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>ever had psychosis

No, but an ex of mine did in front of me. I was arrogant and thought I knew it all with drugs, safe dosing, mixes, etc, but I was stupid. She was 5ft6 and 42kg, I am 6ft and bordering on fat. I assumed 150ug would be an easy dose for her, I took 250ug. We had a good time for the duration of the trip, she got a bit nervous and shaky but she had a good time.

Then we wind down, decide to smoke a joint to take the edge off and get to sleep, we sit by the window and I even take a fucking picture seconds before it began (pic related). Being the idiot, arrogant, lazy, assumptive piece of shit I am I didn't know weed + acid = psychosis in some people...

She stands up, starts breathing deeply and blinking a lot, I don't clock on to anything yet I just think she's being weird. She looks at me and she looks uneasy. I say what's wrong? She says nothing nothing, she's okay, she starts scratching herself. She always did that when something was wrong. So I start pressing, reassure her it's okay, I am here, tell me. She then says;

"I want my boyfriend back, where's user?"

And my heart sank, I didn't know what to say. I told her lay down, we will put some music on or something I don't really remember, and she did at first. Then she gets up and screams NO, NO, YOU AREN'T HIM, YOU AREN'T HIM WHERE'S user.

I don't remember the details from here because I was going absolutely insane myself, I'd smoked 3/4 of a large joint and was still tripping pretty heavily. She starts to scream. Loud. Rips off her dress, pulls at her hair, smashes her face against the floor. She calms down, then gets worse, then calms down. Just like the acid high, in waves. Watching it manifest like that was terrifying. She then runs around the apartment naked, keeps falling over and hits her head multiple times, I think she was fainting from the stress but the acid meant she couldn't pass out completely.

I remember she calmed down at one moment and it seemed like she was-

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back to herself. I looked at her in the eyes and with a voice I have never heard before I begged her to see reason, I begged her not to make me call for help, I begged her to just lay down and I told her I was the most scared I've ever been. She screams again. Runs out of the room and grabs a kitchen knife and starts slashing at her throat, I literally sprint and dive over the countertop and grab the blade with both hands screaming no no no no no. Her neck is ok minus scratches, my hands are cut pretty bad. I snap out of it and realise this is no longer a situation I can handle and I have to own up to the consequences.

I call for an ambulance, I tell them the truth. I drag her downstairs (she's completely naked) and hold her down by the front door to her apartment. The police come, the ambulance comes, she calms down at the sight of people other than me, but she still doesn't believe I'm me. The police thought I had drugged and raped her I think, I can understand why it looked that way.

They take us to the hospital, lecture me on drugs and their dangers. They asked me why we were doing it during the day, I said "So things like this don't happen" and they laughed. She got taken away and I had to wait outside, heavily tripping, stinking of weed. When she had calmed down she confirmed what I told them about our relationship, her age, circumstances of taking it. They didn't even take my name in the end.

I remember sitting next to her while she in her hospital bed, I played along with her in the end and I said I am not the real me. I am a dream me right now, but tomorrow when she wakes up and the drug isn't in her system anymore I will be the real me again. She accepted that. I got a taxi back and she lay her head in my lap, I will never forgive myself for putting her through that.

I am sorry, if by any chance you're reading this, I am sorry for everything. I hope you are well. I will never forget you.

Hospital staff/paramedics are pretty good about handling people who are freaking out on psychedelics usually. I've read many stories where they don't question the illegal drugs or call law enforcement. They just sedate the person freaking out then tell them to be more careful and send them on their marry way.

That's basically what they did, I think the police just showed up because I told the emergency line she was actively trying to kill herself. The Doctors repeated a bunch of 60s era myths about acid at me, but I was not about to correct them considering I was coming to them for help.

But yeah, they were cool. The nurses were very maternal to her, made her feel safe. One told me she had kids our age and if she found out they were doing drugs like this she'd slap them both silly.

>favorite drug
2cb
>on anything right now?
Sober 3 days
>ever had psychosis
Don't think so but once after being awake for 40 ish hours on acid and speed I smoked and went schizo for a few hours until I blacked
>how have drugs effected you
In the beginning they were wonderful and genuinely bettered my life for a while until I started smoking daily. After that I abused acid, smoked way too much and eventually started doing euro speed. I was feeling myself becoming gripped after 3 weeks of heavy usage and once I flushed it I felt like a zombie for weeks. I got more and and after I abused it daily for 10 days I broke down crying at how fucked up I was becoming, living a high and being an emotionless zombie while stimmed. This plus rolling twice in a week span really woke me the fuck up to the kind of person I am.
>worst / best drug experience
Best probably when I did acid on a beautiful summers day or tripped with my friends in the mountains.

Worst when I did a 5 strip and smoked tonnes.

Basically I've been a fucking idiot and relied on substance to give me happiness and experiences. Stims alone have sucked the life out of life in a very short period but I know it'll come back so we good. From now on I'll just have to be a trip/roll every few months and maybe smoke the weekend type of a guy since in my current state at least I cannot trust myself to be reasonable.

I'll have to try that some time, sounds like a really good time.

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Anyone have experience with Sassafras Tea? Like taking the rootbark of sassafras and making tea out of it?
It contains a precursor to MDA and a lot of people mention that it has psychoactive properties on it's own.

