Why do so many anons not only fantasizing about having sex with other men but want to be the bottom in the relation?

Same. It started with fapping to traps occasionally for the novelty, but it's escalated now to the point to where basically all I fap to is twinks.

I don't watch that much actually. Just sometimes when I browse r9k and something catches my eye.
But yes I've been that shy weak guy without a goal all my life. Don't think it'll change from noporn desu