How are you holding up, Yas Forums?

bored/lonely

Oh. Same old, told myself I wouldn't work as hard, third year in a row. Forced to work hard either way.
Working as a chef means you work when people are free. So you never see your family.
You don't get to go out much, especially when you work in a rural restaurant.
Schedule is flimsy at best, meaning you can't plan your weeks.
Been 'looking' for a girlfriend as of late, but it only made me realize how lonely I am. The depression is bound to set in sometime after the summer again.

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i keep on wasting time and refusing to learn from my mistakes like the complete buffoon that i am
all i do is talk, i talk too much, but i never put in any work
i literally don't know what it's like to do your best
i am going to waste my life and keep piling up the regrets until it is time to go to where i belong

other than that, steve albini is a very funny guy

getting married friday so quite well actually

Dad's in the hospital and today the doctors weren't able to wake him up and panicked, he woke up later and was disoriented and slow for a couple of hours.
I don't think he'll make it, but I guess death is inevitable and we all should be comfortable with that concept. Everyone we love is going to die, as death is the only thing that is 100% unavoidable. Listening to Crywank which is quite fitting, I saw them live a couple of days ago and got to hang out a bit with them, James was super nice to me and hugged me and told me to take care.

Wtf how?

Same shit, just trying to find a job. Not much to really say.

vince was right
youtube.com/watch?v=uDw1nECBqN8

same old same old, heading no where in life, i'm turning 22 next month and i never had a job,gf,my own home, no friends, and still a fucking virgin, life sucks, the world's awful and i think about dying everyday

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I feel like shit, same as always.

youtube.com/watch?v=AOkN6JO2q40
Kinda shitty

Are you me?

My suicidal thoughts are gone, my energy is back, my libido is high af.
I feel so alive guys, I hope I can feel like this forever.

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I was going pretty bad up until recently when I went to get a yearly check up to make sure a previous condition of mine hadn't come back, I'm in 21 and recently hit a growth spurt, I grew about 2 inches, my dick grew a little and voice got slightly deeper. I live alone and have no friends so i never really noticed until my doc pointed it out. she sent me to get it checked out to make sure I don't have some kind of brain tumor since growth spurts are very rare once you're in your 20's now I'm 6'1 and have an almost 6" dick, life's looking up for me anons.

proud of you guys

yes

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Unironically sick with coronavirus :( shit fucking suxks bro i'll probably die within the next couple days.
Recommend me music for my last moments in this body :(

>bi-polar depression has entered the chat
Enjoy it while it lasts user

My bestfriend just got a arthoe GF and I'm still the same lonely fuck, kinda sucks but hey better times will come I hope

I took a job at a roadhouse in a remote part of South Australia almost a year ago. I like making photos of the outback, which is why I came here, but I’ve been feeling really isolated and lonely.

I’m currently really interested in antarctic exploration, so I’ve been spending all of my time reading about that, like a total autist. A welcome distraction, I guess.

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oh stop user you're fine, unless you have a auto immune issues are old or very young you should be fine. Stay home under the covers and enjoy some chicken noodle soup and listen to some jams, here you go
user
youtu.be/vFbcRNCXEXM?t=37

Just got promoted, almost finished with the second draft of my senior project, finally processing emotional bullshit with a therapist, quit drinking/pot, and I have enough books, movies and music to get me through the quarantine if beer flu hits my campus.

i know it's hated around here but if there's an album i generally want to hear in my final hours, it's gotta be this

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Yeah, I know. I've been living with mood swings for 3 years and I have nothing else to do but enjoy these episodes.

started drinking again. it wasn't the hellish collapse into alcoholism i was expecting. i haven't lost my job, i haven't flunked out of school, i've just accepted this 'thing' as a part of my life. i don't need it, but i like it. i could live without it, but i don't want to. i am here. i know what i am. i work, i go to school, i get good grades (or good enough, at least) and in between, i drink. sometimes for the relief, sometimes to sleep, sometimes because i want there to be something going on in my life other than the constant meaningless AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA that occupies the spacious chasm in my ears.

listen to Baptists

Quite honestly I'm a wreck. I don't really know what to do about it and with every wave of depression it just gets worse and worse. Emotions are so frustrating.

