Does anyone know how do i access and find the real illegal hidden sites on tor browser...

Story please. Interested. Graphic details.

unfortunately yes. not proud of it. I was desperate and very lonely. I kept my head up after it all and now I have a really good job and a wonderful girlfriend. I was in a dark place then. do not recommend.

If you can't find cp on tor, you don't deserve cp.

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Sorry officer, but the efficient and dedicated agents of the FBI took that horrid site down years ago. Nothing Iike that happening 'round here these days I can assure you of that! But hey apparently McDonald's fucking delivers now!! Did you even fucking know that shit dawg?!?! Were you even goddamn aware that their breakfast fucking chicken biscuit is cunt kicking delicious with some fucking jelly? I shit you fucking not ! You just unwrap that massive faggot, then lovingly spread open those fresh, hot biscuits and glorp in a shit ton of grape or strawberry goodness, then close that bitch tittied asshole back up and chow the fuck on down to Flavor Town! You get that southern fried chicken orgasm goodness, that hot flaky biscuity comfort and sweet sweet jelly! Its like you're about to jack yourself off quick and dry - just to clear out the pipes before bed - but then your crush appears and insists on lubing you up and stroking you to completion before rimming Ronald McDonald personally just to bring you this ambrosia of the fucking Gods herself! This delectable yard of dick sandwich is so butt fucking delicious i want to smash my fucking face on a pile of pissed and shit on broken glass and used heroin needles over and over and over until the angels fly out of my head to cleanse the fucking world!

OP here, for everyone typing things like cp, i absolutely was not intending on going on any of those sites. What i am looking for is sites with information similar to those of paladin press books, the all embracing library or the /ark/, and only for informational and curiosity reasons

I was pretty much NEET at the time. Severely depressed hit the highest weight I've ever been. I had lost my job and moved back home. It started out with loli, then the realistic shit, then here on Yas Forums back in the day shit would always slip through the filter, it piqued my interest. Talked to some people back then on how to source more content. Was turned onto the tor network. One thing led to another (not going into detail how to find content) I would drown myself in it. It never took over my life and the activities I took part in but almost every night I would browse the tor network. Flash forward a couple of months I went to go stay with a buddy in the city he lived in because everyone knew I was in a funk. I was sleeping on his couch and I used to have to tug the noodle to get to sleep back then. Anyways, I was on his couch headphones in watching some videos of cheese pizza at like 3am. And he came out and caught me. Well, I wasn't entirely dumb I had my laptop faced away from the hallway to his room. But in an attempt to cover up my laptop fell yanking out the headphones. To which he was able to see my nefarious video playing. He just said "dude. get your clothes on and go to bed". The next morning he came out and pretty much cussed me out for being a fucking freak and how it's not normal at all to be into shit like that. He told me to get help or he would rat me out. He offered to keep my internet devices for a while to help with the temptation. Which helped a lot because he lived an hour away from me. I went to therapy where I learned that my desires were born from boredom and a longing for attention. I learned that I can get the same attention and love from peers both emotional and physical. It's never a road I would wish on anybody.

Don’t blame it on desperation and loneliness, be honest. How did you stumble on it on the dark web? What enticed you go keep viewing it? Were you bored of regular adult pornography and craved the rush and thrill? What was your preference. Don’t be a pussy and talk bitch.

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Interesting, thanks. What do you mean by realistic shit? 3D style animation? I personally don’t have any interest in viewing this sort of material, but I am admittedly fascinated with speaking with those who have struggled with addictions to it. I am training to be a therapist and would like further details without incrimination or anything of course... how young were those in the videos, and what sort of activities? Full intercourse? From your experience, what countries did most of the content originate from? Can you describe the visual layout of some of these hidden sites? The communities, were there comment sections or were the sites forum esque in design? What is some of the most extreme content that you personally viewed or may have passed by in a thumbnail. Did you ever stumble across hurtcore or anything of that nature? Also, what were your interactions like with other individuals who gave you advice on viewing this material. Did you ever belong to groups or anonymous chat forums of that nature? Did you hear of anyone you know or possibly associated with getting in trouble? Looking back, do you have feelings of regret, fear, or any other negative feelings that affect you? Thanks.

> only for informational and curiosity reasons
Least creative alibi award goes to you

Lol, this is fucking Yas Forums we're talking about, don't like degeneracy? Go back to Tumblr, fucking feminist hag.

Honestly don't want to go into detail but I will answer a few.

What do you mean by realistic shit?
3D style animation? Yes

Full intercourse? Most of the time no

From your experience, what countries did most of the content originate from? Eastern Europe

Can you describe the visual layout of some of these hidden sites? Chan type sites

Also, what were your interactions like with other individuals who gave you advice on viewing this material. Did you ever belong to groups or anonymous chat forums of that nature? Never "belonged" to a group. its more just sharing, no comments really.

Did you hear of anyone you know or possibly associated with getting in trouble? No

Looking back, do you have feelings of regret, fear, or any other negative feelings that affect you? Of course, it was a mistake. Can I change it? no. Am I glad I am not that person anymore? 1000 times over.

Use the search engine ‘Not Evil’ (ironic name considering it’s used for CP, drugs and a few other weird things) but I know for a fact that it works and doesn’t filter anything like most of the other ones.

Don’t do anything you’ll regret - best of luck.

Did they like it tho?

pricks like you are a scourge, darknet should be used for drugs and nothing else, stop drawing attention to it

Mostly just confused. That's the worst part. Post wank clarity after that stuff is a nightmare.

I am happy to hear that you are in a better place. Do you still feel an attraction to lolis irl? Or was it a boredom thing and strictly for the internet. Was the material mainly images of nudity or fellatio or touching? What was the main consistency? What do you think about the theory that exposure to sites like Yas Forums causes people to search for this material online? Do you think it would be less popular if less people were exposed to it on sites on the clear net? What do you think motivates most individuals that seek this material and do you think that they simply disconnect their empathy for those involved to indulge in their own pleasures and desires? What if your friend would have never caught you? What do you imagine the worst case scenario would have been and how would you have been caught? Have you ever told your girlfriend of your past? In the future, if there are legal loli sex robots, would you interact with one? Furthermore, how was most cheese posted back then? Was it more of a late night post sporadically or was it posted often even during the day time? Do you think that if you were to lose your girlfriend and your job and stumbled back into a deep depression that you would ever return to this sort of material?

Sounds horrible

Do you still feel an attraction to lolis IRL? No

Or was it a boredom thing and strictly for the internet? Not getting my PP wet honestly

What was the main consistency? I knew it was wrong

What do you think about the theory that exposure to sites like Yas Forums causes people to search for this material online? Wholeheartedly agree

Do you think it would be less popular if fewer people were exposed to it on sites on the clear net? Absolutely

What do you think motivates most individuals that seek this material and do you think that they simply disconnect their empathy for those involved to indulge in their own pleasures and desires? It's forbidden, children are clueless, will love you no matter what.

What if your friend would have never caught you? No idea

What do you imagine the worst-case scenario would have been and how would you have been caught? Jail, raped, killed

Have you ever told your girlfriend about your past? No

In the future, if there are legal loli sex robots, would you interact with one? No

Furthermore, how was most cheese posted back then? Blatantly

Was it more of a late-night post sporadically or was it posted often even during the day time? More at night

Do you think that if you were to lose your girlfriend and your job and stumbled back into a deep depression that you would ever return to this sort of material? No, I am confident in who I am. A much better person inside and out.

Thank you for honesty and good luck with everything.