This rouse about doctors not telling the truth about HIV status compromised what the numbers are showing on TV now. No corona virus, just HIV and putting people on unusual brinks of death to make life better for uninfected. Can't even get a strain or name or anything

Now I've gotten dubs twice in a row and you can cheggum, but the deal is is when HIV first came around people contra'd up and made up their own strains and that's why people think 1) they have HIV 2) they have the same strain as X 3) niggersex is OK

It was a complete surprise until the last two weeks of developing pains and visits to a doctor. I wish I had corona.

Yes I would like to know.

Because I told them a decade

Can you leave an initial?

I don't want to, just in case, but I'm not someone you know. I still need the courage to talk about it.

Understood. I am foolishly hoping the person I want to talk to reads what I have written earlier in the thread and unblocks me

J
I don't actually love you. We're just each other's emotional sponge, you're getting confused casue of the heightened emotions whenever we talk. Sorry, but it's the truth.

You will be okay once you start bouncing on my thick cock and you're eyes roll back in your head

Hey, its Andy I still want my bass case back you hippie fuckwads.