Anyone else do awful shit to others in order to escape the feeling of being either rejected or hurt by people?
It's mostly gotten me in trouble.
Avoidant personality disorder
I am a big Coleric. So I really know this feeling. I mostly talk shit about them or straight up bully them. I am 21 now and have no singel friend I wonder why?
I tend to reject people before they get a chance to reject me. It has hurt both me and them a lot.
No, I just ghost them out of nowhere. I guess that hurts them, but I don't do mean shit to them.
I was diagnosed with AVPD last year. I thought I was schizoid but it turns out I do want relationships I am just insecure and anxious as fuck. I used to be mean in order to get rid of people but I felt bad so I have being doing . There has been about 15 people in my lifetime that I have formed friendships with and did this to. I ended up getting super anxious once we became closer and I start to think they secretly hate me and just leave. I do not think I will ever have a stable friend and will probably always live in this never ending cycle of self-inflicted torture.
How do you stop this btw, apparently some people can help other people out of this.
I guess you just need to become more confident since the root cause is insecurity.
Is there something i could do to help someone else though? I think there's a way but i don't know how.
Diagnosed with AVPD a year ago but I think it's somewhat wrong. I'm more along the line of schizoid, but maybe a mixture of both. AVPD people have desire for relationships, I don't.
I ghost when someone starts to like me for some reason. I don't know why, if I did, I'd change it because I'm so alone and want friends and gfs. I'm such a fuckup. I feel like I'm gonna lose everything about myself with people in my life. I only talk to safe people like siblings and cousins I've known my whole life. I'm about to ghost the first girl I've ever kissed and cuddled because I'm scared she'll start to like me more.