16 HOURS AWAKE AND ACCOMPLISHED NOTHING AGAIN, SAME THING EVERYDAY FOR 7 YEARS, FUCKING KILL ME GOD DAMMN IT

Go outside get a job and go back to school and get your license op

2 genders xd

God I love when normalfags think they're giving sound advice but only make themselves look like a joke.

I recently spent over 20 hours asleep, exploring my mind and dreams. I sorted out some of my emotions to become a little happier. Here's a cute pic of madotsuki.

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I hope this isn't where my life is headed to

lmao adhd
pop some addys child

All i did was this shit
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Also got drunk as fuck and generally was good for nothing niqqa. Cant wait for the sweet release of sleep real soon

It's not, you have to be a special kind of fuckup to deliberately keep making bad choices.

7 years ago i was playing minecraft, today i am playing minecraft.
two windows, but whats in the middle?
ive been awake for 52 hours and ive just made unstable explosives in my studio apartment ohgodohfuck

Do you think I am incapable of going through basic functions like this? I know what to do, I just can't do it fucking idiot. Are you blind, do you give this advice 24/7 patting yourself on the back for it? Fuck I know you think it is good advice but goddammit.
I do take adhd medications it has only made everything worse, I obsess over stupid shit and get NOTHING done, I have tried adderall, adderall xr, ritalin, concerta, vyvanse, dexedrine, (legal meth) all of these medications at different times, for fucking years nothing, nilch 0 help. I am literally at the end of my fucking rope and I am pissed off..
Off medications I am even worse, if that is fucking possible, I hate myself, I hate my life,I wish I could die but I want to believe something could magically change.
That is nice, I really like Madotsuki, ideal gf and loved Yume Nikki and it's fan games.
If I knew you in real life I would beat you into a coma. You do not know what I have tried to do, to not be a fuckup, go fuck yourself and die.

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Fucking CZ user.
How did u handle dem gypsies? kek

I drank liquid courage and went about my day (just to the store to buy more vodka and take out the trash) and i was really hoping i would meet them or something but nothing happened....with my luck i will meet them when i am totally down and not feeling like fighting.

dont stop drinking then. next time im visiting cz i'll help you remove them (in minecraft)

>You do not know what I have tried to do
Have you tried to just do stuff you want to do?
None of this "oh I don't feel like it" or "I can't focus on it" crap.
Move your arms and legs in the correct pattern to accomplish your goals.
Does your illness prevent you from knowing what actions might help or hinder your goals? Then that is a severe cognitive disability and you should be getting help for that.
Does your illness prevent you from controlling your arms and legs? Then get assistance.
Otherwise, move your arms and legs in a pattern that will accomplish your goals, and don't make excuses.

Thanks germanbro (i assume), some ideas yall had werent THAT crazy haha

Because if you don't want to be a fuckup, here are three things you can try:
1. Stop acting like a fuckup
2. Stop thinking like a fuckup
3. Stop having the emotions and impulses a fuckup would have

too bad it was mostly just ideas kek.
(Youre right about the kraut thing, but i think ive told you before)

>bro just like, think differently, it's that easy

And once again we get the same weak faggot response that everyone who's """trapped""" in a bad situation says.
You're not trapped.
You're refusing to even try to control your patterns of thoughts and emotions.
Practice. Your personality is a habit. Habits can be re-trained. Or keep being an angry faggot that refuses to get better thoughts and feelings because literally no reason.

inb4 "I'm a stupid non-sentient faggot with literally 0 control of my thoughts and emotions and somehow even a household dog has more control over its brain than I, a sentient human, have"

You are just like the rest of them, just sitting there and judging without actually going through what some people do, looking down from you tower. Fuck you asshole.
Fuck off normal fag
I have went through this advice multiple times for multiple years, been to therapy, spent thousands of dollars out of my own goddamn pocket for meds, self help, fitness, changing my outlook. GO FUCK YOURSELF. YOUR ADVICE IS SHALLOW AND FUCKING MEANINGLESS, DIE

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Then you are a dead end. Kill yourself.
You refuse to take steps to overcome your condition and only want to cry. Go burden the citizens of hell with your bullshit instead.

Ignore em fampire
voca.ro/8ypvnsW3Add

>I've already done everything I can, I've tried out all the things recommended to me and nothing works
>''WHAT DO YOU MEAN MY BRAINDEAD ADVICE DIDN'T HELP YOU? TRY HARDER FUCKTARD''
Normalfags really are something else, especially those who believe they know everything. Joke of an existence they are.

same here but I am just 1 year ahead of you escape this shut in bullshit now while you can user before you want to rope yourself like me

You come in my thread giving me generic, useless and overall condescending hostile advice and when I retaliate you just push fuck saying I am the dead end and I need to kill myself? You are a complete fuck up who needs to put down people who are struggling in life, to feel any better about themselves, their failures.

