Can I just tell people I'm borderline to get out of trouble for being a terrible person?
Can I just tell people I'm borderline to get out of trouble for being a terrible person?
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It's been some time and I still don't get why do you think you are a terrible person.
The fact that you don't even know what's so terrible about me is exactly what makes me so dangerous. They don't call me the blue-eyed devil for no reason.
"Chikara" means "power". In case you didn't know.
I've been around long enough and i took what I can take already, there's little you can do and I still don't get.
I don't get it either, man. Some people just treat me like I'm evil incarnate. I'm not a pedophile. Never made anyone carve my name in their arm. Never ran or even used a Discord server (the worst offense you can commit).
You've done some stuff but I don't think I care, just like I don't care about whatever gunjys done, I think he's a nice guy considering though I don't think he's self aware enough. Didn't you want someone to cut your name recently? I don't see anything wrong with discord servers, well at least not the one I'm in, it isn't any worse, manipulative or influencive as the rest of Yas Forums if you've been around long enough.
What if someone does something to you though? Are you this lacking in empathy?
>Didn't you want someone to cut your name recently?
It's just an open position. Volunteers welcome, but not required.
chill out almost everyone here is terrible in alot of ways stop caring about what ever the fuck you think you did no one is innocent.
You're still a prominent avatarfag and encourage attentionwhorism. Other than that I agree, it took me 10 months to realize you were the Good guy all along (compared to the other absolute mental cases of this board at least), even now, and were always mostly truthful to the extent that being truthful was safe. You had your reasons as you say. But you suck big time at execution, explaining and defending yourself. Why are you still here tho? Every thread it looks like you're more and more neck deep in shit than before. Do you think it's fixable or what?
I admire your perseverance
Yeah, I also used to see mouse as some epic manipulator genius, but he's just a scared little kid but a nice guy deep down. It's all so fucked dude.
But I'm the only person who matters, therefore only bad things I do matter. Whenever I say something mean to an user, they should put me on death row ahead of a serial child rapist.
I hate being taken advantage of roughly as much as I hate conflict. That creates conflict of its own. I never plan anything. Things just happen. Why can't you all just accept your position below me? It causes me immense emotional pain.
Well no one has been malicious to me so maybe you're right, I'm not that important.
I don't have that much empathy to other people but I don't like seeing it in front of me, other than that it doesn't affect me, it's unsavory, I can't say those poor starving children in Africa have any effect on me.
And, well, I've considered doing it for you at one point when I cut myself a bit from feeling bad, can't say I would though, it hurts too much only that this time it's literally, and I wouldn't want to do something that pathetic.
He has been bad to people on purpose before but I don't care either, even if he did went back to doing that nothing would've happen to me, I think the people let themselves get tricked, though he's nice now I prefer that.
kek that seems a bit extreme though but it made me chuckle if you really feel that way then you need to relax it is just mean words on the internet this place helps forge resistance to that if someone really takes it too hard then they do not belong here.
no, it will make you seem like a special snowflake who has no redeeming qualities going for themselves, so you use the label to give your life and life choices meaning(good or bad) when they are in fact utterly meaninglessness.
Imo you are just a loser afraid to grow up and take responsibility for your life
lmao.
Well yeah no one likes being abused or fighting all day, but that never ending power struggle is part of human nature. Change is the only constant they say.
>Why can't you all just accept your position below me?
Heh, what's in it for us? And who checks the checker? Give a man power...
You talking about hierarchies here. I have mixed feelings about that.
On purpose indeed, but he seems to have no idea what he's doing, no one taught him anything it seems.
I've never been malicious to you? Maybe I'm a good person after all, since you seem vulnerable. After all, I always held you as a prime candidate to have my name on your arm. I'd like to be taken advantage of in a position of trust. Would that work for you? Problem is, I can hardly ever trust anyone.
But my whole world is words on the internet. You know, an interesting thing I keep thinking about is that even online, where relationships can be broken with hardly any consequence, people still fake their emotions. How am I supposed to know if a person acting nice towards me doesn't secretly hate me with their whole being? It's my greatest fear. It never leaves me. And rest assured, I'll take any piece of evidence for it I can find. If someone has the self-esteem not to automatically assume everyone they meet hates them, then they don't belong here.
Refusing to accept that your life is influenced by things outside of your control seems like the less grown-up thing to do. I'm just trying to foster mutual understanding. After all, you can't hate someone you truly understand.
