Turned 20 today and it hit me that it's never going to get better and that I am never going to get a girlfriend. Damn

How about you get another goal? With me, it works to want to be the best at something. It continuously gives my life meaning, and gives me the satisfaction of seeing me improve over time.

haha good luck with that in the long term
it can only last a few years at best
eventually you become touch starved. you need the people, the conversations, the looks of others.
self improvement is just one big, huge, fat and gigantic cope

cool, you already read some greeks, so you can go to the next level but...

>watching porn

that's your rookie mistake
youtube.com/watch?v=7oFVOJf0TzY

masturbation is fine, but porn will fuck up your neurotransmissors

if you still must consume porn, make sure it is superior static 2D porn which still takes a lot of imagination to get you off, forget the filthy 3D garbage, fire up that sadpanda

read some marcus aurelius to really drive the point that you have shit to do and have no time for mopping around and being lazy

then after you get your shit together (don't be in a hurry, this may take a whole decade) you will be ready to take the blackpill to the next level and just take the Kazinsky pill and gear your life towards gradually liberating yourself from industrial society by living in a self sufficient plot of land off the grid above enough the sea level to not be flooded when the sea level rises to just laugh when everything goes to shit in a few decades and watch the world burn from a privileged position

editions-hache.com/essais/pdf/kaczynski2.pdf

good luck user!

Not really, user. The only times I feel touch-starved are in the very rare times when I'm talking to a girl, and she isn't giving me the attention I need. Outside of that, I don't really feel it. The rest I get from friends, and I satisfy my sexual desires through consuming large amounts of pornography.
I've been at this for 2 years. It still hasn't failed. Maybe this isn't enough to convince you that it will last forever, but it's enough to guarantee it will last you at least 2 years, so you should consider it nonetheless.

thanks, and no wait until you have absolutly no chance i'm 24 and I still have some hope life will turn around once I get my EE degree and can pose as wealthy, highly doubt it will work but I still will continue to live untill litterally all chances are gone, would say somewhere around 35

>How about you get another goal?
just change your entine lifes goal bro
no
i need a fembot
if i don't fine one within a year at the most i'm killing myself

I didn't have a real girlfriend till i was nearly 21. Now she's my wife.

It's not that difficult to do if you realize most women would never satisfy you. They don't have your interests, nor understand them, they don't care about the stuff you care about, they don't engage in the kind of conversations you enjoy, you don't enjoy their humor (or them yours), they have completely different life goals from yours, they value completely different things, you don't even get along that well, your problems with each other would just get worse over time, having sex with them would probably not even feel good, and being in a relationship with them would be a miserable torture. At least that's how I feel for all women with the exception of 2, but I can't be with them, because one is a lesbian and the other has BPD.

You want women to want you for your money or prestige?

i'm trying to leave porn so yeah
the kaczynski pill might be ok. i honestly feel horrible with my current life which is really lonely
but you could make the case for a nice wholesome life where things make sense, if only because you go through your "power process" (if i remember correctly that's what ted talked about in the memefesto) even in menial things, instead of the hyper alienating industrial society where division of labor generates impotent and pathetic people
>The rest I get from friends
>I satisfy my sexual desires through consuming large amounts of pornography.
yeah there you have it
i have absolutely no friends, only4chan and twitter, not even discord friends
porn feels worse each day, i don't have any pleasure when i cum besides from a two sec dopamine shot. after that i just feel angry and sad, and violent
i miss having friends so much. at this point i don't even want a gf, just someone to talk to

you just said there are some exceptions
i am looking for REAL fembots

Dude, if you're going to get into philosophy, read Stirner instead. It's probably going to be more useful.

>i have absolutely no friends, only4chan and twitter, not even discord friends
This is indeed a problem, and you should try to fix that. Even online friends are good enough for about 80% of your friendship needs.

>porn feels worse each day, i don't have any pleasure when i cum besides from a two sec dopamine shot. after that i just feel angry and sad, and violent
You should try to get into a more hedonistic mood when doing it, and try to get really immersed into stuff that involves at least the illusion of interactivity. Joi is pretty good for that.

>at this point i don't even want a gf, just someone to talk to
I understand how you feel, and I have nothing to add to it. Social interactions are indeed necessary for mental health.

>you just said there are some exceptions
Yeah, two in many thousands, and even those two don't count. The point is a relationship isn't good in and of itself. It's only as good as the person you're with. Therefore, it doesn't make sense to fantasize about a hypothetical relationship unless it's with a woman you actually like in a deep way. If you haven't met her yet, you can't even imagine what it would be like to be with her.

I met one
that i knew was a real fembot
but
she ghosted me
fuck this stupid shit
what are peoples problems?

I've been in a make believe relationship with a woman I met only once for four years now.

I regret nothing.

If she ghosted you, then you can't be with her. In that case, why fantasize about it?

I am woman realizing that I barely like my bf for these reasons listed. If anything, relationships only destroy you as a person if you don't share the dreams because your partner can be your biggest enabler and hater simultaneously.

maybe i'll find one similar that won't ghost me
she came back once and then left again i have no idea the fuck is wrong with people

Thinking about it won't make it happen sooner. It will just make you feel worse.

well i have to think about it to look don't i? i'v been at this for 5 years
nobody will talk to me in threads even

Human connection is vital for wellbeing

>Who needs a giraffe when the steppe is the only companionship you will need?
SPBP

Hey, that was me at 20 as well! Now I'm 31 and I've never had a gf!

True story, robot: When you make it to 30, there's a feeling of release. Would I like a gf? Sure. Do I need one? No. You sorta become numb to it.

You got that numbness to look forward to, all you have to do is survive your miserable 20s!