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I'm 18. That shit still hits me so fucking hard. I never got that. I will never get that. Everyone is talking about how scary it is to grow up and lose that, I never had that. I'm gonna grow up, and I will never experience that. I will never be Limmy here. I have a few good memories being a teenager, a few fleeting moments of something that might resemble that. But I've never had that.
I will grow up, go out into the world, and I will never have that. It's fucked. I feel scammed.
Everyone talks about appreciating your youth, and how it all just gets worse. How will it get worse? What do I have to lose? I'm a man now. My youth is ending.
Fuck this. Goddammit I've been living like this forever. Even at my best moments I can now look back and realize they were fucked. Even if I redid things in my life, did them right this time, I don't think I could change much. I'm perpetually just there. I exist. I've never been to a party, had a gf, got drunk with the guys. I've done plenty of stupid shit, but there's no one to watch me do it. It's not fun, it's just sad then.
I had a dream last night. I was driving downtown at night, I happened upon something. Everyone, all of the people I know but don't know, everyone was there. They were just hanging out and laughing and fucking around. I went over to them, saw one of my good friends years ago, saw all these people I forgot about. We hung out and laughed. As me and a couple of these people walked off to do stupid shit I looked back and felt at home: I'd finally found it. This is where everyone was. This was how everyone did it. And now I know. And now I will spend every day here.
We didn't worry about the next day, there was no concept of time or responsibility, we just did. We fucked around.
I will never have that. For a moment in that dream I felt that. Fully, completely, I had finally found what I had been looking for all my life. I will never truly have that.
Fuck.
I'm 18. That shit still hits me so fucking hard. I never got that. I will never get that...
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OP you're not going to listen but you have to believe me when I say that him reminiscing wasn't implying that his life then was better, it's implying that his life now is shit. There are men right now carving their legacies out in their 30's. Why look backward at good times you didn't have instead of looking forward to good times you can have if you let it go and live your life? It's that stuck feeling that doesn't make you want to go until "something happens" but you have to teach yourself now or learn forcibly later on that something only happens when you do it. You think if Limmy had been successful enough in life that he could carelessly travel the world, that he'd reminisce about being a dirty poor Scottish boy? Come on, OP. With money you can have any life you want. You can go to Spain and Thailand whenever you'd like, go to the areas where it's a party every night, have sex with beautiful young girls, drink with them, dance with them. Some of them like to workout you can be workout buddies and stay in shape. Some will like shows you like, you'll feel things deeper than just lust maybe.
As an old man I learned that YES, WE are right. Society and government does like to keep us in a statistically unenjoyable area of the world. But saving money and not fucking it up with an unwanted child or alimony payments is what ruins most of those reminiscing types lives. The reason they reminisce is because they flew too high and burned their wings. You fly low so you can travel far and wide. Please believe me dude.
Remember that Limmy is doing Twitch streams
user I've been trying to get that my whole life. No matter how much progress I make I never get that. Yeah, I could travel to all these cool countries and that would be interesting, but I would not be fulfilled.
I could care less about traveling the workd if I can't get that. I've never had that. It's so fucking easy to tell someone that isn't important when you've always had that. I'm not gonna give up on attaining that, but I'm just saying it's fucking depressing.
Youth is a one time thing and I've wasted it, and I will undoubtedly continue to waste it, despite my efforts. Still, I will throw myself into situations until maybe I end up there. Maybe.
Bro it's not youth he's reminiscing it's the lack of responsibility. And I'm telling you it's because they fuck up and have kids or divorces too early. You are dampening your happiness with non-existent could have beens. Be successful, healthy, and go find out for yourself if getting blown by 3 16 year olds high off some of the purest cheapest coke you've ever gotten isn't better than kicking rocks with a bunch of shaved head scottish cunts. Youth is in the eyes of the beholder. There's nothing stopping you from finding buddies on your travels to do fun rich fuck shit with. Who says you can't be 16 at the age of 32 on the streets of a country you don't even know the language to?
From my experience I am fundamentally unable to attain that.
I'm not giving up, but I'm not going in with wishful thinking about how if I just try.
Maybe I just need to throw myself into it. That's how I've gotten most good things in my life.
Then tell me how to attain that. I have no fucking clue. That's my point. I've wasted my youth and I will continue to do so. I am retarded.
i didn't even get a kiss until I was 18
now ive had a 4 year relationship, fucked 2 dozen women, and done so many different drugs that ive forgotten the names of some
sack up weak cunt OP you're talking like you're 35, you're 18 dumb cunt
I did a lot of that youthful shit you haven't, though not as much as normies, and I honestly don't miss much of it. I miss having a friend group, to some extent, but I was always on the periphery anyway. Which has been the case every time I've attempted to make friends since.
>Who says you can't be 16 at the age of 32
Your own maturation?
I was miserable when I was making more money. Did nothing for me.
Dude I went to summer school every year since 1st grade
I finished 8th grade and refused to go to high school so my mom signed me up to online high school and it took me 5 years to finish WHILE CHEATING BY FINDING ANSWERS ON THE INTERNET
FIND something you're good at, FIND something that doesn't FEEL like work, and learn how to profit off of it. It's literally the American way. Legal or illegal.
My love for cannabis grew into how it was made, and how it's made doesn't feel like work to me. So what do I do? I grow a SHIT load of cannabis for most of the USA and I do it because it's not work to me, it's fun as shit and I like to do it.