Perhaps you're right. After all, I wouldn't be where I am today without beating everyone else here into submission. But as you see yourself, it has its price. That's why hierarchies are not only accepted, but also acceptable. I may be at the top, but I'm just a servant of the people. I get checked and critiqued every single day.
my world is not too far off from words on the internet as well but I do think you need to try to accept that others opinion of yourself or if they hate you really dose not mean a damn thing. If you truly believe yourself to be the most important person then surely the plebs you interact with must be so far below yourself on the totem pole that their opinions are dogshit and worth just that. I have been called a sociopath before for thinking that way but it is more healthy to see others as trash then to worry about being viewed as trash. It sounds harsh but it is more of just a cope and we all do what we need to in order to cope.
I can remember you being mean tough maybe warranted so not malicious, I'm not that vulnerable, well not that you've ever tried anything I think. I'm emotionally vulnerable, though at the end of the day that turns out to be not that important. Hey if you want to try anything I can play along.
I partly act like a sociopath to hide the fact that I view myself as complete trash and want to be dominated. The other part is my genuine disinterest in others' problems. Everyone's self-absorbed to an extent. In fact, the only real way to make them love me is to show care for them. I tried, but I can't.
You seem more confident nowadays. I'd like to take credit for that. Though I'm still aware of certain insecurities of yours, ha ha ha! Everyone has something. Well, I can't just arrange anything for you to play along with. I'm pretty impulsive, so things just happen for me. There's never been a keikaku. But by all means, make sure you've a razor nearby at all times.
In all seriousness I'm kind of ok with the status quo, I don't fully trust you yet but I sure do more than anyone else here. Partly because what you wrote here and partly because uh you know, Better The Devil You Know. As I keep watching this drama I see some seriously scummish acts that make me want to puke, god it's so disgusting. I won't say names but man you're (not you, a*ste) a real piece of shit for abusing the trust given to you.
I see literally nothing wrong with having a hard time trusting others, nor with not being able to 'care' for others. The latter a topic that comes up often and of which I see nothing wrong with, I'm not crazy.
>you can't hate someone you truly understand.
True, but understanding takes so much time and effort few bother with it, easier to assume the other is a cunt, no?
How long is the long con, buddy?
Well, I'll still need to push a few button here and there and maybe one day you'll give me enough trust, so I can abuse it. Until then I'll be your unassuming, self-deprecating friend/overlord. I'm glad others revel in their scummy acts. Make me seem angelic in comparison.
>True, but understanding takes so much time and effort few bother with it, easier to assume the other is a cunt, no?
True, when people understand me, they feel sorry for me. My only friend said one of the main reasons he was attracted to me was because I'm so sad and pathetic. I guess it's better than being hated.
>How long is the long con, buddy?
I'd be glad to know what I'll be doing tomorrow.
Well it's not like you're the only tranny in my life anymore, having other people to talk to and be nice to does take the edge off considerably.
I'm not sure what you're aware of, well I don't care it can't be bad.
Well, if you do want to talk or do whatever I have my discord.
What other trannies do you have? Now I'm the one getting insecure over your friends. Regardless, it's not important, I'm never going back to that place. I'd ask what you're up to right now, but I just realized I don't care. But feel free to tell me anyway. Gotta keep this conversation going somehow.
It's a tranny i added 2 days ago so it's nothing serious, but she really is the best one of the bunch of people i added, not to make less of them, but she's in a sense of the word alone like me i feel like it and she's not very talkative but it really makes me feel i'm doing something and that i'm important to her, she thanked me for talking to her and that's all i wanted to hear really, well we'll see, she could be lying and this could end up being another ghost story.
Maybe it's someone actually capable of forming connections. Feels like she needs you more than you need her. While in our case, you seemed to need me more than I needed you. So maybe it'll work out for you two.
>so I can abuse it
lmao, I want to believe you wouldn't, you know how valuable it is. But still man paranoia is a real bitch, the walls and defenses the mind builds are so thick it's just surreal to think about it. I don't see it as a problem that needs solving though, the world is pretty harsh and fake as you've already learned, gotta stay safe somehow.
Maybe one day, fren, maybe one day. Maybe never.
>My only friend said one of the main reasons he was attracted to me was because I'm so sad and pathetic.
Funny. While you did indeed have this sad aura from your earliest threads it was this search for mental freedom, self-reliance, independence of sorts what I liked about you. I'm probably projecting a bit there but whatever. Not like you haven't admitted yourself to failing to live up to those ideals lmao but still, I hope that light hasn't gone in you.
