How do I cope? How do I get past it? Every single day counts and I'm only getting older and more jaded.
I never had a high school experience, I never had a Highschool girlfriend, I'll never know what it's like to take a girl's virginity, I'll never know what a 16 year old girl loving you as her first love feels like, I'm turning 21 next month, and I'll be a 21 year old kissless virgin.
Women like me, non virgin women like me, 18 and 24 alike, average and below average, even a low level underwear model liked me, a lot actually.
And you know what I do? I get close to them get their feelings to the point where I know they'd give their bodies to me and then I turn them down.
I don't fucking want their used tattooed hag bodies, I don't fucking want some highschool Chad's sloppy seconds, what am I supposed to be fucking grateful I only became popular after highschool? I suddenly become cool and NOW you all want me? You're fucking nothing to me you disgusting bitch, I don't want your slimy cum cave of a pussy, I want young tight clean virgin pussy and I don't deserve anything less!
Here I am making good money for someone my age, with hair and a face that turns heads on the street, I get cute girls talking to me, and ask how old I am and I'd say 19, and they'd be 'oh no you're too old' how old are you I ask? AND THEY'RE FUCKING 16-17 LIKE WHAT? Two years is too much?!? What the fucking hell has happened to society? My grandfather is 8 fucking years older than my grandmother, these girls can't wait a fucking year before letting some 16 year old loser drug dealer deflower their precious hymen? Then as soon as they turn 18 "oh I'm so sorry user I just didn't know what I was doing, he's a losrler without a job now"
I FUCKING KNOW THAT BITCH YOU HAD ZERO FUCKING STANDARDS WHORE.
It makes me want to slap these stupid girls right across their stupid smug face, and that doesn't deter them, you know why?
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