My mind is in a really bad place, been for too long. My ex was absolute shit...

My mind is in a really bad place, been for too long. My ex was absolute shit, I still have zero friends and evidently I bring out the worst in people so I'm thinking of buying sleeping pills from this acquaintance and just die. The other side of me says I must win and not lose but I'm weak. I don't want to be in this place it's too much and I'm getting old.

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Just do it.

Which one

How old user?

Time to go to New York?

30 in a couple months. I know it's not actually old but these past ten years was largely a waste and it went so fast. I'm not gonna try meds for depression again they don't do shit for me, it's die or win by some miracle

Also about 30.

The drugs DO work. They work in everyone. If drugs didn't work, why would you use sleeping pills to anhero? Idiot

Try a different cocktail and stop whining. One bitch ain't the end of us.

>T Almost 30 Bipolar autist

Dont act stupid. Be better. Life is sweet.

Sleeping pills are not SSRI... Or anything like any other type of depression medication either

If you find love again it will be ok.
When she leaves you it will be worse then now.
Know that

But hey it's a toss up.

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I just don't care anymore, ik everyone has problems but I've been through alot. I guess you could say I'm afraid of doing something worthwhile with my life.

Besides, I'd need to take loans out and fuck myself even more.

It's possible to go clean for a bit. First days the hardest then then second day is then when you see people smoking a fat blunt it's the hardest.
Give it a shot but your happiness or unhappiness comes from you. Keep the ache feel something grow cold or move towards something are things people say. I keep smoking and forget cracking upon memory.

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Drugs are def not the right way to go about this. It's all about learning to control your thoughts. Recognizing they are not YOU and that you don't have to listen to them. Basically it's all about manning the fuck up. It's hella hard but it's the only way out. I also want to take the easy way out sometimes...

Why kill yourself when you could kill your ex then kill yourself?

It was both, turned out to be rude (and a massive whore unsuitable for a serious relationship) and me being a boring lonely guy.
>I'm afraid of doing something worthwhile with my life.
Yah, me too...

Last part meant for

Sleeping pills are benzo based, taking a lot won't do it, you'll just sleep for a few days. You'll wake up here and there and eat, but you won't remember and you may shit your bed and piss in it. I say go for it, you might even get addicted to the shit.

Before you be friends with others be friends with yourself

Mmmm benzos

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Thanks user, I simply have no willpower to quit though.
It feels like my conciousness shrinks when I'm sober, like all I can think about is offiing myself and how to get high.
There's no physical dependency, I've been careful to avoid staying on 1 drug for too long (other than weed) but I'm honestly not myself when I'm sober, if that makes any sense.

What makes you think she's a whore?
Sounds like you are insecure (you think you are boring) and it could be that you're imagining that she's a whore.

I'd punch her in the face, take that xanny and run to the bathroom rn lol

She won't remember the next day or two off that press. Too bad the benzo game has gone to hell with RC's. I'm currently doing a Valium taper from pressed probably RC based Xanax. Been sucky, sleep sucks, but I'm into the second day. Tomorrow will be the hardest part. Just hope this shit works, with everything going on, I want to be in a better place before I get worse with the Xanax. I was going to see a psychiatrist, but he has to cancel for the flu, and I'm staying away from detox (and have a job) so I hope the home taper works.

Lol, me too, fucking love Xanax and if that's a US press, I'd totally steal. At least she won't have to worry about me raping her after taking it, fucking benzo dick.

can i fugg ure skull while u observe ure son getting killed?

Lots moar where that came from, slugger

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She needs to be careful, I'm not that type but someone's gonna see that shit and hunt her down lol

I prefer opiates and stimulants (specifically oxy 30s and 60s and Adderall, I could do about 5 of them rn lol) but xannys are fun as hell too.

No, really, I'm not imagining anything. She told me things about her dirty past, she generally acted like relationships are a waste of time because she could be fucking tons of guys instead plus I see her lifestyle is still the same after breakup. She knows she's horrible (literally said that), but doesn't really care. I know what I am and I know what she was. To be not boring means to not be a depressed fuck with nothing to say or share.

OP, you retard, take some sleeping pills and just sleep it off. You will have a good week of rest

Yeah I can eat like 3 xan bars and be fine. I’m also prescribed vyvanse, I prefer it to adderall Bc it’s more smooth and long lasting. Addy made me wanna die on the comedown when I was younger, but now I’m better w it! Come after me, as if another Xanax titty girl matters to anyone heh . Opiates and me don’t mix well. They keep me awake, make me itchy and nauseous .

