How do I stop all emotions, including the ability to love?

I got revived. sorry.

become vulcan

I don't like star trek..

It comes in different forms, I will give you an examples
When I was in high school I had terrible nausea everyday for a year, to the point where even thinking about stepping outside my house made me throw up. I spent months feeling absolutely horrible about everything including myself, and then one day I gave in to the pain. I dived right into it within myself, I called for it and didn't fight it, I entered somewhat of a trance and threw up a few seconds after. It felt amazing, like I was reborn, and I never had nausea ever again.
But my best experience was when the person I believed to be my soulmate rejected me, and I went into a transcendent phase for a while
sure it was painful, but I'm very curious how far can I go