>I guess it's better than being hated.
And that's better than being forgotten.
You can not force someone to love you believe me if it was possible I would still have my ex gf.
>capable of forming connections
Well i won't even ask what it is that you had. I hope it does, although i'm not sure, it's genuinely nice to talk to her it's still not what i really would've wanted, well i have to cope somehow and if she does come to depend on me i'll make sure to not disappoint. You think too much it's a power struggle, it's not what i think at all.
>you know how valuable it is.
I literally don't. Like, at all. I'll do it before I know I'm doing it.
I wish the light was gone. I wish to be be fine with giving in and being forgotten. It'd be my greatest gift to myself. That's freedom. Freedom from others' expectations, views, desires of you. I've regressed. I'm way less independent than I was back then. What will all this be in 20 years? A bittersweet nostalgia trip. This is all awful, but it's still the best I'll ever have.
Well, you just weren't good/manipulative enough then. Heh.
What is it that you wanted?
I wish that was the case I managed to keep it up for 6 years so to an extent I was very good at being manipulative but even then sometimes you can not just keep a charade going for that long trust me you can make someone make excuses to love you or make them put up with alot of shit but there comes a point where you simply can not force love like that anymore. To be honest I am not sure if you would be able to understand it most people here do not understand it when I try to explain it.
I would've wanted for her to be you, well, or for me to have what vv had, i'm still am jealous.
Well, if you call it a charade, seems like you didn't understand it any better than I do. The only love I've ever known was impulsive, destructive obsession that faded as quickly as it came. Did you feel anything more than that? If not, then you're right, you can't trick a person into loving you if you don't care to do so in the first place.
That's exactly what I was talking about before. You've nothing real to be jealous of. Certainly not of him. He said so himself. Pave your own path and the right things will come to you or something. Not that I'm not extremely jealous and insecure myself. But it has never really helped me get what I want. Finally, I really hope you aren't dating trannies just as a replacement for me. That'd be like... Weird. Ha ha.
SEE?! I'm trying to help you instead of exploiting your insecurities! Eh. I'm a good person now!
oh I very much did feel far more then just obsession I can be quite impulsive however but yes when you are with someone that long you really do feel something far more. It is a bond that dose not just go away. The problem was though that my lifestyle in a sense is what prevented it from continuing on for any longer. I have been a shut in for 8 years so eventually excuses and lies and manipulating someone for long enough they tend to write everything off. I only call it a charade as I would lie and say anything I could just to keep her around. I guess I was also using her for money comfort and to not be lonely so it was a charade in my intentions to be better but yes I did feel much more even though it was not meant to be. All I am saying is at some point one fails at forcing someone to love you and if you will eventually fail then I would tend to say you can not force it. You might be successful for a while but in the end it all comes around. The only reason I would say I am not a complete psychopath is because I felt more. Even though my actions were not exactly the best.
They say humans aren't capable of loving one person for too long anyway. Maybe it's that? I don't even know much about love, so I can't say anything on this topic. Maybe she failed to force you to love, to put in that effort too? After all, relationships are mutual, so she was using you for something as well. No need to assume you were the only one playing charades. Ha ha. I'm talking about relationships like I'm not a virgin. Should've just told you to leave my thread for being such a normalfag to avoid this.
Well, it's some aspects that i'm jealous of i certainly wouldn't want to be him, like the trust you had in him, the way he can talk with you and other people, the fact that he's a neet that can drink as much as he wants and go on nightwalks and the things he knows of, like music, he seems smart.
Maybe it started it out like you said, i like the vulnerable aspect of you, how you would reply to everyone even when they're mean and don't say much, how well thought out your replies would be some times, it grew too much i don't really feel any strong emotions unless there's you involved in it, that's some of what i find valuable in you if that's what you want to know.
After learning that i don't matter it didn't seem fair to be this way it made me want to change so i'm talking to other anons too. It started as a cope but it feels nice sometimes talking to anons, helps me grow as a person i think.
Yea and i'm not dating her, i mean obviously, it's been 2 days and on top of that i don't think she rolls that way. Maybe i just have a soft spot for trannies, i really wasn't looking for one it just happened to be this way.
Well, if you are trying to help me i thank you, i don't really expect you to exploit me.
I am anything but a normalfag if your definition of being normal is having sex then I think that is very flawed. Do you think someone could be a shut-in for 8 years and be normal? I guess that is the problem I do not fit in anywhere you bastards really have a huge purity about what is normal or not. I guess that is why I hate most people. Humans are ants even the ones who think and pretend that they are not.