You are nothing but dirt to me.

I have been doing everything I can, it is honestly fucking frustrating, spent over $20,000.00 on medications the past few years to fix this shit, why are you roping. I am almost there, I actually thought I would fix thing, I have already lost my loved ones, close to losing my home. I have nothing left, but I am trying to do literally anything to at least become more successful, its pissing me off.

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fuck user I can not even imagine having 20k that is an insane amount of money to me. I will rope because I am a fuck up a disappointment have been depressed for years I have no drive to change my situation I am going to be kicked out of my apartment I will be homeless and have nothing. In 3 weeks I will be getting evicted and then I will kill myself. I have no loved ones nothing I can not change so I will kill myself. I am sorry you are going through so much I hate seeing people suffer. I have to say wait at least one more year before you do anything that is permeant alright promise me that user do not just rope yet you still have some chance. I just do not want anyone here to think my solution applies to them. I have not ate in over 2 weeks I am dying already

You are a dead end.
If you really have tried everything, then you got nothing left.

Still commenting in my thread and bumping it to page 1 normalfag? Well I truly appreciate the gesture thanks.

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I don't know what your life is like but something that has been working for me so far
1. Decide on big but specific goals to aim for
2. Purposefully set yourself up with deadlines that work towards achieving those goals. You need actual stakes in case you fuck up or choose not to do something.

If you have ADHD, then focus on multiple goals instead of just one at a time. Don't keep adding infinite goals, but alternate focus between the few goals that you're working on. Work with your ADHD and create a lifestyle that has variation but is still productive. It won't make things easier or less stressful, but it'll force you toward progress.

Some genuine advice in the thread, I really appreciate it, thanks user. Have been trying lately to work at a smaller pace as to not rush things, I can try at least to work that out using your method.

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Hey OP. What led you to this point? What life decisions brought you here?

I've been depressed since I was old enough to form complex thoughts, and I'm toying with the idea of killing myself if I can't find the motivation to work after this quarantine is over. Were you always depressed like me, or was there some catalyst?

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No problem. I'm aiming to become a psychiatrist so this is sorta like experience for me. Also
>. Have been trying lately to work at a smaller pace as to not rush things
Note that this might not really be helpful for you, especially as someone who has ADHD. We tend to think that if we slow our pace or work on fewer things at a time that we'll be able to accomplish those individual tasks better, when in reality most of the time it just leads is to even more procrastination. Find your own personal balance.

Brought me here to Yas Forums or entirely to being?
My entire life, I have had issues socially, either I was too hyper and annoying to be around or air headed, I was never able to focus on school assignments.

Constantly made fun of because of my intelligence, got on medication when I was going into 5th grade, things became dramatically easier, I was able to concentrate, all the way until high school, just felt like a zombie with no soul whenever on the medications, decided to quit and my grades plummeted. Even off medications, I was not able to do well or on them much due to feeling extremely down or always felt dumber than everyone.

Talking struggling hours after getting help with basic algebra and struggling with tests to the point of ripping my hair out and biting my nails till they bled due to extreme self-hatred. Eventually I found this website and it was nice finding others to relate to and be around. Generally, I was always a kind person, but years of being kicked down is slowly getting to me, angering me.

The breaking point is losing my mother, just sick and tired of this bullshit, I have wasted so much fucking goddamn time, wishing praying and hoping my life turned around on meds, spent thousands on visits to psychiatrists who give me the same advice.

I would isolate myself for hours away from family to study and focus while on medication, because of that my mother I believe became depressed, she eventually committed suicide recently and I am just at the point of wondering, what is the fucking point. I go through all this bullshit, for nothing to show for it, I have wasted my entire life, accomplishing nothing at all for this bullshit to still taunt me, fucking faggots here taunting me, acting as if they are giving me gospel tier advice. Fuck them, I have always been depressed, due to my directionless feelings in life, I have never felt as though I have any hobbies or skills or purpose, it feels like I could be replaced by anyone

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cont.

Now losing my mother that way, it makes me question why I even bothered, I placed all of this shit over my family, I wished I spent more time with others instead of this bullshit, it is pissing me the fuck off and now I not only am in debt, basically failed school, no job ever, I am basically alone now with no one at all.
I really loved her, just fucking infuriating how everything is going, I just wish I was never born at all. Hate my life and hate myself. I have nothing left and I swear to god, if nothing has changed I am going to just an hero at this point.
youtube.com/watch?v=QMhqL8yGVJs
Thanks user, how long had you been questioning whether to be a psychiatrist?

