Rape

Well not really rape but a guy kept trying to make me suck his dick one night, like four times, as each time I stopped. One of the time he propped my head with pillows to move it closer as I didn't move towards it. Other time straddled me.
Didn't feel much really, except maybe a bit like crying but that's it.
Am more chill with it now. At times get angry. First time I masturbated after it felt weird as he had touched me a lot and grinded on me but I tried to just let those feelings go.
My feelings about it change a lot depending on my mental state. Now I'm more relaxed about sex, I think it helped me cope with it better. Plus I was lucky, it wasn't the horrific actual rape other anons have experienced.

Yes. I don't remember it but my body sure does