When did you live and think like pic related for the last time?

When I feel like that I feel like such a piece of shit but I end up just maki g sure I devote it towards my current partner but then why can't I just move on I'm doing everything to move past it and live my life.but it fucking haunts over me in my head like you fuckin idiot you had this now your substituting it and your shorting yourself.

I'm literally spilling my guts here

lol no we dont all do that.
Women do that.