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>Thanks user, how long had you been questioning whether to be a psychiatrist?
Just last year, actually. I was inspired by a really good psychiatrist online that helped me figure out why I'm so lazy and why I can't stick to personal goals for more than 3 days.

Well that's the kicker. Life genuinely has no meaning. I've spent much time in the gym and in various hobbies, but in the end, nothing matters. Even though you have no hobbies, just know you aren't missing out on much.

Life is about doing things you enjoy. That's the only meaning I've even found in it.

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Damn user. I've never lost anyone like that. I don't know that pain.

If you want to kill yourself, go ahead with it I suppose. All I want to do in life is own a house and smoke a pipe on the back porch. Once I'm done with that, I'll probably do it as well.

Only after everything has failed, are you at all closer to buying a house user where at?
Could you tell me the name of them user.
You are correct it has no meaning, I just wish I could give myself meaning in a way, it is frustrating that I cannot move on and do something anything. I find things I enjoy, I pick it up for 5 minutes and even if I want to learn more, I drop it out out excruciating boredom or compulsion, what do you enjoy doing user?

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AndAre both me, I only made the second post after seeing the >cont.

Anyway, I'm trying to move out of my parents' place right now, but I only have about $5k in the bank, and it isn't growing any cause of the quarantine. I grew up in Olympia, Washington in the USA on the shores of Puget Sound. I want to buy the house I grew up in because I think it's the most beautiful place on earth. It's a very expensive house, so it'll be a long time before I get there.

My hobbies are lifting weights, playing piano, martial arts, and playing vidya. I'm sorry you can't find anything you love user. The boredom and compulsion sound like depression worse than I have. The only thing keeping me from getting like that is me forcing myself to act out the semblance of a healthy life.

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You sound genuinely interesting user, wait why would you buy your own house? Do you not live in it with your parents, can't they give it to you by inheritance? What do you play on piano user?

I do have things I love, just can't stick to anything. Finnish, German, Drum kit, Guitar, fitness.

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cont. Painting watercolors, drawing, shooting rifles. Do you enjoy living in Washington, if I stay in the USA, if I would like to move up there it seems nice.

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This is one of his videos youtu.be/2tGZA-F1_n0?t=1071
Some of the spiritual concepts he talks about in some of his content might seem outlandish at first, but his psychological stuff is spot on.

Thanks user (:

No, my parents moved away from there when I was still young. I wish I still lived there. Now I live in the country in Oregon. It's a pretty place, but not the place that's closest to my heart.

I play various songs from video games: Animal Crossing, Halo, LoZ, etc. I also compose and arrange music, but it's rare that I'm motivated enough to make an entire song.

Where do you live user? Do you live by yourself now? Do/did you have a job?

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Oh this one didn't load until I posted my first thing haha

Yes, the Pacific Norrhwest is very nice. I wouldn't like to live anywhere else. I like shooting guns as well, and I've never been good at art but I've always admired it.

Based teddy poster.
What do you play musically, animal crossing is something I want to play I hear the game is fun, I have halo on pc that I play regularly or fallout new vegas, clannad or hentai games.
I like in Ohio, I do not have a job currently and it is difficult to find one as of now. Currently live on my own, which is nice but I am needing to find somewhere cheaper soon or get a roommate. I did have a job in the past, basically IT whiles back, I had a side gig of fixing electronics for side cash.
I have always liked how beautiful and rainy it is up there. What type of firearms user.

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I play more classical stuff. AC is lots of fun. It's very calming, which is great for me. It makes me feel peace in a way. Fallout New Vegas is one of my favorite games. I discovered it last year and spent so many hours on it.

Living on my own would be hard for me. As much as I dislike my parents at times, I hate being lonely even more, dispite pushing people away. I hope to find a roommate as well when I make enough to move out.

Yes, I love the rain. I love rainy aesthetics and vaporwave aesthetics, those are my two favorite things to look at.

user, I should go to bed now. It's 5AM where I live. But please add me on discord, my tag is Secretmink#6184.
You're a cool person, user. Earlier tonight I had a depressive episode and I was crying, but after talking to you I feel much better. I hope I can talk to you later. Goodnight :)

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Oops, sorry I sent the wrong gif. Enjoy this vaporwave image instead. Sleep well friend

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BASED AND OBLOMOVPILLED
ie haven't gotten out of bed today
im literally laying in a pile of trash and can hear rats in my closet (which is more like a dumpster)
i acknowledge how fucked up it all is but this act of apathy is my undeniable superpower
fellow adhd anons, assemble
who else here /oblomov/

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>fellow adhd anons, assemble
who else here /oblomov/
Brainlets assemble fellow /oblomov/ reporting in.
Good night user, sure we should speak later, I will add you.

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>ywn have a childhood friend that you've groomed to become your personal fucktoy since elementary