I haven't been successful for a long time, I was 25 and still a neet loser living with my mom before I figured out that I liked growing what I loved inhaling into my lungs. All these psyop posts you read are comedy when you read it in the right mind. Are you really past your prime at 30? Is that why all the guys who get instagram models are 45+ with yachts? Is that why they're the only ones with enough money to keep that shit ALMOST private?
Dude is the future. They got pshots, stemcell dick lengthening, hair replacement surgery, HGH, clean steroids. You can feel 21 up until your 80s if you can afford all that shit and work out minimally. There are Illuminati-tier old men right now who don't want to do ever, and they're trickling that magic down little by little my friend.
Life is only able to get better for men who are smart, make money, and SAVE money.
How many friends have you had throughout your life?
The way I make money doesn't make me miserable, user. I'm sorry to hear that. Also it's not the money it's what you do with it. Have you ever gone to Spain for a week and gone on Tinder there? As long as you can supply a hotel and liquor and/or good weed I mean, there's really nothing stopping you from having a good time.
I don't give a single fuck about money you retard. I want that. I barely know what to spend the money I have now on.
Tell me how to achieve that or fuck off. Don't tell me money is more important than that because it's bullshit.
i couldnt understand a word of whatever the fuck that guy was trying to say. Sounds like he was talking with peanut butter on the roof of his mouth.
>18
>I'm a man now. My youth is ending.
I wish I could emphasise the "oldfag" smile that came to my face was when I saw that. Being "just" 28, I feel like youre such a baby, you dont even know. My sincere advice is to hold as little regret as you can and just fuckin go for it, whatever it is. Exercise, nothing else really matters. Money, fame, glory, all fall to the wayside when considering maintaining the temple that is your own body.
I'm telling you money gets you youth.
I didn't have that either, dipshit. I was just like you, life had passed me by. Here's the simplest way I can put it:
>IF you have ENOUGH MONEY
>YOU CAN GO TO FOREIGN COUNTRIES
>AND FUCK SHIT UP LIKE A LIL FAGGY TEENAGER
>Many laughs
>Many random pregnancies
>You meet other White business men and share tales and joke about it
>Live life
I was in the Philippines 4 months ago and I literally did what Lemmy was talking about with a bunch of older guys on vacation just like me. We were walking around the beach at around 2am drinking and talking about the girls we've been fucking and what kind of girls we have waiting for us back at the hotel and what they're into.
MONEY. IS. YOUTH.
Gayest shit I've ever read. If I'm miserable why the fuck would I care about my body? In what way would it benefit me?
Your life is sad and pathetic mate, stop kidding yourself.
If a girl tells you she needs 6 inches to have an orgasm but you have 4, would you cut your dick off or finger her and eat her and psychologically dominate her to get her off?
If the only way to not be miserable is to have money and a fit body, would you quit your job and overeat or try to find ways to make more or easier money and get fit to the best of your ability?
Cutting yourself shorter after getting cut short isn't the way to succeed.
I'm 36 years old and I most likely have about 20+ children spread across Scotland, Spain, Thailand, and the Philippines. I'm pretty happy.
I don't want what you have. That sounds fucking shit.
I don't want to go and talk to a bunch of rich douchebags about the brainless 18 year old whores we've all been fucking. That's not that.
I want the absolute terror and uncaring bliss that comes with being young and dumb. I want the feeling of unity and understanding that comes with being a stupid teenager. I want to feel like I understand everything about everything while me and my friends are drunk as fuck. I want this: youtu.be
And if that means in 20 years I have to feel this: youtu.be
I don't care.
THIS
and the community and chat is great, it's perhaps at least the closest OP will have to feeling anything close to that
I don't need a fit body and a ton of money to be happy.
>He started listening to The Smashing Pumpkins
Aw fuck, it's too late. LMAO It's like I'm looking in a mirror.
No clue what the fuck you're even talking about
You're a generic depressed teenager and you're making me smile and feel that reminiscing feeling by being such a stubborn cunt who won't listen, thinks he's right all the time, and that everyone's just a stupid idiot who doesn't understand. Fine kid, go on and be sad. If I was sad, than you can be too. Just live through it please.
Also look up these bands:
Nirvana
Placebo
The Butthole Surfers
Siouxsie and the Banshees
The Stone Roses
Xmal Deutschland
Jose Gonzalez
Junip
The Cranberries
Soley
Lykke Li
Beach House
Lots sad boi music for you, kiddo
Ah yes, what a fulfilling life you have. Money and sex, is that all there is to your life? Most people care about more meaningful things than these.
I like to host CSGO lan tournaments and give cash prizes too but that didn't seem like something you guys wanted to hear about. I do giveaways sometimes. I like to go back to my hometown every thanksgiving and give out turkeys. I also tried skiing and I liked it but I can't handle the cold too much. Also I just recently bought a crazy amount of old Sega and N64 games that I lost as a kid. I've got a game room where I keep stuff like my yugioh and pokemon cards. A lot of them I bought later on and they were a bit pricey but they were rare cards and it's sort of something I wanted to do when I was a kid. Now I have complete yugioh and pokemon binders.
But yeah other than that user I'm in my 30's, no shit all I want to do is drink and have rough porn-sex with crazy-gorgeous girls. Why wouldn't I?
Well, being physical literally makes you happier. Or at least pushes out the misery for a short while. Even the laziest of folks can admit to this and recognize.
And youre 18 and gay is the only word you know, so I forgive you.