What's the worst fight your parents ever had? Why did they hate each other? How did you deal with it? How are they now?

Ahh I should have been more clear
It's not that I havent tried to date girls. I've asked quite a few girls out, mostly irl, and yes every time I was extremely nervous to the point that I got so dizzy I couldnt even see. It's never worked and I'm fairly certain its cause I have no idea how to act outside of being a friend. As in I have no idea how to flirt or anything. It just doesnt feel right to me because I didnt grow up around it in any form
As for hanging out, I've tried it and didn't care for it. Too many guys that I just can't get along with (despite putting in honest effort) and the girls always have like 30 guys vying for their attention so no time for a new one
I'm pretty sure that a GOOD therapist could help me somehow because I've seen other people be helped, but mental health care is stupid expensive and nobody takes insurance
It feels like I'm not meant to be here, like a puzzle piece in the wrong box

It got better once I lost my shit at 15 and forced him to get out at knife point

This wasn't for me but this comment srill helped. I'm about to move out and go to college, all my graduation shit and summer plans are cancelled so shits coming sooner, wish me luck

I'm sorry, man. You know your own situation better than anyone else. But if you're unhappy with that situation then the only thing to do is to continue trying to find something that'll make things better. Maybe that's vague, but you said yourself you're not sure what has to change. Maybe it's just time to try something, anything. To quote Marcus Auerelius, "Waste no more time arguing what a good man should be. Be One."

You fucking got this!

user I'll be honest with you
I've tried a LOT of change, starting even before high school
All that I ever come back to is that I'm not meant to be here. It feels very strongly like I got Mandela Effected into a different world with different mechanics
I know what would make me happy, a couple of close friends that truly care about me and a gf that loves me, I'm a very simple guy. But based on my experiences these desires are not compatible with this world, not for me

Mom caught my dad hoarding 3 of my used panties in the sock drawer when I was 16

Worst one hmmm.....probably the time he made mom sit in a chair as he held a pistol to her head and told her to give him reasons not to splatter her brains all over the kitchen as we watched. We were screaming and crying and he staggered away to take a piss and punched holes in walls and broke doors from the hinges. Mom got us and ran.

Uh, every man I see is an abuser so I'll never have a bf or husband EVER.

About a 20 minute screaming match over some random bullshit (theyre both mentally ill). They hated eachother due to aforementioned mental illness and because my mother was cheating on my dad and actually had the audicity to move her boyfriend into our house and sleep in the bed with the boyfriend rather than with my father. Dealt with it by beating the shit out of myself and theyre still toghether because my dads too weak to do anything about it

Probably, idk. My mom has had a horrible choice in men, my real dad left when I was a baby, 1st stepdad went to prison. 2nd molested my sister & was convinced my mom was cheating on him so he interrogated me every evening when he came home from work, I was scared so I went along with it. 2nd stepdad also molested my sister & then went to prison, my 1st stepdad then got out of prison and she got back with him, they got married in 2005 but in 2018 he cheated & left her. He also had a horrible temper & made a big deal out of everything. I bet my mom actually thinks she's a good parent but it couldn't be further from the truth. I haven't spoke to her in over a year.

>tfw no trap son's panties to sniff

If you weren't such a bigot, you might have offered to let him suck your dick. It seems it's what he wanted?

he was my step dad

gross

>he was my step dad
even better

>took my half-sister and said he would kill her and left
Shouldn't he be in jail for that?

Usually over things my horrible mom did to my dad.
She's stolen thousands of dollars from him before and has given it to other guys. Along with stealing his money so he couldn't pay off his car one month. It was towed and he was insulted by the tow guys.
She also cheated on him 3 times and possibly more from what we know. Claims she was raped by multiple men at a nightclub but never reported it either.
She's pretty much a narcissist and she's traumatized my dad a lot but he's too beta to leave. Also because he doesn't want to leave my sister even though they could just seperate.

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I can honestly say I don't remember. The fights started to happen when I was 7 (currently 22) and I clearly remember that at age 9 I started Dissassociation really hard so I don't remember much of anything about my childhood or really last week even lol
You see whenever there were fights in the house(after all the shouting was done with), my father would always take me in his pickup truck and drive like a fucking maniac. I don't even remember what the fuck we would go, I think he used to take trash and go to the dump himself. I don't know. I do remember however always asking God to please protect me.
My brain is a total mess now, really bad brain fog, terribly short attention span, Dissassociation and more.
Oh well, I was caught in the crossfire of something I had no part in.
Very likely I kill myself soon

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I had just turned 14 and my parents had been really, really tense for about 9 months. Mom had been in a car accident (really minor, but it had really shaken her up) and dad had been traveling for work a lot and they got quieter and quieter around each other.
I was in the family room late playing vidya and mom and dad were in their living room when I hear tense voices.
>Mom and dad had a room and bathroom on the bottom floor and their own little den sorta space off the kitchen. My sister and I had rooms upstairs. 90% of the time I played vidya in the upstairs playroom, but one console was down. I am sure they didn't know I was there, looking back
I can't make out words, but they are obviously upset.
Some background, I guess. My dad is a pretty chill guy, but works hard and had I don't know? An edge? He is always super nice and friendly but something about him is scary. My mom was Super Competent Professional Woman and often argued with dad about the 'right' way to do almost everything.
Anyway, after about 20 minutes I hear her say,
"You need? YOUR needs?! I told oyu, the accident scared me! I'm not ready yet!"
And dad said in a voice I've never heard anywhere else,
"You'll do as I say or you'll suffer."
She said something then started yelping/yelling.
I was already just around the corner listened so I peeked and dad had mom by her hair and was dragging her into the bedroom. Mom said
"I told you I don't want to have sex!"
And dad slammed the door.
I heard a slap, then clothes ripping, then another slap, and mom crying. I was really freaking out and was thinking about calling the cops. I crept up and heard dad say,
"Last warning."
And then She yelped again. I was looking over at mom's phone by the couch when I heard the unmistakeable sounds of fucking as mom cried. I got her phone, came back,
more

Can't w8 for pt 2

...and she wasn't crying much, just moaoning. And that got louder and soon she sounded like a porno, moaning and yipping a little
So I went from scared as fuck to boner over my parents in about 20 seconds as I stand by their bedroom door listening to dad rape mom.
Then I hear her,
"Slap me again. Make me fuck you. MAKE ME FUCK YOU! HARDER! RAPE ME HARDER!"
And I heard her scream with an orgasm as dad slapped her. Twice. Then they obvious came at the same time and I put down mom's phone and ran to bed.
Nine months later my other little sister was born.
And now I am only attracted to super submissive women.

My parents were loud as hell when they fucked and mom was always saying crazy shit. It was just 'growing up' for me

I don't remember. I was on heavy ADHD meds until my step mother took me off them after I moved in at 12 and I finally "woke up" again.

So I assume pretty bad. :)

Christ, is this site just a broken people magnet wtf