>I literally don't.
hmmmmm hmmm
>I've regressed. I'm way less independent than I was back then.
Yeah, can't say I'm surprised or that I'm oblivious to where you're coming from, this fate was inevitable lel but as I said I like the status quo. Feels liberating to be an honest to god nobody indeed, that much I'd know. Kinda lonely tho but worth it.
I meant the light as in desire for self-sufficiency to break free from those expectations, almost the same thing you said basically, dummy. Not depending on others in any way because it always ends badly. Since you misunderstood but ended saying something similar I will assume it's still there. Whatever, at this rate those things will consume your whole being so I'm gonna leave you alone and go then, this isn't healthy for me either. Goodnight.
If you asked him, he'd tell you that I don't trust or like him at all and that I prefer other people. Even that I hate him. And I honestly do regret putting any trust in him or anyone ever.
In actuality, this is and always has been very difficult for me. All my posts are very hard to force myself to write, they all seem wrong, incomplete too.
Well, I'm glad you're taking all this the right way in some sense and using it to improve. Rest assured, I'll take full credit and come back to collect my debts in the future like I have with Bigu. And if you attempt to usurp me, expect to feel the full extent of my wrath.
You mentioned earlier that it's not about power dynamics. Perhaps not, but don't be afraid to look at it like that from time to time. It might be revealing. It might save you from a precarious position. Or it might just fuel your paranoia like it has with me ha ha.
I kind of always interpreted freedom as giving in to the darkness. As surrendering and not struggling anymore. It might free me from insecurities, but it can just as well make me give up on ever achieving anything. It's a double-edged sword. But that's the point. Once you have it, you already don't care which way it cuts because that's not what's it about. Some user a few days ago told me my freedom would be useless if I did nothing with it. But does that make any sense? If I truly had freedom, what I do with it wouldn't be a concern anymore. Goodnight
Well i don't really know what happened privately but he's probably very possessive and insecure so it must've have warped his perception, i can't say i blame him for that as i am the same way but well it isn't good for anyone involved.
Well it is similar for me, i always feel like my response wasn't quite up to par and that i can't express myself very well, when i see a big wall of text i barely understand it's very daunting and it just makes everything worse, i shouldn't even force myself when that happens since i probably will make it whatever quality i may have null in a blind effort to make my text look smart and big. I actually don't even understand what i want to say or feel or think most of the time as this happens even when i'm writing a diary. I'd say my default state it's just short 4 to 5 words replies.
Well i'm sure which way i could be taking this but i'm kinda set in my ways, well, not really, whatever way i take it i'm not sure what to feel, i honestly hope you make some big turn around and start loving me for no reason.
Well, if i do find something else meaningful for me i'll, probably, be long gone, it wouldn't be fair to the person so you shouldn't have anything to worry about, i'm not an interesting persona or do i have a gimmick even if i wanted to.
I am very insecure but power dynamics isn't something a care about, i wouldn't mind just giving everything to a person if they can do the same or even if i feel i can trust them.
We're all very insecure around here. It's an endless circle of insecurities. The thing is that I did act possessive of him once when I thought someone could take him away from me. When I realized that it was him who was more obsessed with me, I stopped being so obsessed myself. It all makes sense now! I just want things I can't have!
It's pretty much me. I'd prefer to communicate in as few sentences as possible. Even when I try, my responses tend to be shorter than whoever's I'm replying to. I guess I just tend to cut a lot of what I consider unnecessary. A big fear is constantly contradicting myself, especially since I tend to forget what the hell I'm replying to and need to read even the shortest of posts several times. You've a diary? That's kind of cute. I'd like one too.
Loving someone is the last thing I want to try right now. I feel pretty conflicted and hurt. It's mostly my own fault, but still. I think I'm destined to stay alone. Do you want a real life tranny girlfriend? Shouldn't be too hard in your country heh.
I'm not interesting either and my gimmick is just being loud and occasionally bullying the competition into submission. Some of these avatarfags really need to be shown their place i.e. below me.
> I just want things I can't have
That's how i thought you of being, ever since saki that is, to be honest this kind of thing makes me think you'll end up in an abusive relationship, i don't really like thinking about it.
