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>a couple months ago
>took 400 mg benadryl
>didn't feel much so took 350 mg more after a few hours
>completely blacked out
>my family saw me and my dad forced me to go to the hospital
>medicine cabinet is now locked
I just want to trip again but there is nothing to take and I have no money

>find a single suboxone strip
>its still sealed in the foil
>pocket it right away
first, is someone dying because of me, and as an non-dependent alcoholic who drinks each night, is this safe for me to take, and will i feel anything from it? i have very little opioid experience, basically a half bottle of codeine cough medicine and some tylenol-3, both used very sparingly about 10 years ago.

i like feeling like a braindead retard but xanax alone is meh without weed unless in public, drinking a double shot coffee to balance being calm and alert tho while i play honkai impact

is it possible to achieve ego death with weed?

yeah, with no tolerance on a heavily loaded edible

yeah tbqh ive done it before
this may be drunk me speaking but in the weird months of my life where i smoked a gram a day i seriously did feel ego death

try different activities while high, i like watching anime and i feel like i've been isekai'd if i get high enough, also for the paranoia part, try drinking or taking benzo's with it

Weedfags will advertise weed as the cure for everything

im thinking about driving a few towns over, taking LSD and just wandering around all night.

i have no friends and ive never done lsd, think ill be ok?

You're better off at home, staring at pictures on /w/ while listening to spotify and going for random walks where your visual perspective is warped, going on nightwalks is awesome on acid, it feels like you're at a rave but no normies around but walk on a secluded street cause it can be kind of hard to navigate. At the end of it all, lie down, eyes closed and listen to binaural beats (they work incredibly on psychs)

Yes.

That's not the case when it started for me. I lived in socal but had access to a grower in Humboldt county who grew some pretty damn good stuff. I used to deal in college to pay for my own use and to make a little bit of money on the side. Nothing big, just small time dealing. At my peak, I moved a qp a week.

My favorite combo is xanax and weed, but I don't have a dealer since I quit the game.

How to spot someone with autism 101.

Drank some Vodka and took Concerta, sadly puked it up.

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Gonna slam a fuck load of DXM tonight because my life is in ruin.
My (internet) friends are fucking assholes and I finally stopped talking to them yesterday.
Girl I liked told me this morning she 'decided to go with another guy', like it was a job interview. Guess that makes me a cuck or a simp or something too. Still have no job and my state shut down every non-essential business, can't leave the house because of the lockdown in my state (not california, i'm not a faggot), my doctor did nothing to help me with my heart condition except diagnose it, and i'm addicted to multiple drugs and haven't seen a psychiatrist in about 8 months or a therapist in about 3 years.
Thanks for reading my blog. I'm doing LSD in a few days, you think all this shit running through my brain will make it a negative experience? Any suggestions to drown out the pain?

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instead of doing those drugs you should just fast for like 6, 8, or 10 days. you can do the drugs after.

Weed literally lost all it's magic, what do? Even 3months break don't change the high at all.

Should I use 5mg edible weed with 900mg DXM, or 900mg DXM and then redose with 225mg an hour later?

Not an expert on weed, but DXM seems to 'reset' most of my tolerances. That combined with a sizable break like 3 months might make it more interesting at least. Or try combining weed with another drug.

While that sounds good for my mind, I have hypoglycemia. I can't go 6-12 hours without eating, much less 10 days. I've also tried meditating and nofap in the past, but neither helped.

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If you have little to no opiod tolerance suboxone probably isn't the best this for you to be taking. Start with 1 mg or less, trust me even that's going to make you vomit for hours. Be very fucking careful user

First off take more than 5 mg. Take the edible and once it starts creeping in dose on the 900. Time em out so both peaks hit at once. Weed and dxm is a great combo but stack those peaks ya fucking pussy

Good point, I've had a few bad times with weed + DXM before but i'm more experienced with both now, so I might as well

>Weed is the cure edition.
>Ex psychotic.
>Schizo
>Just half a joint makes me psychotic for 2 hours.
Mates. My thought runs at 100mph and I analyse everything to the point I lose touch with reality. I see my inner demons and conversate with them, delusions and even hallucinations start to happen. I saw fucking demonic symbols and Reptilians start talking to me and we speak about the universe as they mentally strip me apart and torture me. Niggas this shit is worse than dropping a death dose of Datura. Why can't I just stop?

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So far this week I've gone through 2 tabs of acid and 5gs of mushrooms. DMT will be ready later this week I'm excited to go somewhere else. Tired of just existing more.

*coofs*
ADDY GANG ADDY GANG ADDY GANG

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>blowing all that shit this early in lockdown
lol pace yourself my man, damn

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how can i be sure the things i realise and see while im on psychedelics arent actually real, what if reality is fake and psychedelics make you see the things you can't

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is there a difference between smoking weed and swallowing THC concentrate drops? my friend said his doctor sells them illegally (even tho weed is legal in my country) and i got a shipment of 2 of them, one bottle is meant to last a month. what am i in for?

You live in normal reality 99.99999% of your lifespan why worry about it?