Also ridiculously horny to cuddle.

Forgot about this

youtube.com/watch?v=2NTmgFNSLtA

bro i'm on life support you thinking fuckin chicken noodz is gonna do shit?
Thanks user

It's past 12 AM so I'm officially 27. I've had depression since I was 15 and lately I've just kept telling myself, every time I felt suicidal, "just hang in there until you turn 27 lol".
I wasted my 20's losing the "fight" against depression, I haven't done anything notable or worthy with my life.

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I have an ice addiction but I swore I’d never poke, only smoke. This girl I hang out with said I should try injecting - she wanted to play doctor... and it was fucking amazing. This feels like rock bottom.

I never said that chicken noodles would help cure corona chan but it'll provide comfort and nutrition. nothing can help you user so might as well eat some chicken noodles or what ever food brings you comfort, my older brother died about a month ago from alcoholic hepatitis and he said if it weren't for the soup and blankets he would've gave up weeks earlier.

Don't kill yourself user please
I'm feeling down too but I don't think it's worth it

I'm still alive, I'm still alive
youtu.be/10tTwpGRyNc

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extremely suicidal again
regressing to weebhood
libido lower than its ever been
dyed my hair on a whim but I do like it
still a virgin
working myself to death in a fucking entry level job

I'm on a school trip and I'm crushing on one of the other girls in my 'grade' (college freshmen) but I'm pretty sure she has a bf already. I'm too socially retarded to ask if she does directly. We're getting to be friends now but I'm not sure what's going to happen next. We'll just have to see I guess

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don't waste the fucking thought-calories on it, dog. just be her friend, extend that olive branch of friendliness. if he she does have a boyfriend, oh well. you can at least have her companionship.

worst case scenario, you can be the affair she has 5-10 years from now when she realizes she made a big mistake marrying her high school sweetheart.

About the same. During the day while I'm doing things I'm fine, but as soon as everything slows down and I lay down it's like my mind decides to list everything that happened that day in painful detail and I just lay there. The only good thing is the usual existential dread isn't as prominent anymore, and I don't feel like I'm on the verge of a mental collapse so that's nice.

Reconnected with an old friend and we are gonna hang out soon.

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I can't fall asleep without the help of a few drinks and i fucking hate it

Okay

i use melatonin and cbd on the off-days where i don't drink. highly recommend it. it doesn't just help me fall asleep, but it keeps me asleep. meaning, i don't wake up at 4am and lie awake until my alarm goes off.

Cringe.

stop fapping so much if that's an issues, quit the job, but not until you find a better one don't be super picky just get out. Also use tinder or hire a prostitute, honestly even if you're ugly a girl in you league will find you on these dating apps I'm about as average as they come in all aspects of life and i got cooch withing a week and found a really good girl within two months just gotta put yourself out there and roll with the punches or else you'll never make it. I use to be in your position except i wasn't a weeb, I quit my dead end job limited myself to 1 fap max a week before i got a gf and was almost homeless but pushed through and made it and just used energy drinks to medicate my depression for a short while now i'm at a entry level I.T job maintaining servers for 60k a year and can make up to 150k a year in 3 years if i stay on track. But its easier said than done the last year has been the worst year of my life but it was all worth it

It only gets worse.

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what IT job do you have

terribly

Existential dread.

Do normal people get this? I feel like nobody I know irl has ever had this except maybe one or two people.

I think most are better at forgetting about it

I can't tell if my lack of motivation to learn an instrument/make music is either due to laziness or me just having no real passion in making music.

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glad to hear it

I got a Yas Forums gf and my grades and health are turning up, but I still feel an overwhelming sense of loneliness and insignificance from time to time.

Got infected with whooping cough by some asshole friends who never bothered thinking twice about a never-ending cold. Been out from school for a month now. Last semester of school too, so it's a busy one and I've not had the energy to work on school stuff so it's been stacking up. I'll probably be fine though.

Also pissed at the shitty way the government is handling the coronavirus but that's outta my reach.