I just want to go to Heaven, anons. Im grateful for all the gifts in my life, every last one, but I just dont want to be alive anymore. Every day I grow more lonely. Every day the decisions I made in my past haunt me. Every day I am reminded that nobody has or will ever really want me here, and every day all I see is another grim reminder that Satan's minions run this festering shithole of a world. I dont want to live my life as a wageslave consumer ; a hamster on a wheel forever chasing shallow things like Power, Prestige and Wealth, but ultimately there is nowhere left to go in this world that hasnt been constructed to enslave people through their own worldly, ravenous hunger for beastly desires. All I want is a fulfilling life free from sin, a loyal loving wife and a few kids, but even things like this are just an impossibility to have. Im only 20, and I just want to go to heaven. I just want to meet God. Aside from living a life that would make God and my family proud of me, all I want is a wife and kids that I can dote upon and cherish with all my heart. Ultimately, anons, this dream is something that will not happen given the very nature of the world in its current state, and I have no desire to enter this lie of a life and chase after meaningless materialistic bullshit like the kikes want me to. We are all given one chance to live, and instead of focusing on meaningful things we're expected to squander it making Satan's minions happy. The only thing that keeps this world running is man's own hedonism and hubris, and I just dont want to participate anymore. I cannot change the future, and ultimately even if I could in some meaningful way, it would just be subverted by Jews to lure man back into the slavery of sin yet again. I dont want to kill myself ; I cant hurt my family like that. I just wish that the Lord would take me out of this evil world, or at least let me know my purpose so that I could serve him well.
Christians, is it wrong to pray for God to kill me and bring me home?
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There never was a heaven and the journey never ends. You'll just be back in the astral until you delude yourself into experiencing yet another non-existent physical life.
If you truly feel like this. Then once the quarantine is over, buy a one way ticket to india and just roam.... try to sit with monks over there.... they can teach a lot about how to just enjoy the happening moment. I recommend doing meditation. You will die one day anyway.... and maybe god doesn't plan for you to marry... and maybe he wants you to be a wage worker.... if you feel a strong desire to resist, then resist, fight, follow that feeling.... you have nothing to lose once you accept that god will kill you one day anyway... sooner or later... You can have happiness all on your own... just simply existing in the reality of god... God bless.
There's no heaven slick, only 6 feet of dirt and ravenous maggots. If you want to die just fucking do it.
You will eventually find Christ, my friend. It might not be apparent right away, but He will find you, trust me.
God and a loving family will find you. For the moment, live for yourself and make yourself the best man you can possibly be. Do this, and happiness will find you. It will be alright, bro.
Christ be with you bro. We are in the end game now, it's not long before His Second Coming. I pray often that God sees fit to send his Son sooner rather than later. I want to see all the demonic systems of control shatter into dust
>one way ticket to india
There are lots of less painful suicide methods.
I'm not Christian but I feel similarly. I want to die, I feel like the afterlife is calling me. Like my mind just has this weird belief that when I die I will wake up in a place that's wonderful, where it all makes sense and everything I ever wanted. I know that probably sounds so illogically hopeful but my mind just can't shake it.
Ultimately, user, I believe your line of thinking is what brought the world to the state its in now. I used to think the same way when I was younger, but it is the rejection of God that has doomed man to once again seek only empty pleasures in a sea of despair. The Jews are right about goyim ; that we're just animals to be taken advantage of, and by convincing us that "God doesnt exist", they embolden our inner demons to seek out meaningless things in an attempt to control us. Nihilism, Italianon, is how we are ruled, and God's love and wisdom is the only way to break the conditioning. Cynicism is a natural state of mind once you've grown wise enough to see past the bullshit, but to reject The Lord is foolish ; it is only through God that I have ever even had a desire to seek out the truth, and it is only through God that I have learned to stop loving sin. I hope you come to the faith someday, user, or at least give it another chance. Peace, hope and love to you.
never trust a jew
No, God has plans for you, if he didnt he would kill you himself, get right with him and complete your mission and he will kill you when you're done, have some balls.
