First of all, to all the jannies out there, DON'T DELETE THIS POST NOR BAN ME, this is a legitimate lifestyle and health issue that many of us in this board struggle with, including youselves.
I have been seriously trying to quit porn for at least 4 months now and I've never made it past 3 days. It doesn't really matter how I keep busy or for how long, as soon as I lay down in my bed I start to feel these extreme urges to ejaculate to something and I end up doing it. It happens, too, when I'm in the bathroom or when I'm naked after taking a shower.
I'm not even watching "normal" porn anymore, the only way I can ejaculate is if I watch tranny porn, gay porn or if I watch girls performing sick shit or something I had never seen before (which is difficult to come across). Needless to say that I don't feel attracted to any of these things in real life and I always feel disgust after doing it, but I just keep on going like a drug addict.
Every single time after I ejaculate I feel extremely weak, unmotivated and disgusted with myself.
I've even gotten to the point of skipping showers because I always masturbate at night, spend more than an hour at it and then say: "meh it's too late and I still have to do some chores I didn't do during the day, I'll just shower tomorrow."
I've been lifting weights for some considerable time, my body looks decent and I'd say that my face is a 6.5, I've been called "cute" before and I've missed some chances I had with girls because I'm way too socially retarded to talk to them and fapping fills the void. Yeah, I'm a kisless virgin who's never had a gf.
Anyways, I just felt like I needed to get this off my chest because I have no one IRL whom I can talk about this with, so yeah.