I've been depressed for 16 of my 24 years alive. I semi-recently started trying stuff to get better...

Have you tried ECT?

why do you think you are depressed

No i havent tried that yet. I've just been doing what the therapist/doctors tell me to do and that hasnt come up yet

I know im not alone and it makes me feel worse. Why do i deserve to feel bad at all when so many other people have things worse. My entire support group is online friends, theres no one irl who really cares that i even exist

idk why i just stopped being happy when i was 8. Since then i got bullied throughout school, had my mother who told me she was embarrassed to be seen with me because of how i looked, and my dad who actively encouraged me to give up on things and seems to care more about money than anything else. Now im 24, no irl friends, no goals or dreams, hate how i look, constantly give up to the point that i dont even try things because no point to try just to give up and feel worse after. Think that about covers it

24 is a hard age for young men, you feel weird and out of place and aimless, you generally have no fucking clue what you wanna do with your life, yeah it's tough. All I can tell you is a) it gets easier. user you will realize as you get older that everybody is faking it to some degree, even the most based person in your head, even the one you think has the best life if you could only be him, user we are all fucked up, no one knows what the fuck we are doing here. Try to complete small tasks everyday, seriously it doesn't matter how small. Make it a point to shower every morning, or wash a few dishes or fold the laundry. Start small, just find something small and complete it. You will find a lot of self worth in just completing something. Around 27-28 for men, it gets much easier, and you won't be as hard on yourself and it won't matter what you are doing for money or what your situation is because hey, it's you're life, enjoy it. And please please just remember, we are all just faking it, it's gonna be alright man, just enjoy it.

I only ask because I have personally seen a lot of people experience benefits from it. I work in a hospital and the changes that happen are very impressive. I don't know how bad your depression is but for people that are suicidal and/or self harming it seems to have a benefit.

Are you ugly? Are you fat?

high dose ketamine

I'm in a similar situation. I'm 25 years old and i have been depressed since i was 7. This depression has cost me everything. I'm physically unable of carrying a normal life.

You can do nothing about it, you have to wait a year or two, it will go away without you even realizing.
Watch some anime sleep a lot to forget