Mixed-raced

My life is going fine, stable job, regular relationships/hookups with women.

You on the other hand, are so fucked in the head you feel the need to post your fake IQ score and suicidal ideation here every day just to get someone to socially interact with you. Can't even fuck Puerto Ricans LUL. What an abject failure of a human being you are.

You don't want what you have.
You can never have what will make you happy.

All you're doing is attacking me because you live in shit

Ok then, where's the fulfillment in your life then? Prove me wrong you waste of oxygen.

There's stocks, hunting, and money.

Less than yours, but I get higher off of what I have than you do.

I'll be totally honest,

I think everyone on Yas Forums needs to kill themselves. It is for their own good.

No one here will ever be happy in their lifespan, existing at best. They are better off rotting in the ground.

Do you? Is that why you post about killing yourself every day? Does that make sense to you?

Yes.
I don't want to live like this. Even if I was white and had a girlfriend I would still want to kill myself.

Then what's the problem with you? I'm not white. I'm smart, but I don't have a ludicrous IQ. But I don't let the internet, let alone fucking Yas Forums tell me how to judge my own worth.

Get your head out of your ass, stop listening to incel's opinions on what traits are desirable in people and fix yourself by getting professional help. You don't want to die. The fact that you post here and then defend yourself proves that at least. You want personal growth. You want to find a way out. These goals are not going to come internally, you have to seek help.

There isn't any help to seek. The goals come internally.

And incels are wiser and more intelligent than normal people.

I have desired the end when I realized, subconsciously, my life will never be perfect since I was 8. Why do you think people kill themselves?

There is no way out. That is just luck.

Ok then, if there's no way out and you believe the word of social and sexual failures over the word of those extensively trained to correct your type of mental illness, then there's no option but to off yourself.

But you're too weak to do that. Because you recognize that significant changes in your life, even changes involving suicide, can't happen internally with the way you are. Your only hope lies in professional help, which you've formed opinions about without consulting. That's not logical. That's not luck. That's stupidity. You yourself claim to be a high IQ individual. Psychiatrists have graduated at least 11 years of grueling academic curriculum to get to where they are. Trust fellow intelligent people to help you.

Be my penpal. My IQ is 138. I was previously on SSDI for autism. gourdsquash at protonmail. I'll check every evening for three days.

Fucking STOP. Im so tired of seeing you post the SAME EXACT threads over and over. No one gives a FUCK if youre mixed race. No one cares if youre autistic. Everyone here knows that your actual IQ isnt that high and that your russian internet IQ test is bullshit. I have autism and even I have the self awareness to know that you are embarrassing yourself and being a nuisance.

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Psychiatrists are crazy.
They know less about themselves than I know about myself.

What I am is a bone deep problem.
I have 17 billion + frontal neurons but I have a high prenatal-test ape brain that can only handle 15 billion neurons.

It's not normal at all.
Totally irreparable and permanent forever, and the world demands I be perfect to have anything in life, even life itself. The only solution is to die.

I was born this way because of the planning of a schizophrenic man who is ultimately evil but isn't aware of his true motives, and am going to die early because of it.

I'm not going to run so some crazy idiot to get penalized, labeled schizophrenic, and sent to an institution to live until the government decides to kick me.

>Phone posting
>Berserk

You are pozzed for a psuedo-normal life. Good luck. I hope you are 25 and not 16

I'm not interested in pen-pals. Sorry. I am serious, debilitating autism and this is a consequence of my problem.

>>Phone posting
>>Berserk
What does this even have to do with anything, retard? Why are these factors relevant whatsoever? When will you stop incessantly spamming your shitty threads?

You are like a black Gay Man wearing a cross around his neck dancing in the Gay night club with his Tinder date. He will probably end-up with HIV, but he doesn't know it.

You are at an acceptable position in life. Not the best but not the worst. I say, I hope, you are an adult man.

Ok user whatever that means. Why do you think Im an adult man?

In what way is it debilitating. I don't have any plans ready, but if we united, we could be powerful.
Let me leave you with advice: Mind, body, spirit. SPIRIT is the one you have most control over.

I don't. I'm expecting, unfortunately, a kid.
People are just computers made of material like rocks. You can tell what people are going to do and be just from a glance of their face.

Imagine having muscle paralysis, but it's your brain instead of your body. You want to get up and get a glass of water, but your brain inflicts so much pain on you on the trip there that you don't.

It's not that extreme for me, but that's essentially what's happening, except it's applicable to everything else in life like studying, reading, driving, socializing, playing chess, working, thinking, etc.

Can't relate but things I would try:
Fasting (stop if you think your blood sugar is getting low, could lead to coma - I was lightheaded when I first tried fasting - consuming salt is okay, really should if you're fasting for several days, it's the only electrolyte that really matters unless you're fasting more extreme or you were already low in potassium - I eat cucumbers for potassium)
Eating omega 3s (can get this from fatty fish like salmon,sardines, or flax seeds/chia seeds, need to be ground up - get a mortar and pestle or use your wisdom teeth - I don't trust omega 3 supps - this is probably the best thing most people could add to their diets)
Alcohol (makes brain make connections easier - ask your mom to get fireball for you, pretty cheap and doesn't taste offensive as other ways to get drunk)

I already do all of those things and cardio. I don't drink.

In fact that actually makes my Autism worse. All I do is stare at the walls because of my disability when I take omega 3 and fast and run.

yeah i want to anhero cause i really cant be bothered getting a life, imagine working hard, getting a gf, having kids, it just seems like too much effort

Hmm maybe you could try... Setting aside an entire day to do nothing except staring at walls for 15+ hours. Maybe doing something like that while you don't feel compelled to could make those neurons get pruned or something.

It won't work.
I've sat in my house for an entire year staring at the walls watching anime.

My IQ is still at my biological position even after that during the developmental years.

Same.
I know it's not coming. I know it will never get here. I know I can't start life as an old man. I just want to be dead and done with this.