Actual true story inbound >be me >17 at the time >beta loser who can't get laid for the life of him >pathological fear of older men since middle school, when some priest fucked me >have a younger sister, 16 at this time >my sister is boy crazy, really wants to date some boys >announces that she's "seeing a man she met online >father and I start discussing plans on how to shoot the creep >few days later, brings the guy home >tall, scrawny neet with brown hair and glasses >visibly sweating >my father and I sit down and tell him that he's "walked into the courtroom" >discuss for a few minutes >they go out >dad tells me "he a faggot" >sis comes home >announces it was "fun" >around a week later, my sister tells me that her boyfriend has said some creepy things >she's worried that he's going to hurt her >about a week later, overhear a conversation between my sister and my mother >"I think I can heal him" >tryingtoholdbacklaughter.jpg >tell my father this >laughs uncontrollably >mfw my dad predicted exactly how his daughter's first relationship would go down. >two days late >sister calls me crying so hard I can barely make out the words >"He drugged me" >I don't know what to say so I just listen >"He drugged me and he let all his friends fuck me and they filmed it user" >I try to remain calm and tell her that I love her and ask her to come over >She crying so hard she starts dry heaving into the phone >I tell her to stay where she is and that I'll be there in a hour >I hangup >I go to the shower >I turn the water up as hot as possible and sit down >The water is so hot it burns >I pull my legs up to my chest and cradle them as the tears come >My skin hurts and turns red where the water touches >I cry and cry and cry as the it pours over me >I think about the priest >I think about the videos he took >The years I spent wanting to kill myself >I have never told anyone but my sister >The waters never hot enough to make me feel clean