What mental illnesses do you have to deal with on a daily basis? Go into as much detail as you feel fit to.
I've been suffering from schizoaffective disorder for over 4 years now. It fucking sucks and the medication can only do so much. It is so tough for me to get close to my friends because I can't help but feel like they are going to backstab me, and now it feels like random people on youtube are stealing my creativity for their videos and secretly mocking me for it in their videos through secret messages.
I can't imagine the pain you're going through OP, schizophrenia is horrible but schizophrenia + mood disorder is even worse.
What medication are you and what dosage if you don't mind me asking? I'm a male who suffers from BPD (laugh if you want but it's different to what people make it out to be) and it's nasty, I hate myself so much and it's gotten worse over the years and the NHS (I'm a britbong btw) can't do much to help me but they try. The worst affected are my family as they have to see the pain I go through and how I repeatedly hurt myself and all the suicide attempts and ideations. I struggle to feel any emotion even to my family who love me dearly but I really want to die but I know that if I die my father will most likely kill himself as he told me that I'm his reason to live. I hate the fact that BPD is misunderstood because some thots use it as an excuse to be bitches. I was bullied all through my life and there was a few family problems which really didn't help. I've tried all kinds of medications but none help.
Jack Kelly
You got just bpd? I got that myself and something feels off with you.
>suspect somebody is going to backstab me >they actually do
Many such cases.
Wyatt Smith
I'm currently taking 40 mg Prozac, 100 mg Lamictal, 15 mg Abilify, and 300 mg Seroquel, all daily. I started off with the prozac when doctors just called it MDD. They then diagnosed it as bipolar II before it became what it is now. Thank you for asking and I sincerely wish the best for you and your family. I know a family friend with BPD and it can be fucking nasty.
Jason Martin
I'm cyclothemic. Which is a milder form of bipolar. It can be extremely dangerous for me. I've learned to avoid romantic entanglements for that reason. I just do platonic relationships now-- they're warmer and more stable, for the most part. There are one or two other things wrong with me too, but they've often been the least of my worries.
Lucas Martinez
I think i'm just your average depressed person, i've never sought out a dignosis or failed to be functional so honestly i don't know, i just don't feel like doing anything in like, most things aren't worth the effort, feeling like doing drugs and roting away until i die an early death, you could call me lazy as well i guess. I had psychosis before so i know how much it sucks kind of, i can't imagine having to live with it though.
Well I've been diagnosed with a lot of things but each psychiatrist I see disagree with the previous diagnoses. It started off as just dyslexia(which I disagree with) which my school used as an umbrella term to explain all of my academic problems, social problems, just all problems in general,then I was diagnosed clinically depressed and then went into a psychiatric ward at 13 due to a close suicide then was diagnosed aspergers(also disagree with) when in the psych ward. I feel like I have Adhd which would explain a lot but getting a diagnosis for Adhd is really difficult in the UK unless you go private and pay a load of money. I used to have loads of paranoid delusions when I was younger some scares ones like believing I was invincible but the NHS just told its just stress related which I think is a bs thing to say. I've become a monster with time and it's getting worse, recently I've been held in custody because of something really complicated, I'm so different to everybody else and everyone says I'm weird I fucking hate it. I really want to die but I really don't want to hurt my family it hurts so much. One thing is for certain I'm getting worse everyday.
Chase Lee
Thank you for replying kindly, I was expecting to be given harsh comments about having BPD. Hope all goes well for you OP.
Grayson Johnson
SCHIZOPHRENIA bPD Bipolar
And yet my family makes a shit show out of me I should have just roped it was real
have schizoaffective and ocd here desu been unmedicated the last few years cos moving around a lot and no money or insurance lol its devoured my life ive no money or bank account, unstable living situations, drug problems, and a tendency to push people away shit sucks but theres not much i can do about it desu i havent gotten a decent night of sleep in years the tiredness kinda stick with you i feel you op
I have no mental illnesses, thought id just stop by.
Adios!
Evan Gonzalez
Usually when I'm dealing with bpd girl or a guy it feels like if I was talking to myself. It could be that it's just Yas Forums. You are way more into details than me or anyone else with bpd I've dealt with. In any case. Just try to think back each day, vent. It sort of eases whole problem. Bit by bit.
Fuckk. I would say move and restart your life somewhere in Europe or something but you have no bandz rip
Evan Martin
I have fabtasize about being liked and I have imaginary conversations in my head all the time and I talk to myself but actually the fake audience in my head, I legit pace around my room for hours, I've told some professionals but they just tell me it's because I'm lonely because I solate myself all the time because I'm paranoid about people hurting me.
I feel like there is something else lurking underneath it all and it's going to come out in the next few years. When I do drugs (especially weed) I sometime hallucinate or get paranoid, I've hallucinate on small amount of Coke before and I don't know why because I'm not psychotic.
Grayson Johnson
*I have fantasies
Julian King
I was heavily abused as a child and the diagnosis I got was the sweeping Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified.
I know what it means, that I either have nothing wrong with me or a myriad of personality traits that cannot be put into some sub group.
Oliver Johnson
yeah im trying to start over rn actually a couple months (painfully) drug free and im tryna get my shit together in two months theres a retard high chance im right back where i started like always but hey why not lol not like i do anything anyways
Schizoid pd, depression, and general anxiety disorder. The ones that are diagnosed at least I just want to be locked up somewhere, I don't want anything to do with reality I don't understand humans and emotions
I'm not even sure myself anymore. My psych thought it was schizoid personality disorder, but my family thinks i'm on the spectrum. There's a lot of overlap between the two. Currently on Mirtazipine and Bupropion. Am a NEET as well, obviously.
Jayden Long
I always wondered what kinds of cases went into that category.
Nicholas Anderson
Would they have told me that there's nothing wrong? I only initially went to a therapist because I wanted a label, because I was lost.
Now I'm just lonely
Andrew Murphy
I'm also schizoaffective I mostly suffer from negative symptoms I also have AvPD It makes me hide away from most of life
Dylan Martin
i think i have avoidant personality disorder and social anxiety. i generally avoid social interactions and sometimes ghost people because im a coward so im kinda lonely...
Elijah Moore
My sincerest condolences. Parental abuse will fuck with you no matter who you are.
Thomas Sanchez
What kind of woman would ever love me user. No normal woman could tolerate this.
Nathan Stewart
i went through an episode of psychosis and felt like the chinese were laughing at me and manipulating my life after my girlfriend broke things off and i don't even know what to do anymore, i am pretty much a monster compared to how i was four months ago and i'v developed problems with anger and my heart due to feeling rage all of the time. i used to think i was being spied on and i get very nervous out in public to the point of sweating bullets. i don't trust anybody and want to lock myself away but it's impossible. i haven't felt genuinely happy or fulfilled in about 6 months and i am trying to avoid any form of relationship but at the same time i crave affection more than anything, my mood changes extremely quickly but all i'v been diagnosed with was 'complex trauma'. i just want to have a heart attack in my sleep.
Robert Powell
i feel the same way and i'v experienced a lot of shit throughout my childhood that nobody could understand even if they wanted to. i hope you get better user.