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>favorite drug
LSD

>on anything right now?
Lost my job, so no money for drugs now

>ever had psychosis
50g of fresh shroomz really made me lose it. Trashed my room, pulled down curtains, ripped off wallpaper, tossed my PS3 across the room, at some point tangled myself in the mix of headphones, speakers, garland wires and blankets, tearing it all apart in the process. All that mixed with a can of water and aquarelle spilled everywhere.
When I woke up I was covered in bruises, cuts, patches of hair pulled out and nose broken.
Lucky I didn't get electrocuted by all the wires or in jail, since I've had about half a kilo more in the house. Flushed it all down the toilet during paranoia attack when I regained consciousness. Goddamn mess.

>how have drugs effected you
MDMA made me more kind. LSD made me believe in myself and seek self-improvement. NBOMe made me constantly doubt whether I wanna go for a piss or not for like half a year.

>worst / best drug experience
Worst was when I overdosed on DOM. Didn't realized how much more intense it's gonna be when done nasally as opposed to orally. Or that it would onset instantly. Freaked me the fuck out. Started running around my apartment bumping into walls, feeling like someone's hacking at my brain, while electrocuting my nervous system.
That one time when I found a white head underneath my eyelid in the morning, went to work, forgot about it, did NBOMe in the evening and then remembered was also devil hallucination inducing bad.
Best was my first experience with LSD. Really inspiring. Spent most of it drawing, listening to music, feeling enlightened joy from expressing myself on canvas as opposed to pure pleasure from everything of something like MDMA.

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Does anyone have experience with Tianeptine? Is it stronger or weaker than Kratom?
Also, what's a good site to buy it cheap? All the ones I've looked at are quite expensive.
Are they popular in gas stations?

i induced a bluff shove by checking turn and betting 1/3 pot on the river

So what do you think actually set off that crazy psychotic episode? Obviously the shrooms but what happened in your head to make you lose it like that?

happy birthday weed hitler

you will rape the masseuse

I would like to thank you for sharing your situation and that sounds like an awful trip.
To comment, one of my mates had a 300ug trip where he had a psychotic break and hit an off duty police officer as he as running away.
He's fine now and managed to avoid jail time, but still has a criminal record.
Not to detract from your story, like obviously absolutely wonk time and complete trainwreck but the takeaway is that this too shall pass.

Support your girlfriend through this, meditation is a useful tool. Remember that you've been through a difficult experience as well and you need to develop your own self-care rituals. Be open and vulnerable with your partner and you'll blossom.

Don't blame yourself either, I took acid with that friend and blamed myself for a long time, You had no control over the situation and were in a drug induced state. You cannot change the past, but you can control your future actions. Perhaps have some benzos you've tested at the ready next time?
Also, quit porn brah

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slightly stronger than kratom with less nausea imo.
the three salts have different potencies/durations, sodium is short and potent, sulfate is long lasting/less potent, free acid is medium length medium potency. get it from tianeptine direct. dont do it more than twice a week or you WILL become horribly addicted and physically dependent
Dont think youll find it in a gas station lol

>Last time i did it i just spent hours texting random people and somewhat regret that.
I know that feeling way too well. I always do it when I'm high and bored, for some reason I think it's a good idea to tell everyone how fucked up I am.

>tianeptine direct
Are they trustworthy? How long do they take to ship?
>Dont think youll find it in a gas station lol
I've heard reports of it being sold as tianaa or something before.

Also, can Tianeptine make you feel "Fucked up" or does it just improve your mood like kratom does.
Thanks for the tips btw.

Complete obliteration of consciousness. I was literally a beast rummaging around my room, touching, chewing and throwing around things I came across. Trying to interact and understand what the fuck is this or that or what's going on. My own body parts felt like alien objects, no different from a rubber ball I chewed to pieces. I was biting myself, beating myself, trying to pull my dick out, putting fingers in my nostrils, asshole, anywhere possible. Thanks Christ I didn't try to pull my eyeballs or something.
There was literally not a single familiar concept left. Only endless void I was lost inside.

>Favorite drug
Shrooms
>On anything right now?
No
>ever had psychosis
Don't think I have
>how have drugs affected you
I'm more open-minded now but I swear I've become more retarded in the process. Occasionally when I'm completely sober I will briefly feel one or two things I only ever experience when I'm tripping, like my legs feeling unusually hot because of my leg hairs or my nose feeling unusually warm and prickly
>worst drug experience
Having a really bad anxiety attack from weed and scaring the shit out of my friends because I was basically begging them to take me to hospital because I thought my heart was going to explode and my skeleton was going to burst through my skin.
>best drug experience
Smoking weed from complete darkness to the first sunrise of 2020 while the MDMA and MDA I took mixed with the weed and gave me a really mild trip

ive used them myself and have seen other anons give good reports. They take normal usps priority time to ship which may be slow rite now
You can definitely get surprisingly close to a "real" opiate feeling, but the nausea increases exponentially. i tried 100mg once and my head felt great but my body was just lying in bed the whole time miserably nauseous. i usually do 50mg and get more of the mood boost effect

>You can definitely get surprisingly close to a "real" opiate feeling
Interesting. I've had a lot of experience with nauseating substances such as LSA seeds that I've greatly enjoyed, so this might be just for me. Maybe taking a low dose of alcohol (which usually makes one tired) is a good idea to nod out?

>LSD
>no
>no
>LSD allowed me to cure everything that was wrong with my life
>Worst: benzedrex Best: 300ug LSD

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