I feel you user. I feel you.

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She was prolly just hurt and tryna hurt you too . No relationship is a waste of time, if you learn something from it.

This is a very good point. Taking your own life is the pussies way of dealing with heartbreak. If you focus on actually addressing any problems you have you become a better person, way better than that girl. Just learn to have respect for yourself and the things you enjoy one day at a time. Day by day by day.

If your constant negativity towards yourself lead you to this point imagine how much success you would have if you trained yourself to think positively

If you've got vyvanse and xanax on deck I may just have to lol
In all seriousness though,
Adderall/vyvanse makes me feel like I'm on meth tbh, but I don't have to feel bad about doing a truly degenerate drug.
Opiates, kinda the same as you but a miinecraft server person I know has cancer and splits them for free
Kinda just grew to like them over the years.

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What if the reason you want to kill yourself has nothing/very little to do with relationships though?
Still a pussy?

Big motivator; be better than she could ever be and drown in pussy a few years from now

What do you mean by 0 friends we anons are a friends and Yas Forums brings the worst in people have you seen/b/ its ok if you kill your self then we loose one more person

Yes! Choosing to not address your problems by taking the easy route cmon.

Same, I started taking some of my dads oxy after I watched him die. Then did meth. Then heroin. Now I stick my benzos and prescription amphetamines lol. With the occasional LSD trip

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Wait, which drugs is OP doing? & how old are you? I swear if you’re in your 20s/30s .... curiosity keeps me alive js.

Huh.
We have had very similar lives, I hope you're doing well.
I fucking LOVE LSD, had many good times with friends/family tripping as a group. Very fun. Kinda tough to find sometimes (I live Midwest) but it's a real treat to find legit L.

always wanted to get DMT but fuck it's hard to find.

I get that I guess.

Picrelated may be preachy and potato, but this actually saved me. I didn't become James Bond or anything like that, but I did start to travel a lot. I live on a day to day basis. My life is unplanned and unstable. Taking unnecessary risks.

Wouldn't have it any other way. Life by definition is still kind of meaningless to be honest I think, but at least there's some action in it now.

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Never change, Yas Forums.

Hey pedo fuck off

I took a dab hit of dmt (I’d only smoked it before) and it was the most terrifying experience of my life lol. I’m in nola.

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"Dude you should just have fun, and if you Are really gonna kill yourself take All of the rothschilds and other satanist's with you or just send Them away and stay and have fun" ignore the "'s

When ppl are so mentally ill they want suicide, it doesn’t matter if someone will be a little sad for a little bit. That’s like guilting someone to live in pain for mom who barely talks to u anyway. But I do agree with just running away and making a new adventure. But for that you need money, at least enough of it. It’s hard out here to pay the bills man.

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Ive heard alot about it, same with ketamine, but never tried either.
My brother got ketamine while being transferred between hospitals, and he said the only way he could describe it was that he was turned "inside out"

Not that user but I usually look around for Craigslist jobs that provide housing in different states, gotten a lot of weird fucking jobs doing that lol sometimes they'll even pay for the gas to get there which is always nice.
Getting tricked by a serial killer does cross my mind, but j just try not to think about it lol

Oi Bois, since this is a suicide thread, ill ask you nicely, do you of anyway to just actually delete yourself? Or sleep dreamless emotionless and sensationless unconsciously eternally?

What is in the imgur?

Hey user, tough love first is that you need to stop whining. Nobody has it easy and the story you're telling yourself about your life is fundamentally negative and that's setting you up for failure. Moving forward, you need to invest yourself in life. Develop hobbies and connect with people you're interested in. Take on responsibility. Things will improve. I also suggest going to therapy because talking with someone who simply wants to help you figure out your own shit is very helpful.

Do you know of*

I like to think we all get reincarnated, kinda gnostic.
Or at least your mind somehow "moves" on due to conservation of energy.
Being deleted wouldnt get you that, it's forever darkness.
So no, I don't wanna be deleted.

Okay. Wtf are you waiting for?

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Why do you like to think that? But what do you Mean, being deleted aka stopping existing, would be so fucking Nice, did you know of Any way to achieve that

And you came to post this on Yas Forums? This is a tough site if you want help.

I don't know how serious you are, but by the looks of it, you still haven't made your mind.

I don't know. I hope you find your solution. It certainly is out there. It just depens if you want to fight for it. It's all in this. Either you win or you give up. There is no losing.

Please listen to Teal Swan on suicide.

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