Take a seat, we've got plenty

>latest scary thought i had was "that last hour I spent, I will never get back. I am voluntarily burning my life away and I'm too socially retarded to do anything about it"
Im also like this. Ever since the gyms got shutdown I've felt down, even though I've only lifted for 4 months total. Felt like a turned a corner 2 days ago when I could really feel that the summer is coming, and could feel the sun in my face. Winter where I live is depressing. Also living in a small city(500 people) and without a car cuz no use for it, before college start.
Try to get some walks in everyday or just walk to the store or something. Do something productive. We are in our best age.

This sounds interesting.
After moving to my own place, I've had two instances where I'm extremely gloomy and nihilistic, and go to the darkest and quietest room, cover myself with a blanket so I only see dark and hear as little as possible, and lay in fetal position on the floor on some cornered place
Have you connected your panic attacks to any behavior you've shown in pre-teens or earlier in life in general?

Weak brain, not gonna make it

Im losing my gains, I lost valuable training time I may never recover that I paid for, I may lose the job I had set up for the summer, and Im almost 29 and never had a gf and this thought stings even more these days now that Im lonelier. Plus im getting more and more depressed, lonely and anxious. But I trudge on.

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>Try to get some walks in everyday or just walk to the store or something. Do something productive. We are in our best age.
appreciate words of support and solidarity
I do get a few walks in now and then
But I also somewhat have hope for the late bloomer-thing and those guys who say that they feel their best at like 30. might I add since I'm a generally healthy person and on the better side of skinnyfat and not an uggo with no hope
However, I don't want to rely on the "wait and maybe things'll get better" (which I've honestly been living for the past 4 years now), because of Jordan Memerson's lobster-story. If i wait for things to fall in my lap and sit down doing nothing different, I will wait, wait, wait and then I'm dead.
I have the go getter-philosophy, but my actions don't reflect it

I believe in you. Go get it.

virus is doing some damage to the economy that'll likely have a long term effect
a real burden on the already desperate. Toppled with the fact, there's no real sight of when things'll "get back to normal".
I believe you can find strength somewhere. Often us loneliest ones have endured dark times mentally that has if not strengthened our minds, atleast made them adaptable and copeable at troublesome situations

Let me have a double shot of your cheapest brandy
I’m working at a nursing home with demented and schizo Covid patients. I like to narrate my experiences in my head like I’m the head nurse from One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest

>Be lactose intolerant
>Can't GOMAD
Mfw

>demented and schizo Covid patients
are the movie tropes true? do schizos repeat imaginary conversations to themselves while looking at nowhere? or rather do they have some other personality with a different voice that comes out unexpectedly? or do they just cry and wail in horror all day?
you forgot your feel fren

Coca-Cola Classic, on the rocks.
I'm ready to move on from my ex but the kung-flu shit and isolation is making it tough. I want to get out and meet new women but I'm stuck at home and she keeps popping into my head. Tinder/bumble sloots don't want to meet up. Trying to distract myself with work, running/calisthenics, writing, and vidya as much as I can.

I thought the whole "waking up but you're not here beside me" trash was for movies and TV but it happened to me the other night. I had a dream with her in it and when I woke up, still in my half-dreaming dazed state, I rolled over to tell her about it and nobody was there. That was a fucking hard feel, bro.

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I have the next four days off
>Essential worker at a hospital
>Reduced hours because unaffected area where we don't really work with Coronachan patients
>Still get paid for full 40 hour week
>Still accumulating PTO as if I'm working 40 hours
>Getting stronger (or just more proficient) with my bodyweight workouts that I've had to resort to
Life's pretty good in quarantine

>I had a dream with her in it and when I woke up, still in my half-dreaming dazed state, I rolled over to tell her about it and nobody was there.
know that feel all too well, expect never had a gf and slept a night with a hook-up once
ever see a romantic dream of a girl and wake up to a quiet and lonely day and can't stop thinking about that dream and how much you wanted to sleep for another year?

Today is my 31st birthday

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happy birthday fren!
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Cold water im on medication.
>Pretty chill
>start no fap and mewing
> started enjoying going for a walk and riding my bike
>even tho i live in a hilly area so i have to drive upwards every few meters
>gaining weight steadily cuz im a skeleton
>plan to lift when i have normal weight
>kind of dont know what to eat
>mfw im improving myself cuz of the quarantine

I've been hanging out with my ex a lot lately. I know I should stop doing that but I just don't have the balls.

Don’t get too down on yourself. I am lucky right now to be working, and making good money from a fairly new job (financial advisor). But I didn’t start that way.
I dealt with opiate addiction for years, depression, suicidal thoughts, was stuck and not moving forward in my life. I barely worked and barely left the house.
I had a few friends who stuck by me and eventually pulled me out of my addiction.
Don’t drop your good friends because they aren’t “progressing” like you feel they should or society does. You end up being their Saving grace, they may be dealing with something similar to what I was.
Just remember, when, and WHEN is a guarantee semi normal life comes back you’ll be enjoying life 10x more than you are right now. Lows always swing back to highs, and since for many it’s an extreme low that means it’ll swing to an extreme high to balance out.
Keep working out, even when you don’t want to. Pick up a hobby (I myself draw, and paint warhammer); read a book outside in the sun. Practice singing. Make a bird house. Occupy your mind with a task, rather than scrolling for another (you) on here.
We like to shit on normies for their obsession with social media, porn, their love of mundane entertainment like capes but...but this place is just our version of it. There’s little difference.

Yeah it's happened maybe 2 or 3 times, that previous post included. I know it sounds stupid/beta/whatever but i tried going back to sleep to see if i could keep the dream going but i just laid awake there for like 2 hours until it was time to get up. I can still remember it vividly

I gave up and ordered an ECA stack with DMAA. It'll either kill me or make me shredded.

I'm getting fat. Pls send help

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happy birthday user
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I forgot it was Friday. At this point it hardly means anything when I can't do anything with it