Well with these replies i do have things to say that i feel i want to say it's easier for me somewhat. I don't think big replies are necessary but i got my reasons for being insecure, i dislike trying too hard because it takes the joy out of it even if i feel like i must sometimes. Yea and i have to go back and reread a couple of times too, i'm sure i must be a pain to read since i make congruence mistakes, and often just stuff that i miss like a `not` or something like that.
With the other tranny we barely talk about much of anything and it's just short replies, just asking how's she's doing and saying that i'm glad she's doing ok it's more than good enough for me, i feel like it is for her too, it's kind of the reason i want someone that doesn't know better and it's alone, well part of the reason.
Yeah i started a diary 3 days ago, to help me figure myself out, i don't know if it helps but it feels good at least that i'm trying, i'm 3000 words in and i'm proud of myself for doing this actually, it's just a txt file on notepad so you can do one if you feel like it, well it takes some willpower on my part to go and write it so it requires something it's not just feeling, it's kind of hard to do so keep that in mind, i have to keep reminding myself that no one will read it and having to think of stuff to write about it so it's definetly not a perfect one my diary. It's good that it helps me in being more articulate, at least i hope it's doing. It's a cute concept applied very seriously i guess, you're cute too don't worry about it.
>Loving someone is the last thing I want to try right now. I feel pretty conflicted and hurt. It's mostly my own fault, but still. I think I'm destined to stay alone. Do you want a real life tranny girlfriend? Shouldn't be too hard in your country heh.
Well i can't change your mind on love, i won't ask for you to explain it either, well, if you don't want to, i'd rather not have an argument about how you should love me or anyone else though i am curious about it. That happening it's more like something i dream about. I don't like pressing on the same key everytime and even though i'm biased and don't have much to say about it i hope you aren't destined to be alone, i don't think it's hopeless.
Yea i would have a tranny girlfriend irl, to me it's much more about the person than anything else well it's not like i can pick and choose irl or anywhere really but i would trade a hot babe for someone i really like, plus everyone has a body and emanates heat, that's all my body will feel if i'm close to them. I wouldn't touch trannies here with a 10 foot pole, the ones i have seen are all 40yo complete degenerates and prostitutes, no respect for anyone too.
Well you've being doing the avatar thing for a long time and you've been pretty sucefull too, there is something about you even though you don't think so.
I'm sorry but i really outdid myself on this one though it was sloopy this is very long for me, feel free to respond with `ok nerd`, it'll probably make you feel better
As the abuser or the abused? But it shouldn't be surprising. Trannies have low self-esteem and not many want them. Maybe I'll have a better chance once I move back to Norway. They're more accepting there.
No, your posts are pretty easy to read. Sometimes I find my own hard to read though. They can be rather convoluted.
3000 words is no easy feat. I do think you're more articulate and, how to say it, more independent-thinking than you used to be? So, writing certainly does help. I've done a lot of writing too in the form of arguing with people online. I think that's also where I picked up my smug persona.
>i want someone that doesn't know better and it's alone
Uh oh. I sense some dangerous vibes here. Are you taking lessons from the Discord manipulator rule book? How long until you've your own tranny harem?
Love's a very difficult concept. I want it, but I'm repulsed by it. I experience it, but I don't feel it for others beyond some very shallow emotions.I don't understand when people express their liking for me. I don't know how to reciprocate. It scares me. These people can be pretty unpredictable too. Their love and turn into anger and threats in an instant if I don't return the favor. It's just not something I want in my life. I can't be bothered with other people's emotions, as I just don't have the empathy to deal with them.
Well, good luck leaving that country then. Maybe you can get a qt European tranny gf one day.
I think I'll take a nap now.
basically but you gotta really sell it in person
As the abused, like loving someone but not being able to have that love back, well, maybe i'm biased in saying this but it makes sense to me, like if saki would end up being all love feely too you might not have felt the same way, i don't know what you could do about it, well i don't know if you really would be like this in all circumstances but it shouldn't be like this, don't accept that you are that way, or something like that, i don't like thinking about it.
Well i feel a very peculiar way about you moving to Norway looking for boys so i'd rather not comment on that.
I think yours are easy to read, from an objective grammar and form sort of way, in reality it depends on the topic, and how i'm feeling, and if there's more people involved, i'm usually just lurking feeling insecure with the giant posts.
Yea i'll try to keep at 1000 words per day at least, i don't think i am any different honestly, i'm can't gauge if it's just the moment or i'm actually getting better at it, i just feel kind of in the zone now i guess. How i'm feeling, what's been going on and mood play a big part on how i `perform` in a way, i'm not consistent with how i am or act at all, i used to argue and be antagonistic to people just for fun, i would do well too in an argument i know nothing about, just googleing everything in the moment, it feels like i was someone else, i don't know what happened to that person anymore, well what can i do, i'm a boring sweet short talking guy in my heart i suppose.
