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>first drug?
alcohol as will be the case with most people
>are you on anything right now?
hell yes, cannabis
>ever had psychosis?
definitely
>any mental disorders directly caused by drugs?
I have schizo affective. Dunno if it was caused by drugs but I been smoking chronic since I was 16.

based alcoholic quads

>first drug?
alcohol
>are you on anything right now?
nah
>ever had psychosis?
not at all
>any mental disorders directly caused by drugs?
I don't think so, I know that booze really makes my depression worse after a while so I kinda just stopped drinking - I really just used it as a crutch when I show up at parties for social anxiety disorder

I'm feeling pretty good, user.
just about to make myself a bacon and egg sandwich and then boot up Witcher 3 for some comf gaming

>first drug ?
weed
>are you on anything right now ?
cigarettes and coffee
>ever had psychosis ?
A couple of times with strong weed
>any mental disorders directly caused by drugs ?
HPPD from DPH abuse
also I feel you OP

Hey, was wondering what sites people in Canada have been using to get research chems.

I haven't been able to find a good one since lysergi closed down

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Im about to try shrooms when the rain season starts, can you elaborate on this different reality situation?

>>first drug?
Weed
>>are you on anything right now?
Like 3 shots of vodka
>>ever had psychosis?
Yea happens every winter / fall since the start of high school I think. I basically get really manic and sperg our with grandiose delusions and paranoid delusions. This year my parents kicked me out for the first time because they thought I was on crack and I was freaking Out because i thought the mafia and the hells angels where after . I have more stories if interested
>>any mental disorders directly caused by drugs?
I was a daily stoner for most of my youth so it might have done that to me . Not sure. Not drugs but there is a part of my brain that is abnormally large when I got a ct scan couple years ago. I'm pretty sure it was the pineal gland

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>I have more stories if interested
Very interested, user.
Please, go ahead.

this fall / winter : neighbours where getting new pool, thought it was part of a conspiracy of the mafia to spy on me. Owed my best friend about 1400 for weed money, dude would never harm me but I thought he was trying to kill me so I stuck a knife to his neck, girlfriend and people at party had to knock me into reality. broke into my old work at 3am beacuase homeless at the time to make spaghetti and ended up playing flash games and smearing spaghetti sauce all over the walls and cutting the wires to the security cams. The same night i broke into reasturant i wrapped my face with newspaper and screamed as loud as i could walking through my town , succesfully scaring off 2 crackheads. i will post more hard to remeber

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Alcohol
Caffeine I guess
No
No
Where the fuck do people buy monero with a card without giving Id. Legit the only thing keeping me from buying off deepweb now that every fucking plug in Louisiana is dry for some reason.

also every old white person or scary white person i saw i thought they where either hells angels or mafia and that they where trying to kill me because of my race. Like 2 years ago i voluntarily went to a mental hospital becuase guess what I thought people where trying to kill me, I texted my same best friend a huge novel about how he can burn in hell and that he was trying to kill me because he was rapping a nigger song in the car with me, i honestly thought he was planning to kill me. When i got to the hospital i managed to sneak a phone in by taping it right above my cock and the lady nurse was shit and gown inpections so i got in. within an hour of me staying there i told this schizo that i was a crip and he ended up attacking me later that night with toothpaste and water in a cup by throwing it into my eyes and then trying to beat me. Even though he caught me off gaurd i managed to make him flee but we both got good shots on eachother and i was bleeding. Dude ran into a locked room and i started screaming saying i was going to kill him and 3 security gaurds came and tackled me and threw me in the isolation room. I then proceeded to paint swastikas with my blood and yell at evryone that islam will dominate the world and that the black flag will rise . I do not regret anything lol

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you're a fucking stupid skitz lol fucking retard

but im not schizo u faggot . i never hear voices or anyhting , if anything im just bipolar

>if anything im just bipolar
yeah bro cause thinking everyone is going to murder you isn't skitzing out

if i was a true schizo i would hear voices and hallucinate all the time if not for anti psychotics. its just drugs + lack of sleep + stress that does that to me. you can be a delusional psychotic but it doesnt mean ur schizo.

ive been binging on DXM alot recently and now my piss is orange, should i be worried
(my shit has DXM as the only active ingredient)

>first drug?
oxy and alcohol desu, good shit
>are you on anything right now?
been sober a few months now, shit sucks
>ever had psychosis?
get it pretty often, am schizo desu
>any mental disorders directly caused by drugs?
i have tons of mental disorders desu, but none caused by drugs
drugs helped with mine lol

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>weed
>phenibut
>no
>3 months of noweed so far after 4 years of daily use, still have severe depersonalization

Holy shit. Is that you Gunjy?

