Ok Long time lurker first time posting...

How can some people not love life? I hate everyone but I suuureeee do enjoy not being dead

Just dont take a load of chemicals thatll slowly shut down your system because its painful for you and everyone else to watch it for a week

That could work just need to make a mask cus i know you fuckers Will record it and post it to liveleak or some shit.
Stil need to get the booz and the store oppens in a couple of hours

Yes it really is that easy. For about 10 minutes you will feel like you weigh 1000 lbs and then your organs will feel it then you won't feel anything.
I was at that point before... It felt like I was bench pressing 400lbs to just lift up my fucking finger OP.

I used to Love life, but mistakes in My life made me give up, Friends ,drugs crime. Etc

This will kill you 100%

Were you trying to kill yourself?

Which you absolutely shouldn’t do.

I was lying down in the front driveway on the ground while puking and limping on the floor. Cousin came and flipped me over to save me. You will panic really badly even if you are on Benzos and alcohol... You will die a drugged up scared death.

I have this thing that causes me to randomly not feel anything like feelings wise and that shit destroyed my marriage and made me lose my family but now I just say fuck it and try to enjoy what I have lol

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I wish could follow your advice but i have nothing left in this life, i have done what i was supposed to do in lite and im done. Its time for the Long sleep

Im sorry to hear that user, lifes not fair.
Also strong of you to Keep fighting, the only thing that keept me from ending it years Ago was drugs and Friends, now i only have the drugs left

Sounds like a horribel way to go out but if thats the Price to pay for some relief then thats the Price. I dont really Care of it hurts im used to pain

maybe you should see a doctor to get some medication to feel better.

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The taking won't hurt much but you'll wake up next day and feel groggy and then your stomach will hurt like Hell. You'll go to the doctors they'll diagnose you with liver failure you'll go on the list to get a new liver you'll be on the bottom priority as a suicide this is pragmatic. You will be in excruciating pain until you do die. Don't do it. I'm not talking you out of suicide I want it too. I want a gun in my mouth pointed up into the brain but I can't have one. Don't do the pill method.

I dont want to use drugs to make me feel normal, been doing it for years it dosent make My problems go away just pushes Them to Side i cant do that for the rest of My life

I dont have access to a Gun atm but im just about to trade away My ketamin for a bottle of vodka with a local junky (cant wait for the store to oppen) im a bit scared i Will survive but if i do il just Keep selling drugs untill i can get a Gun and end it

You can go to africa and start a new. Do whatever you feel doing start fresh somewhere else far away fron everything without remorse and links to the past. Even if you don't have the courage just go for it what's stopping you worse thing you'll die.
The brain is hardwired to make you think that everything is going to kill you that's why fear exists. If you're past that fear why not not give a fuck.

Besides were all heading in one constant direction, death is there for all of us. Shit thing is this there is a chance that this fragment of the universe we call life will and has been repeating on loop infinite times. In an universe of infinite possibilities this is a possibility too. There is no escape. Ever

Someone suggested starting fresh, maybe that would help?