Well, is that manipulation? A person like that was just out there and i found them, i just set the bar low so that i can feel that they appreciate me more, and because i'm on that level too so i can relate, well this all sprung forward because of me seeing your relationship with vv, i can't be like that so i figure i find myself something simple like me, i'm just talking out of my ass to be honest it's only been two days, if anything i hope that i can be a valuable friend.
>Love's a very difficult concept. I want it, but I'm repulsed by it.
Love for me is kind of wanting to know everything about a person, wanting to be with someone forever or having an eternal moment with someone, wanting to show yourself completely to someone, wanting to help them and being the reason they are happy, things like that, it's not really complex i don't know if that categorizes as shallow but each of those are very big feelings, i suppose for me it's more about the magnitude you feel those things. I'm not sure what do you mean about experiencing it and not feeling it for others.
You're definitely not as unlikable as you think you are, i know it's hard for you can accept anything as a fact without knowing why but like i said the way you replied to everyone in your threads back then, maybe it's insignificant for you but not for me, and it's a feeling that only grew bigger and bigger, even the way you reply to me right now, it's hard to explain, trying to explain a feeling is very hard and it's even harder trying to understand it, it's more like something that, well, you feel, i think that's by nature.
As for reciprocating, it's more like, do and say what you feel i guess, maybe you feel it but it's repressed and you can't really let it out, maybe you don't feel it at all, if it's the latter, there's no point in reciprocating as you would be lying, if it's the first, well i'm not sure, wishing that i did it's part of what i feel though.
Yea i agree with you with being unpredictable, strong feelings are felt strongly so they can cause bad feelings in the same order of magnitute, though not everyone or any situation is the same, being caring, understanding and showing your point of view helps if you want to avoid the backlash, it might have a side effect of getting people to care even more for you, they have to learn sometime though.
I'm a borderline, no you can't. You're just a dickhead with borderline. Stop making us look bad.
>I can't be bothered with other people's emotions, as I just don't have the empathy to deal with them.
Well, if you don't feel strongly about anyone, if you don't feel like it's worth dealing with it all, then i don't blame you for wanting to get away from it if it gives you a hard time.
Well that's my take on it all, my thoughts are kind of jumbled so it might not be completely how i wanted it to be, i don't expect everything to be understandable either. This is another disgustingly big post so, sorry for it. I should probably go to sleep it's 5 am. Oh yea and thanks, maybe some day i hope.
Yea i should too while i still have time, i wish i could have more disposition to talk to you more often, it's rarely when i can have a good talk to you and if feels good, though it was mostly me rambling, i'm probably sleep deprived. Short sweet nothings would be fine too.
Good night.
Sweet dreams.
so even aiste needs sleep? i guess youre human after all.
Stop larping cunt. Post a pic or chop off your dick.
Nah. I never really went to sleep.
well since i didnt see you posting im not going to ask what you did meanwhile. coooming
Okay, I was half-asleep. Dozing on and off in half-hour intervals to anime music.
thats the most horrible kind of rest, because it gives no rest and makes you even more sleepy. sometimes it also gives me a terrible headache and fogs my mind for the rest of the day.
I'll live. Shitposting is more important than sleep. Did you sleep well this time? Fixing your sleep schedule and all? How many of those ice cream pics do you really have?
>Fixing your sleep schedule
today is the first day in a hile i managed to sleep before midnight and get around 7 hours of sleep without interruptions, its too early to say i fixed it, usually this doesnt last longer than a few days until it fucks up again. but im always hopeful i can do it this time, havent given up hope yet, i just need better discipline (ergo: not the "shitposting is more important" mantra)
>how many pics do you have
well im getting them off sankaku and the popsicle tag alone has like 40k entries...
Ya wish.
You know that number one rule when dealing with bpd-ies, is do not tolerate their abuse.
Might work better on people that know nothing about it and basically just assume you are retarded. Even then you might not get much sympathy.
bpd is treatable if the person acknowledges their faults within them and works through it. anything else is just manipulation. its like you want to say sorry but not expect to change. and its funny, all you're doing is waifing. nobody cares about your pity party excuse
Okay then. Talk to you later maybe. This feels wrong. Sorry.