>Fellow schizo bro.
Sup man. I got the feeling schizo bros are common in these threads. Fun fact. 60% of schizos use drugs. What kind of psychosis do you get? I used to have paranoid ones but after two years of therapy I just have innocent delusions about the world. Shit could be worse I guess, can use any drug but weed or psychs. Weed is full on hardcore 2 hour psychosis where demons or reptilians will fuck me up mentally.

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kek what
no not gunjy desu
thank god im not him rn
i get paranoid psychosis and delusional psychosis about my life desu
like ill think im still with my abusive ex and shit
or that my cat is still around and we're playing or i need to find him
or that the agents following me are finally making a move
shit like that desu
doesnt surprise me schizos use drugs
shit sucks big time
have to have some way to cope

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What's comfier: weed or opiates? Which is better for watching anime? I am looking to achieve maximum comf, thank you.

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maybe you're right, I'm sorry for calling you a skitz.
you're still a faggot though

gunjy is in jail right now for fucking underage girl and posessing CP. he's not coming back.

gib infos about this mad lad I've never heard of. I've heard of mad thad

opis are only good for relaxing/sleeping. anything that requires attention like watching anime will make you sick and pissed off with opis.

weed is okay with anime but it could freak you out depending on the show. like, I wouldn't recommend End of Evangelion on weed unless you enjoy being freaked out.

smoking heroin and watching cute anime was my favorite thing to do desu
harakawa under the bridge was 10/10
opis and documentaries go well together too desu
just relaxed stuff you dont have to get too into

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smoking heroin will make you feel good no matter what, until you go without for more than a day and then every single bone in your body feels like it's broken

any experience snorting heroin? is it comparable with smoking?

yep
i quit cold turkey after a year and a half of use a few months ago
shit sucked desu
the RLS was the worst
kept me up for months
would 100% go back tho
have snorted both powder and tar
if you have powder its like, more than likely a fent mix if not entirely fent tho, so be careful
snorting hits you all at once after a little bit, gives a satisfying mild burn and a drip in the back of your throat
cutting your line and gently sniffing it is addictive in itself
easy af to overdose when snorting though
smoking is just so much fun desu
tears up your lungs as well though

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Well at earlier parts of the trip reality had generally felt like it was unraveling. At what I guess was the peak I was basically laying in bed wanting it all to stop, only occasionally opened my eyes and when my body parts weren't morphing and warping in uncomfortable ways I would sometimes look at objects in my room and they looked very different. I'm honestly bummed that I missed this part of the trip visually as what I remember was crazy, one box on a shelf looked like a glowing yellow hypercube that was inwardly rotating with no trace of it's original appearance other than it's shape, that's the only thing I remember in any detail.

Anyway, the point is even after I was coming down shit looked "off". The specific thought I had and the way I've described it now was that it felt as though aliens had tried to recreate my room in it's entirety but only using objects and junk they had lying around, so everything was the same but also "inaccurate" and totally foreign. I didn't dwell on that too much but it eventually lead me to the thought that I was in an entirely new version of reality, I may have also thought that "I" was now that reality's version of me as well. This also isn't something I dwelt on though, I have ADD and my mind always races on trips especially if I'm having a bad time, and I was very tired as it was about 6:00 AM 8 hours after dosing. Many different thoughts were entering my mind and had been for the past 4 hours in a basically uninterrupted stream.

Perhaps also a moment of psychosis, when shit started going south I thought back to my first mushroom trip which was only a month previous and with the guy that I got all the shrooms from. But by now I was already starting to question how "real" any of this was, and I had the thought that if I thought about that previous time and place too much I would actually be transported back there, and at the time that really really freaked me the fuck out.