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Hindus also call this world maya, illusory, dreamlike, mind-stuff. What do they mean? Do they mean that it is unreal? No, it is not unreal, but when your mind gets mixed into it, you create an unreal world of your own. We don't live in the same world; everybody lives in his own world. There are as many worlds as there are minds. When Hindus say these worlds are maya, they mean reality plus mind is maya. Reality, that which is, we don't know. Reality plus mind is illusion, maya. When somebody becomes totally awakened, a buddha, then he knows reality minus mind. Then it is the truth, the brahman, the ultimate. Plus mind, and everything becomes a dream, because mind is the stuff that creates dreams. Minus mind, nothing can be a dream, only reality remains in its crystal purity. Mind is just like a mirror. In the mirror the world reflects. That reflection cannot be real, that reflection is just a reflection. When the mirror is no longer there the reflection disappears. Now you can see the real.

A full-moon night, and the lake is silent and the moon is reflected in the lake and you try to catch the moon_ This is all that everybody has been doing for many lives: trying to catch the moon in the mirror of the lake. And of course you never succeed - you cannot succeed, it is not possible. One has to forget about the lake and look exactly in the opposite direction. There is the moon.

Mind is the lake in which the world becomes illusory. Whether you dream with closed eyes or you dream with open eyes makes no difference. If the mind is there, all that happens is a dream. This will be the first realization if you meditate on dreams.

The second realization will be that you are a witness: the dream is there, but you are not part of it. You are not part of your mind, you are a transcendence. You are in the mind, but you are not the mind. You look through the mind, but you are not the mind. You use the mind, but you are not the mind. Suddenly you are a witness - no longer a mind. And this witnessing is the final, the ultimate realization. Then, whether "dream while asleep" or whether "dream while awake" makes no difference, you remain a witness. You remain in the world, but the world cannot enter in you anymore. Things are there, but the mind is not in the things and the things are not in the mind. Suddenly the witness comes in and everything changes.

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I discovered I like coloring on those trips so it was worth it so far. I want to draw cute stuff but it's hard. My brain makes scary stuff if I don't try

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Drug addict cope

Stop overthinking. Empty the mind. Easier said than done. My Weed trips don't cause severe anxiety trips like yours.

>day trip on acid on sunday
>dont got to be til around 4 monday morning
>get up on monday at 8pm drop a xan
>only just woke up about an hour ago.

So i've practically just lost a day to a xan. incredible.

>Takes deliriant out of boredom
>gets BTFO
All is right with the world.
Learn how to make moonshine or claim tismbux or just accept you'll have to stay sober.

>Honkai Impact
Based.
Quit it because the labyrinth of dailies and collectables got annoying as fuck, but the core game is pretty great.

>tfw stuck in Louisiana without a dealer
Why are you mentioning your state lol. Are you trying to ask for plug numbers in Loisiana or something lol

pretty much... at some point you get bored of doing drugs (specially weed) and just waste time at home...

even psychedelics, I have plenty at home but I haven't found the proper moment and mental space to do them, and I'm not really in a rush, it's fine to wait

Start doing less, but better quality, put in order your life, etc

you sure built some tolerance right?

Drugs i wanna try

1mg of LSD
DMT
High dose of Amanita muscaria
Salvia
Mescaline
5-MeO-DMT
Heroin
Meth

That's really it honestly

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>want to get really high
>have half ounce right here
>bitch lungs so after 2 rips i have to call quits cause my throat is burning causing me to never get stoned

HOW DO PEOPLE CONTINUOUSLY RIP BOWLS OVER AND OVER? I JUST WANT TO GET STONED I FEEL LIKE IM WASTING WEED

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fuck man, buy pre rolled coned and make a doobie and smoke that shit pussy
let me see ur weed user

Have a cough drop or cold water

Oh my fucking god. I've reached a new low lads.

>be me
>cant sleep
>drink 3 liters of beer and some vodka to soothe my soul
>black out I guess? Empty stomach
>Only remember running to take a piss every five minutes
>wake up
>why am I naked?
>get out of bed
>why are my underwear on the floor?
>why are they wet?
>look beneath my desk
>big ol pool o piss
>my ashtray in the middle
>remember pissing myself and pulling my dick out to piss some more to limit the damage
>it was a good idea to use the ashtray as a urinal apparently
>on the fucking floor
>instead of my fucking rubbish bin or a fucking toilet like an actual human being
>mfw cleaning that shit up

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drug music on repeat

good chance you'll panic and ruin your trip, do it at home man

Dad came up to me yesterday evening and asked me for a beer.
Felt really bad I couldn't provide any, so we shared a tiny bit of wine and said goodnight.
Thinking of going out today and getting a pallet. Been a while since I got properly smashed and it's getting boring being locked up.
Here's hoping the store carries it and I don't get /too/ many dirty looks for going out just for alcohol.

WEED or Alcohol?
I've been sober for 2 and a half month
What should i buy
40$ is spending

weed if yourea a loner
Alk if youre a social person.
Seein as tis is Yas Forums, I tink you know wic one

shut the fuck up dumb ass faggot

Nah, i might just buy alcohol. I had lot of experience with weed, also i can't smoke inside anyways

Depends on whether you're in a legal state/country or buy from a legitimately good dealer.
If quality is gonna be variable, go with alcohol.
40 bucks is too much to toss on potentially weak weed and too little to make up for it in quantity.

>Nah, i might just buy alcohol.
Yea, but it's quarantine time so you probably aren't gonna go outside and socialize with people. Drinking alone can get depressing.
Get atleast 50% alc 50% weed if you can.