>speak to a girl from Yas Forums
>she wants to voice-chat
>put it off as much as possible
>eventually go through with it
>it's relatively okay
>speak for roughly an hour
>make an excuse to leave
>hang up
>breathe a sigh of relief
i know that feel user
Avoidant personality disorder
Robert Jones
Samuel Myers
What I find the most interesting about AVPD people psychologically is that in an absolute cruel twist of fate, on average the people most drawn to suffers of conditions that cause withdrawal like AVPD and SPD are people with conditions where they fear abandonment like BPD and Seperation Anxiety Disorder. Which means everyone suffers immensely.
Lucas Martin
>What I find the most interesting about AVPD people psychologically is that in an absolute cruel twist of fate, on average the people most drawn to suffers of conditions that cause withdrawal like AVPD and SPD are people with conditions where they fear abandonment like BPD and Seperation Anxiety Disorder.
Why do you make this assumption? There is no way to know if those they abandon even cared at all.
Nathan Rogers
>It's interesting you mention god defying failure like moby dick and ahab, probably where they got sin from as the design
I wish I knew what you were talking about. I think I'd understand somewhat, maybe surface level or a little deeper, what you're saying if I actually read the literature...I'm kind of envious of people that know all the classic and timeless stories while I indulged in almost entirely useless escapism - drugs, alcohol, loot grind video games --- very little creative or philosophical development back then, though I probably wouldn't have understood that sort of thing back then like I'm somewhat able to do now
Either way I'm at a stand-still, I'm sure reading all that sort of stuff would be an interesting experience but, at the same time I have read/watched SOME material like and even though it leads to lots of introspection, it doesn't really get me anywhere. I'm really looking answers and even though these stories are amazing at pondering situations and thought processes, I never really get the answers I'm hoping to find from them
I will say that mindless escapism isn't very attractive to me at the moment but...is what I'm doing here on Yas Forums right now just more mindless escapism? I assume we're having a real heart to heart, mind to mind discussion, but after witnessing the absolute fucking game, and mind readers through the black mirror / live streams taking immediate thoughts from your mind and relaying them back to you even when you've been sitting silence it's just really hard to cope or know what's real. Alls I can really do is try to stay optimistic and try to believe that maybe I will find some answers. I'm not really wanting to turn to drugs or alcohol at the moment, I've been very unhealthy for the past year and this past week of sobriety is really making my thought process and articulation a lot more "capable" than it's been in a long time. It hurts a bit but it feels a lot cleaner
Ian Johnson
While playing ffx I was thinking all of life is a form of sleep, and wakefulness is a sort of cult, and that's why there's war. Perhaps i'm too dualistic, but even in final fantasy all you do is kill animals for experience, oh mother, why did you do it?