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How high of a dose are you taking? Will you be able to have someone with you? In nature or in private? Have you tripped on something else before? I don't mean to scare you off lol, shrooms are a very interesting substance and perhaps someday I will return to them, but they also have the potential to be a lot more "cruel" than other substances it seems. I would greatly GREATLY advise starting with no more than 3g dried, if you're particularly lightweight maybe 2g. Every person is different (and every shroom has different potency, even different parts of the same shroom), but I'd say 3.5 is where you start getting past the light-moderate doses generally. And you do you, but I'd also advise not DOUBLING your previous dose if you decide to try again, that's what I did and I was NOT prepared for how much more it would be.

Also I know many robots can't or won't do this, but I would highly recommend a tripsitter. If that's not doable at least try to be in a place where you don't have to worry about getting caught or waking people up, I can tell you it's so much of a load off your shoulders if everyone where you are at least knows what you're doing beforehand, even if you intend to be alone. Pic related was basically what happened with my brother on this trip, he knew jack shit about psychs or that I'd took them but he saved my ass, would have been 10x worse if I didn't have him there, had I told him beforehand or taken my friend's offer to do the trip at his place this probably wouldn't have happened.

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So what are the thoughts on this image? After 7 years of a lot of variation in hard drug use I have to say it is pretty accurate from personal experience. Nicotine is a bitch and never really got addicted to anything else. It does seem to favor dopamine related drugs a lot though even though I find GABA drugs more addictive. Personal taste. GHB tolerance went up from 5ml to 30ml. Fuck me. Taking a tolerance break now and it is going well. If MDMA was possible to use daily without crazy tolerance I'd probably abuse the shit out of it. Still my fave.

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Also last week.
>2800mg of mdma.
>Nothing.
>Ayy lmao I done fucked up.

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What is "social harm"?

i have always loved that cat

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I think it means how much it will fuck up daily life when addicted. Your contacts and relationships as welk as upholding responsibilities.

Says anerbolic steroids have less physical harm than amphetamines which I disagree with because sure they speed up your heart but they dont physically grow it sending you to a guaranteed early grave like most bodybuilders in their 50-60s

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weed
weed
yes
maybe a worse memory?

Do psychs lose the magic or do I just not enjoy them anymore? My first maybe 4 acid trips were all amazing and fun just doing whatever by myself. After that it started to becomefairly boring as in just not enjoying i very much. Then I started getting horrible discomfort and difficulty breathing until my last acid trip where I stupidly did way too much and basically spent the next 6 hours in bed focusing on mybreathing to keep calm as I could barely feel if I was drawing in any air. Been months since and I did shrooms for the first time alone 2 weeks ago and light dose last night.This was not one bit fun, barely any enjoyment from music, just sad introspection overwhelming physical discomfort and such. Really bumsme out I used to love tripping, thinking of getting 2 cb soon and just using that as a fun few hour of visulas and good vibes as I've never experienced discomfort or rough headspace with it unless I smoked with it.

I want a boyfriend to snort ketamine with would be nice just sayin'

Get out you disgusting junkie slut. Women who snort things lose all value except the value their holes provide them.

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Ive severe treatment resistant depression it's only thing that helps dont do drugs to party also never done casual sex

Ket is the most addictive thing I can not see myself getting addicted to anything else I've tried first thing I've gotten actual cravings for
Doesn't seem to do physical harm so idk what's up with that chart

>Getting addicted to ket.

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>Smoke weed for months
>Stop smoking for a week
>Dreams become intense and easier to remember again
>Start smoking again a week ago
>Dreams are still intense, but more unsettling and hazy like deliriant nightmares
>Mixing them up with reality, almost referring to dream events while talking to people
>Inner monologue fracturing into archetypes
Is weed finally making me schizo?

How do i really trip balls? I have no real way to acces anything illegal right now and i want to see some lovecraft type shit. Extra points if it permanently affects me.

yes. you should stop.

Fainting game.

sleep deprivation, it's not fun but neither are most legal things that will make you see things like you're talking about.

Salvia might be legal in your state.

I probably will today because I still feel dissociated and head heavy from how stoned I got last night. Maybe take another week off, enjoy some alcohol or something

benadryl, but not enough for you to black out.
I weigh 180 lbs, and I took 450 mg, but all that happened was everything looked really vibrant when I went outside, and I kept thinking that birds chirping was actually alarms going off.
Like 3 hours later I took 300 mg more, and I blacked out for hour and I was completely delirious.
I would say take 550 mg if you weigh as much as me.