I pray that you give Christianity a chance user. Even if we're but strangers, I truly hope that you someday learn to love The Lord. Take care of yourself. Peace, love and hope to you.
You are looking for God to give you a purpose, but by everything you stated, he already gave you one. Follow that user. Don't give up in the face of the evils of the world. Be a soldier of God and fight in his name. We need courageous men to fight the wickedness amongst us. We need men just like you. Join today.
>get right with him and complete your mission and he will kill you when you're done
Whatever god you worship sounds like a nigger.
user , life is such , but will of god is to live like this so you can be worthy of living in heaven , but if you decide to not , you still can become priest or pastor in churches and change the word by these means.
>never trust a jew
Too late, dumb mutt
I pray for that too, user, but remember that The Lord's wrath is truly something to be feared, not something to hope to witness. He is a loving and compassionate God, but his fury, however justified it may be, is something I pray that we dont have to live through. Peace love and hope to you.
Why are you praying to fail?
keep up some hope for finding a loving wife to start a family with -- while there are few good women, there are some out there -- but find solace in knowing that even if you're unable to find yourself a wife, one can do more for god's kingdom if one remains unmarried.
focus on serving god and furthering his kingdom; bringing glory to him is our ultimate purpose in this world, however you go about doing that. we're not meant for this fallen world, and so it is only right for man to be made miserable by it, someday (soon, i hope) the lord will rain down his wrath on this wicked world, but in the meantime, we need to labour for the lord.
"Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ:
By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.
And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience;
And patience, experience; and experience, hope:
And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us."
- romans 5:1-5
when this life is over, you'll be with the lord and all sorrow will be over.
we won't live through god's wrath, as that wrath is no longer upon us thanks to christ: we'll be raptured before god pours out his wrath. if you want to familiarise yourself with end times prophesy, i recommend watching this, or taking a look at steven anderson's revelation preaching series:
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We all see suffrage in our world. Flaws, dead-ends, futility in It all. Whether that be from a corrupt system you cannot change, a pointlessness in life, or a desperation of trying to find a "purpose". And let me tell you, that's all just a human construct made by others who think they know what's best for you (look who's talkin). But ultimately, (from my optimistic-nihilism pov) there is no requirement for you, nor should you feel the need to. For me, life is meaningless, and that's the best part. You have no obligation to be the perfect person and chisel every flaw of your life, but if you feel happy doing so; do it. The real winners in life are the ones who are happy; and you don't need to have a successful job, or family, or anything to do that; you just need whatever it is that you want.
You're not done yet. And if you dont learn, you'll spend life after life in a different basement until you learn what you're here for and do it
Not if hes not searching too.
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Yes only the devil himself would say such a thing
there is no god
sell your iphone and stop taking life advice from an anime imageboard for fucks sake
What do you mean?
Yes, it is wrong. You supposed to love God more than this world, even hate this world but not your life, that's the one thing God gave to you and that was your chance to get your salvation and rewards in Heaven by going through trials.
you are young and severely blackpilled right now. happens to all of us. We can tell you are pretty smart and introspective just by the way you write. The fact you have faith in the lord is such a great thing that you wont fully comprehend how great it truly is until you are much older. One thing i have learned is that it isnt our place to know Gods plan. He seems to be very subtle most of the time if not down right silent but that shouldnt cause despair. He gave us freewill for a reason. It wouldnt really be free if he told us what to do all the time. Life is full of trials and tribulations meant to test our resolve and spirit in the face of evil. You will get through this dark sentiment you have found yourself in currently, i promise you that. This world needs people like us who recognize and admonish the evil which seems to permeate every nook and cranny. God bless you user
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I hear you user, I feel the same way but God won't let me off myself I just keep waking up alive still. I think we might really be in the end game.
This attitude is more or less why we're in this shit in the first place. It serves the powers that be very well indeed, to have the populace think they are nothing more than sentient sacks of meat whose only purpose in an otherwise worthless life is to chase after dopamine hits until they enter the Void from whence they came.
I would rather believe in an unseen God and live for the good of my fellow Man than embrace your nihilistic view and only life for myself. Materialism and Atheism is the cancer that's killing the human race.